after the magazine promoter, everything was finally over... as i started my career with Attributes, things was rough for me... i was being enlarged, so much so that the enlargement process shag me out... there was a period of time where i had not enough rest, 1st to reach and last or 2nd last to leave... that was when i have poor priority management...
there were so many type of management for me to learn... even though i had experience from army, but the job scope was totally different even though it is still under the "LOGISTIC FAMILY"
i was piled with work load, load that i have never seen before, so heavy for me to carry alone... slowly as i focus one by one, completing them instead of 100%, i complete them at 80%. because i cannot afford to focus 100% on 1 thing and leave the rest undone. when i complete like 80% of many things, the overall completion rate was higher then the 100% that i have been focusing on. though i know this theory, i couldnt put them into use because i was a perfectionist! i want to complete 100% before i go into the next thing but i realise that i can't, not because i couldn't...
life was really packed up, mainly with work. working in the house of God was really great because i am exposed to more stress. you guys might think i'm crazy to say this but, the more stress that is on you, the more you will be expanded in terms of details and managements.
pastor also said before that no problem is greater then the God we serve... instead, turn to the problem and tell the problem that the God i serve and worship is bigger than them...
i was watching this video for the first time. it was mind blowing!!! all should watch... no kidding you! it tells you how small you are and how big God is... amazing video...
http://www.268generation.com/videoplayer/player.php?videoid=Indescrwide1&quality=hi
we are small, yet God chose to dwell in us. hmmm... how does God's full presence feels like? i'm hungry for it... i am building my foundation again! back to first love...
GOD!! I LOVE YOU !!!
Monday, April 6, 2009
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
climbing up
after all the downs, there is always an up. i was shortly called up for round 2 of interview and i was asked to start work like wednesday, 25th, and i was able to relate all the things i did in army into good use here in attributes... =) God has prepared me for this day... Wooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!
after long intensive training in army, doing the things i am doing now, i am very very confident that i am able to withstand the stress level and multi tasking that i am tasked to do. just sad that there is no bed for me, so i have to go home everyday after i am done with work. but i hate to leave today's work for tomorrow... it is snowballing... bad for health also...
anyway, i have noticed that many young man cannot do admin job properly... i dunno why also but i am thankful to God that i am able to do admin job perfectly with very very very very minimum errors in it.
everything is starting to be clear to me what am i suppose to do. things are going so well now... =) i'm so glad that things are going well now... =)
all these happened after i have given to the storehouse of God. signs of me to give my tithes... it was spoken after CGM and service 4 by pastor Tan.
Malachi
3:8
"Will a man rob God? Yet you have robbed Me! But you say, 'In what way have we robbed You?' In tithes and offerings.
3:9
You are cursed with a curse, For you have robbed Me, Even this whole nation.
3:10
Bring all the tithes into the storehouse, That there may be food in My house, And try Me now in this," Says the Lord of hosts, "If I will not open for you the windows of heaven And pour out for you such blessing That there will not be room enough to receive it.
3:11
"And I will rebuke the devourer for your sakes, So that he will not destroy the fruit of your ground, Nor shall the vine fail to bear fruit for you in the field," Says the Lord of hosts;
3:12
"And all nations will call you blessed, For you will be a delightful land," Says the Lord of hosts.
3:13
"Your words have been harsh against Me," Says the Lord, "Yet you say, 'What have we spoken against You?'
3:14
You have said, 'It is useless to serve God; What profit is it that we have kept His ordinance, And that we have walked as mourners Before the Lord of hosts?
3:15
So now we call the proud blessed, For those who do wickedness are raised up; They even tempt God and go free.' "
3:16
Then those who feared the Lord spoke to one another, And the Lord listened and heard them; So a book of remembrance was written before Him For those who fear the Lord And who meditate on His name.
3:17
"They shall be Mine," says the Lord of hosts, "On the day that I make them My jewels. And I will spare them As a man spares his own son who serves him."
3:18
Then you shall again discern Between the righteous and the wicked, Between one who serves God And one who does not serve Him.
This verse happen on the same week. to me, it is not something man synchronised, but everything was done by the grace of God. before that, it was everything upside down...
Bottomline... Trust God that when you bring it into the storehouse, more will come from the windows of heaven! =)
after long intensive training in army, doing the things i am doing now, i am very very confident that i am able to withstand the stress level and multi tasking that i am tasked to do. just sad that there is no bed for me, so i have to go home everyday after i am done with work. but i hate to leave today's work for tomorrow... it is snowballing... bad for health also...
anyway, i have noticed that many young man cannot do admin job properly... i dunno why also but i am thankful to God that i am able to do admin job perfectly with very very very very minimum errors in it.
everything is starting to be clear to me what am i suppose to do. things are going so well now... =) i'm so glad that things are going well now... =)
all these happened after i have given to the storehouse of God. signs of me to give my tithes... it was spoken after CGM and service 4 by pastor Tan.
Malachi
3:8
"Will a man rob God? Yet you have robbed Me! But you say, 'In what way have we robbed You?' In tithes and offerings.
3:9
You are cursed with a curse, For you have robbed Me, Even this whole nation.
3:10
Bring all the tithes into the storehouse, That there may be food in My house, And try Me now in this," Says the Lord of hosts, "If I will not open for you the windows of heaven And pour out for you such blessing That there will not be room enough to receive it.
3:11
"And I will rebuke the devourer for your sakes, So that he will not destroy the fruit of your ground, Nor shall the vine fail to bear fruit for you in the field," Says the Lord of hosts;
3:12
"And all nations will call you blessed, For you will be a delightful land," Says the Lord of hosts.
3:13
"Your words have been harsh against Me," Says the Lord, "Yet you say, 'What have we spoken against You?'
3:14
You have said, 'It is useless to serve God; What profit is it that we have kept His ordinance, And that we have walked as mourners Before the Lord of hosts?
3:15
So now we call the proud blessed, For those who do wickedness are raised up; They even tempt God and go free.' "
3:16
Then those who feared the Lord spoke to one another, And the Lord listened and heard them; So a book of remembrance was written before Him For those who fear the Lord And who meditate on His name.
3:17
"They shall be Mine," says the Lord of hosts, "On the day that I make them My jewels. And I will spare them As a man spares his own son who serves him."
3:18
Then you shall again discern Between the righteous and the wicked, Between one who serves God And one who does not serve Him.
This verse happen on the same week. to me, it is not something man synchronised, but everything was done by the grace of God. before that, it was everything upside down...
Bottomline... Trust God that when you bring it into the storehouse, more will come from the windows of heaven! =)
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Days after CNY
Life indeed have a curve, curve of ups and downs. just when my life is picking up, my finances are going at the same time, lower and faster then i can ever thought of... My manager is delaying my pay... Goodness! i have no simple idea why is he doing so.
Letters after letters, reminders after reminders from those companies. I was unable to make payments due to such matters. My mind was really pushed to the edge, As i pray hard, persistant praying, somehow there are food coming my way and i didn't pay a cent. Sometimes when there is no sales, i wil just make a simple prayer by asking God to give me 1 sales and indeed it really came.
God has been faithful and has been answering to prayers that i requested. During the morning prayer meeting from 9th to 13th Feb, i attended all of the prayer meetings. Throughout all the prayer meetings, i wil be asking for the same thing over and over, again and again. seeking persistantly and some have already taken place.
Today i also had an interview at attributes, had an initial round of interview with Gilian and Valerie. I have no idea on what the outcome will be like but i hope that the outcome will be positive and will engage me to work. I hope that they will call me up for round 2 of interview. =)
Thank you Lord for everything You have done in my life. I now ask for revival to take place!
Letters after letters, reminders after reminders from those companies. I was unable to make payments due to such matters. My mind was really pushed to the edge, As i pray hard, persistant praying, somehow there are food coming my way and i didn't pay a cent. Sometimes when there is no sales, i wil just make a simple prayer by asking God to give me 1 sales and indeed it really came.
God has been faithful and has been answering to prayers that i requested. During the morning prayer meeting from 9th to 13th Feb, i attended all of the prayer meetings. Throughout all the prayer meetings, i wil be asking for the same thing over and over, again and again. seeking persistantly and some have already taken place.
Today i also had an interview at attributes, had an initial round of interview with Gilian and Valerie. I have no idea on what the outcome will be like but i hope that the outcome will be positive and will engage me to work. I hope that they will call me up for round 2 of interview. =)
Thank you Lord for everything You have done in my life. I now ask for revival to take place!
Thursday, February 5, 2009
House warming
Sat was wen jie and siew lee's new house warming and also another get together with jia hui, desmond and wife at their places. though they didnt have much, so they ask if it is ok for us to cook a little thing over and we'll dine together. we were all alright with the idea. i was the first to reach, so i got myself to start preparing the spaggatti for the second time. but this time with a little pressure, their stomach depends on my noodles.
this time round, the spaggatti was less oily but the texture is still hard. i can't figure out why. it's so sad for me. i need to find a reason to decode it, so that i can cook better the next time round. this time round, i cook the noodles with salt instead of plain boiling water. also i cooked a dish of vegetables. everything was meat less mine... flour and vegetables... we had prawns, sotong balls, fish balls, chicken, mutton, pork meat with satay sauce and fried chicken wings. we were very filled at the end of the eating session. everything was finished up, leaving the chilli sauce and my pamasen cheese and a little of the oily spaggatti. we still have cheese cake as desert.
follow by that, we played blackjack, dai dee and texas poker. of course, money was involved though as small as 10 cents games. i did win some during the blackjack and daidee but lost all my winnings and some money in the game of texas. desmond was the sole winner, winning back like $10 from us.
follow on, after we left siew lee's place, i followed jiahui to his relatives place. i wasnt really expecting to go up because i don't know them at all. but my best buddy's mummy wanted me to come up, so i just have to say ok. going up with the laptop in my hand, i was thinking what should i be expecting. when i reach the door, i was greeted by my buddy's sister and she brought me in. i greeted everyone in the house "uncle, aunties, xin nian quai le." with a smile in my face. guess what? everyone ignores me. did they hear me or they were just busy playing their mahjong session? hmmm....
after that we headed home. another long day... =)
this time round, the spaggatti was less oily but the texture is still hard. i can't figure out why. it's so sad for me. i need to find a reason to decode it, so that i can cook better the next time round. this time round, i cook the noodles with salt instead of plain boiling water. also i cooked a dish of vegetables. everything was meat less mine... flour and vegetables... we had prawns, sotong balls, fish balls, chicken, mutton, pork meat with satay sauce and fried chicken wings. we were very filled at the end of the eating session. everything was finished up, leaving the chilli sauce and my pamasen cheese and a little of the oily spaggatti. we still have cheese cake as desert.
follow by that, we played blackjack, dai dee and texas poker. of course, money was involved though as small as 10 cents games. i did win some during the blackjack and daidee but lost all my winnings and some money in the game of texas. desmond was the sole winner, winning back like $10 from us.
follow on, after we left siew lee's place, i followed jiahui to his relatives place. i wasnt really expecting to go up because i don't know them at all. but my best buddy's mummy wanted me to come up, so i just have to say ok. going up with the laptop in my hand, i was thinking what should i be expecting. when i reach the door, i was greeted by my buddy's sister and she brought me in. i greeted everyone in the house "uncle, aunties, xin nian quai le." with a smile in my face. guess what? everyone ignores me. did they hear me or they were just busy playing their mahjong session? hmmm....
after that we headed home. another long day... =)
Chinese new year
as i started using my A4 size organiser, i start to realise that my activities have been piling up like crazy business... at the same time, money is leaking out from the part, part time work that i'm into.
where has all my hard earn money gone to? =( did i spend it most by taking buses and train? why did i bury myself into so many activities? was it to stretch myself or keep myself busy? sometimes when i think about it, i can't answer myself to all these questions. it is so strange, why all these and not those? what are the other ways that i can manage my times since i have habits of idling at home when i'm resting? am i physically tired? why am i not doing all these things? seriously, no answer for my actions.
during chinese new year, it was my first attempt to cook for my whole entire family. i was cooking spaggatti and 1 additional more that i can't remember what is the name for it, for my whole family. Being excited, here's what i did for cooking my spaggatti:
cooking the spaggatti noodles in boiling water.
chopping garlic cloves into bits and soak with cooking oil.
put in cooked spaggatti and fry.
add pinches of salt, pepper and butters.
fry again abd before serving, add another scoop of butter.
it came out a little too oily on the surface and very hard inside. i don't know why it turn out ot be like that. kinda sad that i didn't get what i wanted. but it's ok... i will be able to do it better next time, because i missed out a few steps. hahaha
there wasnt much excitements in this chinese new year. somehow dunno why it is like so boring. and this is just day 1.
day 2, i went over to my "wai puo", which means my mother's mother place to bai nian. for so long i have not seen by "biao di", they have all grown up and i seriously could not recognise them well. and worst still, i thought that they were someone else. also to my shock, they started smoking. i was very shock to see it. so i talk to one of my biao di and asked him why smoke? he couldn't really answer me well. somehow or rather, i feel that it is the influence of their dad, or by their eldest brother, who is also a smoker.
i even asked if their mum is agreeable with the idea that they were smoking, expected answers came out from his lips. he told me that his mum don't wish to see them smoke. i, as an ex smoker, knew how parents feel because it really will break the hearts of the parents. smoking is not really so cool afterall. it's so money wasting. i regretted smoking so heavily last time but thank God that i manage to quit in time. though temptations still still comes along the way, i always ask myself what are the side effects for that. it would be stomach upset, stoned for hours, cold sweat, blur and tired. these are the horrible feels that an ex-smokers gets after quitting smoking for so long and picks it up again.
thereafter, i had dinner at my wai puo's place. there wasn't a lot of varietys but there were a lot of meat. prawns, chicken, ducks and pork. all tasty and oily. i didn't ate much because i was heading over to Ruth's place to eat too. i was there way late, i reach about 9plus and there were really still lots of food left. so i did my best, trying to finish as much as i could. i didn't know that her dad was a cook. he was a zhu chao chef! the food was really great. but it's such a waste that i couldn't finish much.
after this, i head home... what a long day i had...
where has all my hard earn money gone to? =( did i spend it most by taking buses and train? why did i bury myself into so many activities? was it to stretch myself or keep myself busy? sometimes when i think about it, i can't answer myself to all these questions. it is so strange, why all these and not those? what are the other ways that i can manage my times since i have habits of idling at home when i'm resting? am i physically tired? why am i not doing all these things? seriously, no answer for my actions.
during chinese new year, it was my first attempt to cook for my whole entire family. i was cooking spaggatti and 1 additional more that i can't remember what is the name for it, for my whole family. Being excited, here's what i did for cooking my spaggatti:
cooking the spaggatti noodles in boiling water.
chopping garlic cloves into bits and soak with cooking oil.
put in cooked spaggatti and fry.
add pinches of salt, pepper and butters.
fry again abd before serving, add another scoop of butter.
it came out a little too oily on the surface and very hard inside. i don't know why it turn out ot be like that. kinda sad that i didn't get what i wanted. but it's ok... i will be able to do it better next time, because i missed out a few steps. hahaha
there wasnt much excitements in this chinese new year. somehow dunno why it is like so boring. and this is just day 1.
day 2, i went over to my "wai puo", which means my mother's mother place to bai nian. for so long i have not seen by "biao di", they have all grown up and i seriously could not recognise them well. and worst still, i thought that they were someone else. also to my shock, they started smoking. i was very shock to see it. so i talk to one of my biao di and asked him why smoke? he couldn't really answer me well. somehow or rather, i feel that it is the influence of their dad, or by their eldest brother, who is also a smoker.
i even asked if their mum is agreeable with the idea that they were smoking, expected answers came out from his lips. he told me that his mum don't wish to see them smoke. i, as an ex smoker, knew how parents feel because it really will break the hearts of the parents. smoking is not really so cool afterall. it's so money wasting. i regretted smoking so heavily last time but thank God that i manage to quit in time. though temptations still still comes along the way, i always ask myself what are the side effects for that. it would be stomach upset, stoned for hours, cold sweat, blur and tired. these are the horrible feels that an ex-smokers gets after quitting smoking for so long and picks it up again.
thereafter, i had dinner at my wai puo's place. there wasn't a lot of varietys but there were a lot of meat. prawns, chicken, ducks and pork. all tasty and oily. i didn't ate much because i was heading over to Ruth's place to eat too. i was there way late, i reach about 9plus and there were really still lots of food left. so i did my best, trying to finish as much as i could. i didn't know that her dad was a cook. he was a zhu chao chef! the food was really great. but it's such a waste that i couldn't finish much.
after this, i head home... what a long day i had...
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