Scandalon!

What Pastor Steve Munsey preached on Scandalon have really drove the message deep and hard into my thick skull! till date, i did not forget a single thing.

scandalon is a pit that was nicely camoufludge in front of you and when you fall in, you're stuck in there. you see the good things pass by you... and you cant enjoy it because you are stuck in the pit!

i fell into the pit and i have been seeing things passing me like nobody business... no hands came to pull me out of the pit, but people who saw me in the pit only suggest me to do this and that and by doing their advices, i might be able to break free. sometimes i just fall deeper into the pit unknowingly.

FINALLY, and really it is like FINALLY!!! a hand came down, wanting to pull me out of scandalon, which is my debt. i was seriously afraid to grab it inititally because i won't know when the hand pulls me up, that hand can push me down deeper because i am depending fully on the hand i am holding on.

when i was in the train back home from the appointment with my friend, i had a serious thought. this could be my turning point, what if i loose this chance? when will it come again? many questions rain on me. seriously i don't know if it is the prompting of the Holy Spirit of it's just myself talking to myself... questions after questions came, flooding my mind...

sometimes i have no idea on what i should do as well... but i am looking at how things will go about... i really really really am dying for a breakthrough in the area of my finances...

Dear God, here i plan my path... help me to get out of scandalon, so i can be the salt and light you have called us to be and be able to be a blessing to others. Help us oh God! In Jesus name i pray, Amen!

A series of happening

From my last entry till today, i have done many things. so many that i have forgotten most of them... just too busy and tired to recall them... but it seems like living day by day, which is not really very good.. trying hard to find a goal in my career now... the more i find, the more i'm lost!

i'm like buried with work everyday... i don't know how long more can i last... i hope that the capacity of mine will be stretched.

now with virus infection now (not swine flu), my throat was infected, and my nose run faster then me.

life suddenly took a sharp turn, it wasn't easy... why ??

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