Embarking into a new journey

as my course continue, the amount of time for me to sleep is getting lesser and lesser. the amount of water that i am suppose to drink also cut down tremendously. I'm lacking water in my body and thus, I'm sick now. just the 3rd day alone, i have gotten throat infection and flu. though its not killing me, it is irritating me a lot.


i wonder how long must i sleep to cover back the hours i missed sleeping. my eyes were like popping out and often getting tired easier now in the morning especially. every now and than will keep yawning and yawning a lot.

hope everything is going the right way now for me and hope no one will hinder me my clearing my debts as of now. yesterday i nearly had a quarrel with one of my friend over MLM stuff. where got such good things as find 2 friends to join under me and earn 9k every month? to me its a con because the top people get everything and they will be asking you to bring in more people and their pocket will grow fatter! i don't know if he is new to MLM or what but i hope he wont get cheated.

my prayers to God;

Dear almighty God, full of grace, i really hope my path will be
cleared
from obstacles as of now so that i can clear my debts in time and in
peace!
and i also hope that the weather will be better these
days, the weather can make one fall sick easily and i am
falling
sick already! please please don't make me fall sick. i know you know
that i have
a tough body but that does not means that i have no weak point. please
spare me and everyone a thought. thank you. with my humble heart i pray to
you,
Amen.

i hope after this prayers, everything will be fine and i will be able to lead my normal life again.
btw, i have friends selling customised polo t shirt designs and men's T-shirt. do quote my name and i hope you will have a cheaper price.

Leadership camp

i was away for course on 2 weeks and i have learn a lot of new things throughout the course. a very fruitful one but it's sad that we have to go on out own ways as the course ended. now i have embark into another level of training, which i think it will be over very fast. i HOPE it will be fast! it will be a 4 week not enough sleep course! damn!

hope i don't have to spend much on "unnecessary" items as i am now very tight on my budget. I'm so tight with my budget till i have to ask help from friends... its just not me... i felt uneasy borrowing from others and now i also have fear lending to others. i wonder when can i finish clearing my debts and have sufficient money to save up?

should i work in restaurants to gain experience?
or should i stay a little longer in the army?

hmmmmm......

should i or should i not? choosing friends carefully

wilson has agreed to pay me back SGD7000 and SGD1000 every month but he failed. he cut his line shortly after he agreed to pay me that amount. being so proud, he actually hurt my pocket, trust and friendship with him because of the way he treat me. i have endured him a lot but today, i have to let it out. he's really a jerk that only knows how to smoke, play game and NOT FIND A JOB! as he say i want to find a job that will suit me.

why didnt i saw that clearly before i agree to help him? i regretted a lot by helping this jerk! played my money real bad and made me into unnecessory debts. now i have to souce out the money by myself and clear them myself. some kinda friend he is!

but the more important thing is,

should i get back from him by knocking at his door?
should i pity him or not?
should i give him a longer time to pay back?
should i forgive and forget????????

please leave your comments as i am really stuck in a spot.

The stone hurts, but i see my friends giving me first aid!

*BANG* the stone drop hard on me every month, and this month was the worst! as i was on course now and i still need to buy some stupid stuff. so sad...

i got to know some new friends over there and i was really happy to know them. i hope that even after the course has ended, we will still be able to find time for some outing and hope that all will be able to come. we had lots of fun during the 2 weeks and i have also learn a lot of things even though some of the lessons are really boring and dry.

before the course starts, my unit always like to find trouble with other units at the guard room but after this course, i will do my best to stop this rubbish as of now.

the bills came flooding my mailbox and all were like going to overdue and yet i still cant think of a solution. i was real stress... thanks wilson, you busted me!

A stone was lifted off my mind

lately i was so stressed up. can say quite bad this time round. 20 more days to next pay day, and i have always been looking for this day to come nearer because of the liabilities. kinda sick to repeat those sickening sad things that how these liabilities got into me. sigh~

just as when it was my darkest hour, (or was it just the beginning?) i manage to find someone to help me that is willing to give me a loan of 260. i was glad to hear. as some of you people already know that my line was disconnected, it was because of due to some reasons which i am just too sad to explain. (but i don't know why did i kept looping back to the sad topic!)

well, anyway, on that night was ranger's friend, Wenlin's birthday. there was a little people but a lot of food! it wasn't the usual me that i could stop eating so soon. my appetite has change! i ate far just too little food and i was bloated! at that point of time, i have not had any gassy drinks yet and i was like so full in my tummy! but all i could remember was that i ate 30 odds otah! that sounds kinda scary but i don't know why i just kept eating them as ranger bought 130 otah for a less than 30 people chalet!!! yup, a birthday celebration less than 30 person! sometimes its good to have your closest friends with you celebrating your birthday but the bad thing is, you better know if your friend can eat a small hump of food or food as high as Fuji mountain! haha there was too many wasted food. kinda sad to throw them away as it is such a waste!

i did not sleep that night, even though i stink. after the BBQ, all of us went for a short fish at the sea with ranger's new date!!! could you believe that he has a new date? I'm really happy for him that he got a new date! hope he will cherish her if they were together. after the fishing session, we all headed back to the chalet and some of us started to watch movies. Rules of Engagement, Final Fantasy 1 & 2 and Hollow man 2 (but halfway because gotta check out!) i have not watch movies for that long and i felt great after that and the best thing, I'm not sleepy or tired!

after we checked out, ranger send the remaining people home. he car seems to be overloaded by itemssss. hahaha... i was really a fun night! i got to destress myself a lot and i am feeling a lot better now! thanks for his invitation over to the chalet or not I'll be rotting and vexing over these matters and will go crazy soon enough! hope every week, someone will ask me out to ECP or changi beach to view the quiet sea. it somehow makes me felt easy and at ease. i felt peace at the very moment when i sat down on the rocks, watching the waves hitting against the rock gently. all my worries was forgotten by the peaceful silent night. i was really an enjoyable day!