phase 3 and onwards!

phase 1 and 2 is finally over. i'm in the midst of phase 3 now. phase 4 seems to be broken hopes! SADDNESS!!! phase 5 will come in time. i just got to wait. hehee.....

the day of audit have finally ended, my boss is really happy with me. immediately after the audit, my boss gathered everyone in the department, thank us and congratulate us! and he said that we deserve 2 good 2 days OFF. it was way before the results were out. days later, the unofficial result was out. it was 97.11%! it hit a new record for my unit. at least i created history!! hehe!!! i made it!! Praise the Lord!

shortly after the audit, i really had a short good rest in my bunk. i slept like dead log! it was really refreshing that i do not need to wake up, rushing down to work again, fearing this and that is not completed on time and all. that feeling was so hard to describe it out, the feeling of freedom from a burden!

i'm left with the the checking of documents and settling of the old debts that my upper study have left me. and i'm done with all things! i'm left with less than 40 working days. really need to start clearing up my room, starts to bring things home soon! man i cant wait to get all the things done over with it!

i'm so in need of a part time job now, but i just can't find one... i can't be rotting at home when clearing leave. its not just me to sit and do nothing! man... the fear of losing income in tremendously great! so is the pressure... how scary. a very big pay cut, a big worried that i face. i don't know what is my life going to be like from Jan to Mar... i see that the bills' interest are all killing me alive.

since friday, i was greatly troubled over my area of finances... a rough estimation of 9.6k of debts to clear, and that excludes my SHATEC school fees. really really stressed over it. thank God for a pool of friends that were around me, cheering me up, despite i kept saying i'm not troubled but worried. i was thinking, isnt it the same meaning? Bible verses starts to flood me. things like "Why so down cast O my soul?" and "Seek and you shall find, Ask and you shall receive." things related to all these subjects starts to make me remember them. i soon manage to overcome the distraction in my life. though its a big issue, i still manage to cheer up. thanks to those who have been by my side during my down casted time...

i realised that i hardly get sad or angry nowadays after i have Jesus in my life. Thank you Jesus! my temper was never at peace till i found You! you calm my hot boiling temper! you cool the hot water in me so that the anger will not stirs up again. Thank you Lord!

for the rest of my life, i'm following You.
not because i have to, but because i want to.
not because it's a must, but it's a choice.
not because i follow the crowd, but i follow the commandments.
not because it's just another religion, but it's a relationship with God, the Abba Father.

Father in Heaven,

See our needs, our good and righteous desire in our heart.
Fill us when we're thirst for it,
Flare the fire up that is in us.
Weapons against us never wins,
Open doors for us!
when one is closed for us, another will be open unto us.
We believe in You Father, for the blessings ahead of us!
In Jesus name we pray, Amen!

Freedom is nearing

Phase 1 has passed. it was a big "phew" thing to me! i was so under pressure till the documents were hand in at the end of first week. now the battle of phase 2, Sunday got to return back to camp to prepare all the places are done up properly. suddenly i feel that time is clicking so slow when you want it fast and so fast when you want it slow.

i can't wait for phase 3 to end too. i hope that phase 2 and 3 will end together in this coming week. maybe very unlikely i can complete phase 3 this coming week because there are too many documents to vet through, but still i hope that it will be done this week. looking through numbers... of goodness... will my maths improve after that? maybe since my maths is always on average. haha! but looking through these number is sure painful! hopefully i don't have to deal too much with these numbers ever again.

like many always say "Patience is a virtue", for now i can do nothing but wait. taming my patience is really a big challenge. how should i do it? slow and steady, and enjoy the challenge and get myself maxed out? or is there another better way of taming patience? is it within my control or out of my control? why is waiting so painful? why is my freedom coming so slowly?

Happiness is how we create!

Finally, the day of submitting the documents is here and over! i felt so light all of a sudden, i felt like i weigh as light as a feather! i couldn't express the joy i had by words... it was really a day that i have been looking forward to badly. the relief that i saw! this is just phase 1 of joy!

phase 2, the groundwork. it is going to be taxing for me as i have to run around the places to ensure that things are done up properly, and by Friday all must be done! i have nothing to fear because i have done my best, but i believe that God will do the rest for me! Amen!

phase 3, after my audit, i will be rushing off all other admin work that i have not yet done. i will be missing for a few days, or maybe weeks just to destress. will "nua" in bunk for a while.

phase 4, more working time with cafe. i can't wait to step into kitchen!! i can't wait to create new dish!! i can't wait for more pocket money too! got to save up for my SHATEC!

phase 5, ORD on 31st December and get engaged into SHATEC!!! and i also can't wait to have a date by than. =(

i have plan this route, i pray that God will help me through these time. counting down to 10th sept, last day of audit!

Its war time again!

Lately i have been so busy preparing for audit. the monthly maintenance is sure a tough thing for me to monitor as certain things requires very close monitoring. but some things that my colleagues are not working and end up i have to do all these shit. audit now is a game of how ready are you for war. are you doing your daily job and all?

WHATEVER to whatever he says! i hate going out with you as of now! man!!! you're a turn off! i can't understand why you always behave this way. thinking that you're always right and not being humble enough despite being soft to you. are you taking advantage of friends? if that's the case, i will choose to end this friendship, to end your pain and angry every time when you ask me out.
can't take anymore of your bullshit! sickening feeling i feel down my spine!

from the last time i blog till today, things were doing great! God have indeed blessed me with so many things! i'll glad and happy but i am ashame that i did not pray much. i have to stand firm and pray as often as i can!

sigh~! i can't wait to get a date! i can't wait to get her into my arms! she's hanging in mid-air in my heart, somethings troubled over her because of the situation that i am in. depressed and confused!

Working with Blessings

I was so blessed for the past one month. But I'm so sorry that i couldn't spend time posting up my blogs... Before that i was taking things slowly... but somehow, the days were clicking so fast that i didn't even notice that it has past so many days! i seems to be at "la la land" and i didn't realise it.

i have been idoling and working on my safety project again. Thank God that this time i know what to look out for and know what to do. it was touch the other round but this time it is gonna be easy!!!

I had my sensitive wisdom tooth extracted. Thank God that it didn't hurt much, but the after effect was terrible! i couldn't eat properly for few days. every food that is entering into my mouth needs to be sucked in. i gotta eat wet food, dry food is very hard for me to swallow because i didn't chew my food. =(

I had my most important day on 20th July 2008. I was water baptised on that Sunday morning at City Harvest Church baptism pool! that was the most happiest moment in my life. Myself with 3 other sister took part in this baptism. After we finish the baptism, there was a small celebration. there was candle for us, to be the Light of the world! there was salt for us to eat, to be the Salt of the world! there was apple for us to eat, because we are apple of the eye in the sight of the Lord! i have not post them into friendster yet. i can't find time. =(

Ranger has shifted house to pasir ris!!! yeah!!! can ask him out during weekend. hahaha

What a month! so fun!!!