Vesak day... what shitty day to eat vegetarian! rubbish excuses to eat vegetarian. yes i admit that vegetarian is tasty, but why this date? stupid reason to be eating vegetarian on this day.
it was Desmond's house warming and i was getting ready, also getting my stuff ready to book in at night but in return i forgot my charger... so instead headed home and book in tomorrow.
centre entertainment's QB house... i gave a hard time to the hair dresser because she did not cut the i had my hair cut today... feeling very fresh now because i now look fresh... finally... cut it at jurongappropriate hair style that i need. Shaq fetch me to Desmond's place after my haircut...
KFC and pizzas were waiting for us already as we were on our way to his place... we had long hours chats and playing of the new XBOX 360... graphics were very good is what i would say... it was really quality time spending with friends, catching up and having fun... after that we headed for dinner at IMM "KOPITIAM" it was a great disappointment! i had pig's organ soup... in it was like 2 to 3 slice per items and with many many salted vegetables... taste was alright, still edible... but overall, it was shitty !!! and it cost me $4 for it... goodness... inflation was so bad now... but was inflation the cause of this? i think no... because the stall care taker was from china, and they seems to be eating those customers who came late... piece of shit them... charge so ex and gave way too little... i wonder if GEMS is true at "KOPITIAM"
so after eating, we just continue to chat our way... all the way till we spilt back to our own home... while shaq my dearest buddy send me to bedok... and i took a bus home...
home suppose to be sweet, but to me, not sweet afterall... seems more like home bitter home... or home sour home... where have all the sweetness gone to ? :(
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Monday, May 19, 2008
what the world!!!
"what is wrong with my mother and sister???" this question have been burning in my mind for a very very long time! they are doing funny things at all times... and the most irritating thing is, the so called "funny things" they always do, never fail to piss me off...
the friends of their own parents are behaving like this as well... why is this so? why have they been behaving so strangely? my mum have been going to temple and i think she has lost her mind! she just keep going to temple and pray after work. she will leave house at 5pm and return at around 10pm or 11pm and head to bed shortly. it might sound normal to everyone but it wasn't to me...
house chores have been abandon. leaving most of the chores to my sister, asking her to do the washing. she can even go to the extend of boiling water and forget that she is boiling water and just step out of the house just to go temple and pray, and even ask me to return back to the house to check if she off it.
ya i may sound very obedient to listen to her, but just cant stand her sillyness and lameness of going to temple and OVER-PRAY !!!!!!!!!! this have been getting on my nerves for very long... i even have shirt that needs to be washed, and for 2 weeks, the shirt have not been into water for washing. every month i have been giving enough to sustain all her stupid "donation", transport fees to temple and all.
i felt like leaving home... stay alone or with strangers also can... i was made too in-dependent! i don't even have a proper room for myself. my room is more like a store room or guest room for my sister and my mother... and it sound very stupid and crazy! my mum is sharing a queen size bed with my sister all the while, until i bought a cooler and put in my room, the next day, my mum was sleeping in my room! i was so irritated with her actions...
the urge of shifting out have been getting more and more wanting. everything i do seems wrong, she just keep nagging and nagging non-stop over the same topic for days/weeks and even up to months... explaining to my mum is like a waste of time. she thinks that being in the army sounds so cool and relax. she can even bark at me on sunday night what time i need to go back camp if not, I WILL BE PUNISHED!!!!! i have told her a thousand and one time that i must be back before 12 and she just cant get it into her head. is my chinese so poor that she can't understand? every sunday she will say the same thing, I WILL BE PUNISHED IF I AM LATE!!! WTF !!!!
why can't i really have an own room? even at times when i lock my room, they will take the keys and open up my fucking door! this is something that i cannot stand... telling her thousand and one time seems useless... must tell her one million time, nag back at her and let her taste her own medicine... my mum love to keep junks and they all keep in my room... WTF !!!
thanks for reading my complains... i don't wish to spoil the remaining of my night...
the friends of their own parents are behaving like this as well... why is this so? why have they been behaving so strangely? my mum have been going to temple and i think she has lost her mind! she just keep going to temple and pray after work. she will leave house at 5pm and return at around 10pm or 11pm and head to bed shortly. it might sound normal to everyone but it wasn't to me...
house chores have been abandon. leaving most of the chores to my sister, asking her to do the washing. she can even go to the extend of boiling water and forget that she is boiling water and just step out of the house just to go temple and pray, and even ask me to return back to the house to check if she off it.
ya i may sound very obedient to listen to her, but just cant stand her sillyness and lameness of going to temple and OVER-PRAY !!!!!!!!!! this have been getting on my nerves for very long... i even have shirt that needs to be washed, and for 2 weeks, the shirt have not been into water for washing. every month i have been giving enough to sustain all her stupid "donation", transport fees to temple and all.
i felt like leaving home... stay alone or with strangers also can... i was made too in-dependent! i don't even have a proper room for myself. my room is more like a store room or guest room for my sister and my mother... and it sound very stupid and crazy! my mum is sharing a queen size bed with my sister all the while, until i bought a cooler and put in my room, the next day, my mum was sleeping in my room! i was so irritated with her actions...
the urge of shifting out have been getting more and more wanting. everything i do seems wrong, she just keep nagging and nagging non-stop over the same topic for days/weeks and even up to months... explaining to my mum is like a waste of time. she thinks that being in the army sounds so cool and relax. she can even bark at me on sunday night what time i need to go back camp if not, I WILL BE PUNISHED!!!!! i have told her a thousand and one time that i must be back before 12 and she just cant get it into her head. is my chinese so poor that she can't understand? every sunday she will say the same thing, I WILL BE PUNISHED IF I AM LATE!!! WTF !!!!
why can't i really have an own room? even at times when i lock my room, they will take the keys and open up my fucking door! this is something that i cannot stand... telling her thousand and one time seems useless... must tell her one million time, nag back at her and let her taste her own medicine... my mum love to keep junks and they all keep in my room... WTF !!!
thanks for reading my complains... i don't wish to spoil the remaining of my night...
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
dating...
yesterday i met up with Vignes for coffee at town area... we was my secondary school mate... i thought that we have lost touch but somehow, we manage to get back together again. we met up and catch up from around 1900 till like 2030. i was thinking why did time fly so fast? or was it that we chatted a lot? we headed back home in our own way... was glad that he is on path with his desire... his dream... now its my turn, or rather, my turn is coming soon.
after meeting him, i met up with ranger... with our busy schedule, we hardly had time to meet because each have our own matters to look into... i met him after i left town and we were suppose to cut hair but the shops were all close by than when i reach yishun! sad... so instead, we ate late night supper at the nearby coffee shop and he sent me back to camp. on the way, he arrange to meet up the next day...
what were we? brothers?? friends?? love birds?? or gay buddy?? we were so close that we didn't hide secrets with one another... every time when he was troubled with something, he will share his burden with me... i have always been his light, giving him solutions or advices...
today we met up, for a feast instead of a dinner... we went to chomp chomp and we ate like nobody business! we had sugar cane juice, hokkien mee, satay bee hoon, orh jian, mutton soup, BBQ chicken wings, chilli sotongs and sting ray! in the midst of all these eating, ranger receive a lot of calls, i can see that he is quite irritated with it. i can see from his expression that he was troubled by something... which i will not disclose it here...
he played a song that i have long forgotten... Brian McKnight! 6,8,12 and back at one... i miss those songs. and also bryan adams album... and as i am typing this blog, i am listening to his songs from youtube. I R R E S I S T I B L E !!!!!!!!!!!
after meeting him, i met up with ranger... with our busy schedule, we hardly had time to meet because each have our own matters to look into... i met him after i left town and we were suppose to cut hair but the shops were all close by than when i reach yishun! sad... so instead, we ate late night supper at the nearby coffee shop and he sent me back to camp. on the way, he arrange to meet up the next day...
what were we? brothers?? friends?? love birds?? or gay buddy?? we were so close that we didn't hide secrets with one another... every time when he was troubled with something, he will share his burden with me... i have always been his light, giving him solutions or advices...
today we met up, for a feast instead of a dinner... we went to chomp chomp and we ate like nobody business! we had sugar cane juice, hokkien mee, satay bee hoon, orh jian, mutton soup, BBQ chicken wings, chilli sotongs and sting ray! in the midst of all these eating, ranger receive a lot of calls, i can see that he is quite irritated with it. i can see from his expression that he was troubled by something... which i will not disclose it here...
he played a song that i have long forgotten... Brian McKnight! 6,8,12 and back at one... i miss those songs. and also bryan adams album... and as i am typing this blog, i am listening to his songs from youtube. I R R E S I S T I B L E !!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, May 12, 2008
monday not blue!
i was on a 24 hrs duty on Sunday, mother's day... i missed having dinner with my mum, so i make up by having it with her on Monday dinner instead. i have not got a Monday off. the feeling was so different! i miss the days of not going to work. i wished that this Monday will not pass by so fast. i made this very Monday a good one...
after duty, i went to register for my basic theory again! i hope this time i will pass it once and for all... very sick of myself whenever i fail, and the most irritating thing is that you don't even know where were you wrong at. so hopefully i can pass through the grace of God's eye...
after that i went home, hunt for my swimming trunks and hit Tampines SAFRA for a good time swim! it was a wonderful swim and at the same time a wonderful sun-tan... i swam for about 2 hrs and less... and maybe around 40 laps... my back was aching though i swim at a very slow pace... the weather was thankfully good, with the sun not so hot and not hiding away... :)
after swim, i head back home, with a bit of mild sun burn here and there... i relax by playing starcraft brood war. i have not been playing games for so long! it was wonderful that no one called me for work! it was like sunday but not sunday!
after gaming, myself and my mum head to bugis to meet my sister for a family dinner. also a make up for mother's day dinner. we ate at a vegetarian restaurant... food was good! i love it, event though it was vegetarian... after dinner, we head back home... and i continued gaming again...
what a day! i wish i can have this kind of weekday every week, before i starts school with the cooking school (which i have yet to decide which to go). i hope everyday will be the same! :)
after duty, i went to register for my basic theory again! i hope this time i will pass it once and for all... very sick of myself whenever i fail, and the most irritating thing is that you don't even know where were you wrong at. so hopefully i can pass through the grace of God's eye...
after that i went home, hunt for my swimming trunks and hit Tampines SAFRA for a good time swim! it was a wonderful swim and at the same time a wonderful sun-tan... i swam for about 2 hrs and less... and maybe around 40 laps... my back was aching though i swim at a very slow pace... the weather was thankfully good, with the sun not so hot and not hiding away... :)
after swim, i head back home, with a bit of mild sun burn here and there... i relax by playing starcraft brood war. i have not been playing games for so long! it was wonderful that no one called me for work! it was like sunday but not sunday!
after gaming, myself and my mum head to bugis to meet my sister for a family dinner. also a make up for mother's day dinner. we ate at a vegetarian restaurant... food was good! i love it, event though it was vegetarian... after dinner, we head back home... and i continued gaming again...
what a day! i wish i can have this kind of weekday every week, before i starts school with the cooking school (which i have yet to decide which to go). i hope everyday will be the same! :)
Saturday, May 10, 2008
back to you
i was finally back to Singapore and immediately i felt a big difference... the big bad weather! i starts to perspire easily when i step out of Changi airport... i felt my skin back being sticky. it was like slimmer (the ghost busters green slimy thing) have just fall on me! very uneasy and quite sad to adapt back to Singapore's weather... because Taiwan is so cooling in the night! so cooling that you don't even need fan or air conditioner!
meantime while coming back to Singapore is good also because i miss home! i miss my dog, i miss my bed, i miss mee pok, i miss my buddy and friends and i miss church! but when the plane starts flying off back to Singapore, i starts to miss the "shao bing" in Taiwan! but thank God that i know how to do it. i can't wait to do it myself and try it out! i even miss the local products like grilled sotongs and the famous Taiwan sausages!
when i hit back home... my dog just can't stop licking at me because i was away from home for so long... i think he miss my smell and care... he sat with me the whole day on my lap not moving much, just wanting me to stroke at him... as usual, he will lick my hands, neck and cheeks...
a week before i flew to Taiwan, i actually starts picking up smoking again... at that time, i was stressed out with some issues and i don't wish to share it with anyone at first, i just wanted something to accompany me and that thing can't talk. and that so called best things are cigarettes... i started smoking again before i flew to Taiwan. started from light to average and when i was at Taiwan, i became heavy smoking. until a point where i suddenly get sick of smoking and was coughing badly. i just couldn't cough out the disgusting phlegm that is stuck in my throat.
so i eventually said to myself that i must stop! i don't want to continue smoking when i am back in Singapore... from reds, charcoal filter, i smoke menthol lights and my throat starts to get better. and from getting better, i manage to cough out the phlegm that is stuck in my throat. it was sticky and greenish! and that means i am very heaty! so slowly, even after i smoke menthol, i still gets a bad feeling of it because it makes me wanna puke this time! so slowly from 10 to 5 to 2 to none... i broke the promises to myself, now i have to start all over again. 7th May 2008 0400hrs was my last stick of cigarettes. i have to stay strong in this promise again!
few times as smokers smoke pass me, the urge of smoking was there but i manage to get control of it and manage to focus on doing something else that is more healthy to my body. few times i were tempted but i know that if i keep saying tomorrow is a better day, i will never be able to stop smoking. so thank God that i did not pick up that urge or not i am a goner! Praise the Lord!
many have not known that i have picked up smoking again and have let it go again. my buddy doubt me, its fine with me because at the end of the day, i know what i am doing, good or bad. well, its better to confess than to keep it as a secret. many will think that it was excuses, but how many have actually thought of what am i thinking of before they offer solutions to my problems? i think that no one have thought of what was my brain thinking before they said "excuses". quite sad to hear that but it was true... now, i'm on my way to stop smoking and building the promises again! i pray to God that this wish will not be broken again! and i pray that i will receive the strength to stay strong in it.
i wish to settle down with a life partner soon but i have yet to find one... not even a close one... i pray that He will send one right one for me and if i am blind by so many things, i pray that He will open my eyes so that i can see who she is. is love lacking in my life? i think its a yes to it. or can someone say no for me? i'm quite confused with who i should date and where i should find dates... i wonder if i will be engaged by the age of 28... does my life sound screwed? i hope not...
in another 6 month or so, i will be resigning from the forces... the burden of jobless was heavy, the burden of school fees was heavy, as well as the daily and living expenses... i believe that God will provide me a way... i most prob will be going to study in F&B line first, to get more networks of the outside world, though it will be like shit. i have to endure on, as this IS my passion. no one have forced me into F&B line. not like army, i will still have to serve it anyway, so at that point of time, money first, career second... now career and money are fighting to be the number 1 place in my life. at times i am very confused about this... money problems are slowing trying to surface up, i am trying to keep my cool and be able to manage it.
Retirement plans, Relationships and Residential. all seems to be linked into one... and it seems to be tied down to one thing, money. i have to built my business up before i hit 28. i want to hit my first $10k per month before i hit 30. i believe that my business will prosper in many ways and i will receive hundredfolds of profits! i hope for multiple income by 32, at least 3 source of income just from me alone... i hope this dream will come alive in me... thank you Lord!
meantime while coming back to Singapore is good also because i miss home! i miss my dog, i miss my bed, i miss mee pok, i miss my buddy and friends and i miss church! but when the plane starts flying off back to Singapore, i starts to miss the "shao bing" in Taiwan! but thank God that i know how to do it. i can't wait to do it myself and try it out! i even miss the local products like grilled sotongs and the famous Taiwan sausages!
when i hit back home... my dog just can't stop licking at me because i was away from home for so long... i think he miss my smell and care... he sat with me the whole day on my lap not moving much, just wanting me to stroke at him... as usual, he will lick my hands, neck and cheeks...
a week before i flew to Taiwan, i actually starts picking up smoking again... at that time, i was stressed out with some issues and i don't wish to share it with anyone at first, i just wanted something to accompany me and that thing can't talk. and that so called best things are cigarettes... i started smoking again before i flew to Taiwan. started from light to average and when i was at Taiwan, i became heavy smoking. until a point where i suddenly get sick of smoking and was coughing badly. i just couldn't cough out the disgusting phlegm that is stuck in my throat.
so i eventually said to myself that i must stop! i don't want to continue smoking when i am back in Singapore... from reds, charcoal filter, i smoke menthol lights and my throat starts to get better. and from getting better, i manage to cough out the phlegm that is stuck in my throat. it was sticky and greenish! and that means i am very heaty! so slowly, even after i smoke menthol, i still gets a bad feeling of it because it makes me wanna puke this time! so slowly from 10 to 5 to 2 to none... i broke the promises to myself, now i have to start all over again. 7th May 2008 0400hrs was my last stick of cigarettes. i have to stay strong in this promise again!
few times as smokers smoke pass me, the urge of smoking was there but i manage to get control of it and manage to focus on doing something else that is more healthy to my body. few times i were tempted but i know that if i keep saying tomorrow is a better day, i will never be able to stop smoking. so thank God that i did not pick up that urge or not i am a goner! Praise the Lord!
many have not known that i have picked up smoking again and have let it go again. my buddy doubt me, its fine with me because at the end of the day, i know what i am doing, good or bad. well, its better to confess than to keep it as a secret. many will think that it was excuses, but how many have actually thought of what am i thinking of before they offer solutions to my problems? i think that no one have thought of what was my brain thinking before they said "excuses". quite sad to hear that but it was true... now, i'm on my way to stop smoking and building the promises again! i pray to God that this wish will not be broken again! and i pray that i will receive the strength to stay strong in it.
i wish to settle down with a life partner soon but i have yet to find one... not even a close one... i pray that He will send one right one for me and if i am blind by so many things, i pray that He will open my eyes so that i can see who she is. is love lacking in my life? i think its a yes to it. or can someone say no for me? i'm quite confused with who i should date and where i should find dates... i wonder if i will be engaged by the age of 28... does my life sound screwed? i hope not...
in another 6 month or so, i will be resigning from the forces... the burden of jobless was heavy, the burden of school fees was heavy, as well as the daily and living expenses... i believe that God will provide me a way... i most prob will be going to study in F&B line first, to get more networks of the outside world, though it will be like shit. i have to endure on, as this IS my passion. no one have forced me into F&B line. not like army, i will still have to serve it anyway, so at that point of time, money first, career second... now career and money are fighting to be the number 1 place in my life. at times i am very confused about this... money problems are slowing trying to surface up, i am trying to keep my cool and be able to manage it.
Retirement plans, Relationships and Residential. all seems to be linked into one... and it seems to be tied down to one thing, money. i have to built my business up before i hit 28. i want to hit my first $10k per month before i hit 30. i believe that my business will prosper in many ways and i will receive hundredfolds of profits! i hope for multiple income by 32, at least 3 source of income just from me alone... i hope this dream will come alive in me... thank you Lord!
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
AFTERTOUCHED
finally everything have come to an end, and it was time to relax! myself have a lot of food way before the tour started. i had "shao bing" which is like "fold over" from MacDonald but it consist of chicken or pork inside. it comes with large onion and some unknown sauce... it was so delicious! especially when it is hot. and 1 of this "shao bing" is equivalent to 1 of my meal. and i felt bloated in just 1 of those!!! and it cost only like NT60, which is like SGD$3. yum yum! the more i think about it, the more hungry i wants it!
so as the tour started, we went to "Jian Fu Shan Fancy world" simple, it was a theme park with roller coaster and all... so fun!!! i remember the floorless roller coaster that goes round and round till i got tired of shouting.... at night, we went to "Raohe night market" majority of the shops were selling woman's clothes and not much of the guys clothes... so there wasn't much to shop around...
the next day, we went to "Xiao Ren Guo" which means mini world. but it was raining that day, though we still went in, we didn't go around and explore but we hid under shelter... after that we were suppose to go to Leofoo Safari park but because of bad weather, we went to Taipei's largest mall. in the mall itself, there was a gigantic "Muo Tian Lun" built in the shopping mall. and it was also Taiwan's biggest shopping mall ever built! at night, we went to "Shilin night market to roam, though it was still raining, the rain was quite small, in fact, it stopped very soon as we reach there...
and on the last day, we went to "Ximen" another place for shopping! nothing much to shop but we saw a number of good things... hahaha... and we flew off back to SG on the 6the May 2210 flight. i missed home so much....
so as the tour started, we went to "Jian Fu Shan Fancy world" simple, it was a theme park with roller coaster and all... so fun!!! i remember the floorless roller coaster that goes round and round till i got tired of shouting.... at night, we went to "Raohe night market" majority of the shops were selling woman's clothes and not much of the guys clothes... so there wasn't much to shop around...
the next day, we went to "Xiao Ren Guo" which means mini world. but it was raining that day, though we still went in, we didn't go around and explore but we hid under shelter... after that we were suppose to go to Leofoo Safari park but because of bad weather, we went to Taipei's largest mall. in the mall itself, there was a gigantic "Muo Tian Lun" built in the shopping mall. and it was also Taiwan's biggest shopping mall ever built! at night, we went to "Shilin night market to roam, though it was still raining, the rain was quite small, in fact, it stopped very soon as we reach there...
and on the last day, we went to "Ximen" another place for shopping! nothing much to shop but we saw a number of good things... hahaha... and we flew off back to SG on the 6the May 2210 flight. i missed home so much....
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