one plus one is not three!

It has been a month plus since i have last updated my blog. many things, good and bad have happen... haha...thank God for everything that has happened. good and bad... dunno where to start first also...

below is a short brief or summary of what happen to sua ku from 17Th November till 1st Jan

for the month of November:

i have been falling sick this month and i have no idea why as well! after falling sick, i have problems recovering and i am still so weak by than... November is nothing much but just army, church, TMS and sunshine empire. I was so called "kicked out" of TMS because the partners says that i lack participation in it so off i go...

for the month of December:
not much duties but i did duty on the eve of new year! it was real bored for me. not really a good time to pass new year in camp like that. i bought a prime status from sunshine empire for $10,000 and i am now $28,800 rich in assets! first assets and i am so glad that i did it. if you're interested to find out please email me and don't tag in my tag box asking me about sunshine. i will sharpen my knife and stab you to death... HAHAHA just kidding... in this month alone, i have been having buffets and steamboats... have eaten until i hit the weight of 85kg! can't believe it that i gain so much weight in such a short period of time.

i had an eating competition at sakae sushi... it was a hell of nightmare for me... eating sushi after sushi non-stop for 8 long mins... it was really long during that 8 minutes and 8 mins wasn't that long before... have been trying hard to swallow those big round sushi into my throat... those sushi are real dry man... and i have to sip water through my lips to wet those food in my mouth. few times i nearly threw up and i know that if i did, it is the most embarrass thing that will happen to me... and i will lose morale in it. so i hang on and tried to swallow the food in my mouth... you can see me in the following website: http://www.apexpal.com/sushichallengefoto.html

I spent my Christmas celebration at church and at boat quay with Charles, his sister, Desmond and his wife. 5 of us together spending Christmas eve night together and we had a mini gift exchange... was surprise to see what Charles has given me as the birthday present, a MP3 sun glass. I'm not sure how much it is worth and i have never thought of it as a gift and i was so surprise by his gift.

On Christmas day itself, I was at church and we have a lot of fun there... we had a small gift exchange on that day itself and we had durian log cakes! the smell of durians made everyone drool badly... i bought a small keychain for everyone and though it cost a bomb, i still didn't mind about it because Christmas is all about giving! i kinda regret that i did not spend it well for the past Christmas that i had... but this year onwards, life will never be the same again as before...

on new year eve itself, i am doing duty in camp as i bought over the duty from chandru and till now i keep wondering if i have made the right choice to buy the duty from him or not...

so that's all for those months that i have been missing... hahahah

Influences, the good and bad...

times flies just like nobody's business. it was November already and i have not blog for so many days... i was so tired of everyday going from home to mandai hill camp and from mandai hill camp back to home. the journey and transportation fee was a killer... and dinner i have to settle it myself... sian 1/2...

i have been attached to the shooting team for a month already and i am getting the urge to shoot with them as well. its seems so fun but they are going for competition this coming November at Thailand... i wish them all the best. i hope i can go with them.

now i wish i was part of them... they are fun to be with, i just felt like i could join them and shoot with them... though i am often stuck in the ammo point and they are always shooting and me watching (sometimes). but thinking again, the transportation is killing me very bad... and I'm so troubled with this posting thing now. there is no other place better to go.

the last day at ssc, it is the only day that i get to rest only. other than that is ammo ammo and ammo... the feeling of free was so good! i have always wanted to be free but i am still trap in the army... sian... we were invited to sembawang country club for lunch and the lunch was at 1pm and we reach there at 11.30am. we have to idol there for very long and the worst thing is we don't know what are we waiting for also.

the wait was very long and not many bother about us. we made a fool out of ourselves in the lounge just to make ourselves occupied. somehow we manage to sky through time until they said that we can consume. haha...

because i had block nose, i couldn't taste the food! even chilli doesn't taste spicy because my block nose was that bad! hahaha! and we have to eat with the air con blowing at my warm food.... making my nose feel worse. after that we receive some souvenirs and we left home...

kinda sad to leave that place because we were so use to the daily routine that we do daily and the route to camp... it has built a memory in me and also another view on shooting contingent.

New again!

Caleb invited me to his church to see him perform. i thought that it will be just a normal singing performance but somehow, the performance made me felt something that i have lost 7 years ago, that was attending church! the feeling for me was wonderful but i'm not sure how will the others feel.

i felt an urge to go back to God, that was how i felt in the middle of the performance. what i can said was that the love of God was more powerful than any other love that could be found on earth as it is in heaven.

as the performance ended, i took some actions, i sms faith to ask her to bring me to church. she simply replied me that she has stop going because of personal reason. :( but she will ask her sister to bring me to church. :)

the next day, we met at expo mrt station. there are so many people! they even have usher along the road side. there were so many people making their way to church! and as i walk into the entrance of the church, i felt like i was walking into a concert hall! but in fact it was a concert hall and it doesn't look like church.

tears were so uncontrollable for me that it just kept flowing down during worship time. i have always though that i am able to control my emotions but i was very wrong this time. it just flowing down. i couldn't control it at all. no idea why... before the service ended, i respond to the call, i saw pastor aries, he was my cell group leader 7 years ago when i was in church. by than he was addressed brother aries, now pastor aries. he was very shock to see me and could see that he felt very happy for me. we exchange contacts when the service ended.

attending church was that fun and good. can't wait to attend church service every sat now. :)

Attached to a new place doing the same old thing

i was attached out to mandai hill camp since Monday... camp was far inside mandai area... its near the zoo some more... lagi sian... deep into woodlands area... i was going back to where i came from last time... i was attached to SAF Shooting Contingent... my boss told me that i will be attached to become safety specialist, end up i was being the ammo in charge... sian half already by than... doing everything all over again... just that i have no idea what is their practice like.

second day was starting to get boring already... and i wonder how to past my time for another 1 month... just 2 days and it is already killing me. sigh... i had problems with the times over there as it is very slow... i'm not use to having my time past so slowly...

i have tried bringing books to the live firing area to read and i got disturbed very easily by the things around me., especially the monkeys... they will come and touch your stuff because they are just looking for food. my soya bean was taken away by those irritating monkeys. they were really disgusting!! they actually suck the soya bean up from the floor that is so dirty. oh goodness... cant take it man... and they seems to enjoy it so much!! goodness...

i was feeling "walao, why am i so careless? i lost my breakfast to a monkey!" thank goodness that its just a pack of soya bean... i wonder what i will do if it is my breakfast!

transport is killing me hard! i predict that my this month transport fees will be around $70 to $100. hai~ heart pain ah...

A thing to look forward to now...

today i was suppose to meet caleb (a guy i knew during common phase of my platoon sergeant course) for breakfast but it never happen... why?? because early in the morning it was raining and i was wondering why am i so lazy this morning and wonder why am i still in bed... the alarm rang from 0630 hrs all the way till 0700 hrs and i just couldnt wake up. i only manage to wake up at 0715 hrs. 5 more minutes to call in and i just sprang out of my bed, change into my number 4 and i was down in less than 5 mins... i even slowly walk to toilet to release myself first, and that took up another minute.

down at first parade, we, or rather most of us, have to attend the so call IPSC thing... just kept wondering if it is good for me to attend it or not. the good thing is, its a so called refreshment to me and also an update. the bad thing, waste time... so i sat there and listen...

i met caleb during lunch time as a make up for what i have missed in the morning. we can sit in the cook house from 1230 hrs to 1315 hrs just talking and joking. we seems to have endless topic... after lunch, i have to go back for IPSC part 2... where i was taught on how to use hand cuffs... majiam i never use before... but there were some things about hand cuffs i have never heard before... sorry, cant say here... too bad... ask a police officer to cuff you and i will tell you what are the special thing that i am talking about.

so after lesson, i just idol around again, walk here and there... doing nothing and photocopy papers and basically that's my job. around 1500 hrs, my beloved john break the news... i am on duty on the 15th morning till 16th morning 0800 hrs but i have to leave camp at 0300 hrs in the early morning on the 16th just to go to pasir laba ammo dump to collect ammo.. i wonder why so early... hate to rush and wait and wait to rush...

so somehow no need to go for field camp but also got a lot of shit to clear... so the sad... have to help them in this ad that... hai~

so dinner time i met caleb again. this time we chatted from 1800 hrs to 2200 hrs... cannot imagine that we can really chat that long...

anyway we chatted regarding a trip to batam... now its the thing that i am looking forward to...

Energy + Motion = Emotion

lately i seems to be able to control my emotions over the unhappy side. i don't seems to get angry or sad so easily as before... was it the lessons i have learn from the past or books that i have been reading on?

i just still cant control my happy emotions yet. still learning and practicing how to control it. so in any cases, when i'm angry or sad or fustrated or whatever bad moods i have, i just have to calm myself down because i can't think when these bad moods are running around my mind. i am not going to let my emotions push me around anymore... i'm making way for my pride, confidence and professionalism take full control of my mind, to make things happen.

serlin have declared that we stayed as friends because she wanted to focus on her studies and business. it was quite a sad thing for me to see as we sms, i even tested water and she really showed me how much she wanted to stay single. so i just have 2 options, "KIV" or "New one."

lately i attended my friend's ROM, she was a year older than me and we knew each other like since i was 15 or 16, together with my buddy, we were all working neighbours. days like christmas or chinese new year, we will often come out for gathering and catch-up. time really fly fast as she is now officially married. next year end will be their customary wedding dinners. hope it will stick to their plans... when they were announced "man and wife", deep in me, i wonder when will my turn come...

now only leaving me, shaq and desmond. i had a $50 bet with shaq that desmond will be next as i am still single, shaq is single but unavailable and desmond is attached. hope he will be the next one... and also, i have to think where should i have my ROM and customary dinner be held! i want it grand! =)

i have been reading rich dad poor dad lately and yes, i understand that doing business is not an easy thing but nonetheless, i'm still giving it a shot. i don't wanna waste my life working, just like a hamster running in the cage. now i officially say, i have a new hobby of READING!!!

sometimes i just wonder why people hate reading when you're reading something that will help you, regardless of helping you grow rich or look better or whatever that is good. reading no good meh? "its actually what you read" is what i will say to a person that hates reading. those who hate reading should give a try... can ask me what books to read... =)

a long break that everybody wants!

after the 24km route march, it also marks the end of the BMT phase! burning my army open house weekend, BMT field camp weekend. 2 weekend burn straight in a row, my buddy said that i have worn out and i really need a break! by than, my mind is already very confused with work. everything seems to be going the wrong way. i just couldn't find out the answer why until my buddy told me that i need a freaking long break! i got myself 7 days of off and i am already very glad that at least i escape from work for a while and have a good break.

time really fly faster than working hours... just a blink and 2 weeks of off and leave is coming to an end.. kinda sad as i cannot continue working on Monday and Tuesday and stay at home the rest of the days... hai~ i now want this kinda life... and now i am wanting to have my life like that... I'm gonna give myself a chance that by 30, i should be waking up at 9, having brunch with friends around 11. have high tea at 3 plus or 4, exercise by the beach at evening time, dinner by the beach. more like you go for a resort in sentosa or tioman. i wish for this life now and i wanna make it happen. by 30 yrs old, which is 6 years from now, i want this dream to be fulfilled.

during this 2 week break, my buddy brought me along doing his delivery as he is working as a delivery boy. better than staying at home, it is more fun to be out, especially a friend that have already treat you like his blood brother. i am the eldest and never had an elder brother or sister so every time when i need opinion, he is the first one that i will talk to and ask him how he feels about it. i never talk to my mum is because she always wants me to make the safest decision. as we all know now, there isn't a decision that will be safe and everything involves risk. i just wonder why can't my mum let me do what i want to do.

anyway, i got to meet this young lady, name Selin, during the first week of break. i get to know her through wholivesnearyou. she was a busy person studying in SIM and at the same time in Sunshine Empire. somehow, i like to look into her eyes, i just don't know why. an unexplained feeling is what i felt when i looked into her eyes. i just enjoy looking at her, no matter how busy i was, how tired i felt or how sick i am, just a simple eye contact or a smile from her will max my energy bar. but the problem now is that she wants to be remained single and make money work for her.

i cant explain why i like her. could it be that i'm out of love for too long any any girls that came to my line is likable? i hope this is not the reason why i'm liking her. or is there a reason that you must have to like a person? can someone answer me ?

24km route march at ECP

2 long distance march within 2 week, really a pain in the ass... feeling very tired and restless, we still have to gear up and walk the distance... as the point of contact, i have many things to look into... things like stores and participants... the march is a boring one, a turn off, i would say. also there seems to have some communication problems with the company lines...

first, the most horrible thing that went wrong was that everyone was late for the assembly. all because everyone's watch is showing different time, and because of the "i wait for you and you wait for me" practice, or rather known as "monkey see monkey do" action, that's why everyone was late. after some morale talk by CO, we than board the bus and head to ECP.

when we reach ECP, after all the briefing and talking, we started the march in 2 waves because the buses was indented in 2 waves... don't know whose idea was that but it shows a sign of no integrity. so C, SP and HQ just started marching off as first waves... we were told not to sing along the way. so we all kept quiet starts to joke among one another. i join and joke around with the medics that were marching beside me.

its was a long march... because it was boring but we tried our best to joke around and make the walk an interesting one. at the U-turn point, i was told to take off my pack and remove my helmet because as a safety, I'm supposed to walk with my webbing and jockey cap and not full battle order. though it was light for me, it wasn't easy for my back. when we hit the end point and did our warm down, the feeling was good... because we get to rest. for me, i had to stretch my back as it really irritates a lot, especially the lower back muscles group that have suffered strains before... sometimes i just can't understand why must we push on when it hurts. it just increases the chances of injuries... i sometime have to wonder how and what is an officer is thinking! they just wanted you to complete it and not fall out and that's it. they want you to complete the march just one time where you don't have to re-walk again. i wonder if they have ever think of how that person struggling felt. i wonder if they will put themselves into their shoes... pushing on is good but pushing too much is not good, especially physically...

after warm down, we saw the second wave troopers coming in. we just don't understand why are they singing! that was a real embarrassment to me because it shows that the unit is screwed up. we were told not to sing but why is the other group singing? what kind of communication skills are we showing? every soldier now shouts "READY" every time they seat at ease or acknowledge. every READY they shouts turns out to be rubbish every day and every min. full of craps is all i can say!

everyone was resting when suddenly the rain just drop down hard from the sky! everyone ran for shouters in ECP. 500 soldiers all around ECP with their rifle seeking shelter. some have to seek shelter in the under pass! well, this is unpredictable! what worse was that the walk ended early! everyone have to wait for the freaking bus! why can't they just sticky to the timing given? even though there are bound to have changes, why didn't they change the bus timing as well? i'm starting to hate the top management people already because they think that they wanna change and it will be changed immediately!

ending up, HQ took tonner back home. it was a long sleep on the tonner. the rest gotta wait for the buses to come. my poor friend shariff got to wait till everyone is gone before he goes back. he is taking the big boss's cars back to camp. oh man... sometimes i really wonder what are these people doing...

BMT field camp, sorry, its a scout camp instead!

before I could recover and rest well for the next event, I have plan how to rest well during my stay at Tekong but it all suddenly change. my CSM have ask me to perform guard duty, main reason, he got not enough specialist so need me to help out, with all thanks to the CPL Dave Teo, security have step up a lot, sometimes I don't know to thank him or to curse him because as we all know, army so wayang, everything go through motion, but sad for him that he is charged with 3 charges. anyway, guard duty on a Saturday is boring and it nearly drive me crazy. why drive me crazy is because the guards under me really piss me off big time and I just felt like giving every one of them a good punch to wake up their freak idea on what they have been doing. sigh, I hope that something "good" will happen so that they will wake up.

so after this shitty guard duty, I have yet to pack my stuff so I rush a lot. I thought I can get out of camp like 9am but I was wrong. :( get to step out at 9.45am and by the time I reach interchange its around 10am already and I hadn't had time to find 3 original VCD for HQ movie screening. initially for what I heard was its for the recruits. the best thing, I heard all is gonna have BBQ for BMT field camp. this field camp is totally full of bullshit. everything is done with no standards, even the SME's cant do a shit about it because our big boss wants it that way. WTH!!! WTF is he just trying to do??? he just think that they are some private soldiers already huh... sigh! thank goodness he wanted me to move on the army and now I'm waiting to be posted out if not I'll be the first one to kill myself because they are now not fit to even be a private soldiers.
SHAME ON THEM! not surprise that they wont get best unit for this year.

so I tried my best to find the VCD but the rental shop is still closed, so I called back john, telling him that I cant get the VCD because the shop is still closed and I am going to miss the 12pm ferry to Tekong. I asked him if it is really urgent because i know that Bernard will be making a hell lot of noise if I don't come on time and etc. btw I don't like him. so john asked me to stay and wait for the shop to open and the next ferry is at 1700hrs, which is 5pm. so I said ok and head back home for rest and step out of house at 3 just to rent the VCD.

as soon as I got the VCD, I headed to the ferry terminal, the queue was short but the wait was long. half and hour more to the departure of ferry, the weather is hot too and it made the whole waiting area like oven! UH!!!!!!!!! as the clock slowly ticks, I see many of the people I know came.

when I reach Tekong, I was honestly a little lost because I don't know where is HQ at so I just blindly walk with the crowd. haha... even just by following crowd, it leads me to where my HQ is! so I just put my packs down and I see most of them sleeping and I wonder what have they done the night before but from what I estimate, they have done nothing much, just taking afternoon nap. I have to idol for very long before the happy hour starts and I just have freaking no idea why am I here so early. when dinner came, which is happy hour, well, I can say this is the best happy hour and yet the worst field camp that that i have ever attended. the recruits got to have a taste of happy hour too. 1 even had BBQ, like no govt and no law man! I wonder if anyone bought pork over that night so that he can get freak out.

so after the happy hour is movie marathon, watch hitch and mr deeds, it was real funny but we were like watching it on the wrong place. haha... all the recruits from tekong can see us watching movie! sound so funny lor.... so the next day i am suppose to go for recce with the conducting officer for the 24km route march which is at ECP. sian... I go tekong not even 24 hours.

So next day came and I showed that kinda hack care attitude again, haha, because I really cant be bothered with this so called BMT field camp. left with the recce group at about 12 to ECP to look for a good 24km distance to walk. the journey was long and boring and I took a short nap without anyone noticing it.

after the recce, well, we took a break, we landed up at ECP Mac and had lunch there. hahaha... that was the best meal that i ever had because I don't get a chance to wear army uniform and eat over there in office hours... after that we headed back to camp to rest and prepare all the paper work that needs to be done.

16km route march

16km route march was so shitty and a piece of hell for me last night. it was supposed to be some chicken feet thing for me but as i long as i walk, the pain from my bladder came. i have no freaking idea why is it hurting, this is my very first time that i felt pain in my bladder area and i was kinda worried that the pain will end my father's day. the pain started from the 4th km till 8th km, the pain was still bearable.

there was a rest point at the 8th km mark and we rested like 15 minutes. i thought that after some rest, i still can walk even though blisters starts coming out from my feet as i have not walk that distance for so long, but i still can walk, just that the pain is what i cant take it.

when its time for us to talk again, i thought that it's gonna be fine and i start walking. less than 100m from where i left, the pain came again and thus causing me to slow down a lot. i was way behind the main troops but i tried hard to catch up. but still i failed.

at the 12km rest point, the pain was unbearable, i drop everything behind my back and pop a cigarette and started smoking. as i smoke, i rested. i left my pack behind and just continue to walk to the end line with 2 of my staff sergeant. they were walking by my side encouraging me and talking crap with me to boost morale.

as i am reaching the finishing line, i started to slow down again and this time it's even more slower! i took my time to finish the walk and i felt very hot, as if there is some energy passing through my body is about to explode and shatter me into pieces.

it took me a while before i did my warm down, had my night snack and return back to my bunk for shower and sleep. have not fall asleep so fast for a very long time already.

===== next day =====

when my alarm clock rang at 7am, i had problem waking up, it took me 20 minutes to open my eyes and sit up right. i felt feverish and weak and both knees are weak. sigh... i wonder if this will happen again. i hope it wont happen anymore....

this feeling sucks to the core!

Army Open House 2007

it's been a 3 weeks since i last update my blog again. starting from 20th august, i have been specially requested (not being arrowed because my previous boss ask if i am OK to help him out with it.) to help out in the army open house as an ammunition in charge. i agreed without hesitating as he have help me a lot and though there are many rehearsal dates that have made my day boring, i didn't made any complaints because i agreed to help him out.

it was really tiring for practically everyone of us because all of us were so tired with these rehearsal. from dusk till dawn, non stop changing of plans to make the show better. there i made new friends from other units and we had a lot of chatting and fun to kill time during the wait.

me and my partner were supposed to take turns to walk around the open house to look look see see but end up, i walk around for a day and my partner didn't get to. i felt so sorry and don't know to feel guilty or not as i ask my partner to go walk walk, he only walk a little and didn't get much chance to collect badges, whereas i have 5 of them.

i read up 2 books to till time there, "laugh and get rich in any business" and "Murphy's law" these 2 books killed a lot of my boring time. have yet to finish the books as i need time to digest the precious information into my brain.

for all the rehearsal dates, we have been doing the same thing and we starts to get excited on the first day of Army Open House. we can't explain why also... maybe we are counting down in our heart because we are so that tired and restless.

i still remembered that i took a light strike vehicle to cook house for lunch. the was best ride that i ever had because i have never took a light strike before and it felt so cool to be on that vehicle. i wish i can get to see the light strike vehicle driver again as we seems to be able to click. hmmmm.....

on the last day of Army Open House, our meals was KFC for lunch and Mac for dinner instead of SFI cook house. well, its though fattening, but i sure enjoy it because i need lots of energy to carry those heavy ammunition. everyday carry like that, my hands gets tired and my belly starts growing. sigh, need to lose lots of weight man!!! we all parted on our last day, remembering all the good times that we have spent in the training shed; talking cock, singing song, eating and having fun together.

these has be a good experience for me and i will always remember them by name and face. no matter where i am, what i do, distance apart from us, we will always keep in contact.

facing computers and facts

after i finish my course, it seems like i have nothing much to do like that and it took me some time before i finally got some things to do. when i got back, i am still very lost about where they put the stuff and all and i took me like 3 weeks or so to know where are all these stuff at.

even though i am tasked to do important things, i don't understand why i still got time to come around the Internet and surf the net, seriously don't know why. nowadays in camp is really bored for me as i have a television with a spoil antenna port that i totally cannot watch television at all. sigh... in bunk, i only can listen to the radio and play my audio Cd's which i bought from home.

i really hope i can do something useful in camp as life in camp is really bored even though i have tried to entertain myself with lots of stuff. I'm afraid that I'll get sick of doing these things soon.

all weekends for me is either staying at home playing the game "Emperor, rise of the middle nation" or going out with my besttest buddy, shaq, to wherever he goes.

just yesterday, i planned to stay a little more longer in the army as i have decided to go for part time studies in diploma and degree in business management. I've yet to find out more about other schools but roughly the plan is out. now i just have to wait and execute my plan out. hope things won't screw up for me again.

for the last time

it will be less than 4 days before all of us will be disband because our course has come to an end. on 1 end, i can't wait to go back but on the other end, i can't bear to leave this camp. as for those past few nights, i visited the mess that everybody loves to go and had a couple of drinks over there. we had fun drinking, chatting and laughing our way through on the last night before we graduate from there. everyone was so wild crazy and they wanted to ordered 154 cans of duty free tiger beer, which taste so disgusting! and there were only like not even 15 drinkers surrounding the table.

the best trainees were announced 1 day before the last day so on the very night, he is suppose to buy us 154 cans of beer but thank goodness there is only like less than 100 cans as everyone of us can't take the liquor anymore because of it's low class taste. the mess was crowded with us, we all acted like some hungry wolf, like never eat food before, placed a lot of orders from the caterer. the mess caterer is already trying very hard to catch up with the orders because every single receipt is practically filled with words. i have to wait for so long because some jerks just don't know what is the basic manners of queuing is. sigh...

before we depart from ASTW, we had groups photos but i don't know why i never receive any... sian 1/2... the feeling of leaving new friends after a short period of time feels kinda shitty. but good thing is that we did kept in contact through msn or friendster or hp. (i wonder how many of the 154 people will read my blog... hahahah)

as the time approach late evening, the bus to amoy quee has come. we boarded a 20 seater bus that i has requested to come to bring us back to camp. the feeling was happy and sad. happy to go back see new recruit and friends, sad to leave my new friends even we knew each others like less than 6 weeks.

i can't wait for a gathering soon... miss those times big time...

Life at work

after i pass out from ASTW, i was sent back to my parent unit. i miss this home so much... as i walk around the buildings, past memories flash back. still remembering the days of when i was first posted to this place, the new friends that i knew, the kinda "inhuman torture" that i have given to the new soldiers and all... it seems that everything just ended last week and it started all over again on the following week. everything seems to be happening so fast...

when i got back, there were few new faces that i have never seen before... when i got back, it seems like i have forgotten the clerks, the clerks that i have always been chatting with. it took me some time to refresh myself who are they before i started talking and gossiping with them AGAIN. i also notice that i seems to have change into a different person after the course, a more discipline and "on the ball" person. has platoon sergeant course done that to me? i don't feel what i am in the past. i tend to be rebellious and slack before the course. now for what you see in me is a total different me. it is an opposite of what i am in the past. what has happen to me?

something seems to have struck me to work hard. till today i don't know why am i doing so even i have decided to leave the force. but for what i have seen and felt, i felt that its a shame for me to stay in the force because discipline is lagging. even after enforcing, they will be back to square one at the end of the day. its a sad thing that i can say.

i wonder when can i type in something happy... sigh!

2 weeks of non-stop action! wahhh shaq out but felt good!

it has been a very tiring 2 weeks for me as i have been having outfield for 2 weeks non stop without proper rest, sleep and hydration! outfield after outfield, mission after mission. real tiring... but during those time, i have been performing as a man's appointment and have to take instruction from appointment holders. it feels kinda shit but have no choice but to follow through with the exercise and i have been hoping to get engage into appointment in the first week but i was disappointed. i only got the appointment at the worst time. during the digging exercise, i got an appointment of a MG commander and have to dig a real big trench which can fit 3 person inside, causing half my energy dead after the whole thing was completed.

that was only week ONE!

week TWO was not so bad. after 1 last exercise, we march towards the final exercise, the grand finale! everyone cant wait to get through it as we all have been sick for outfield for so long! sick as in we had enough and need some rest before we can continue but we just have to suck it up as we were just trainees.

when the final exercise came, it seems like i have struck 4D! i got the highest appointment! i somehow felt lucky that i got that appointment at that time because i have plenty of time to prepare lost of stuff! during my presentation of orders, i have good comments from the instructors but at the same time, i got tease by them as well for small minor mistakes which i have been commented "improving but still can be improved!" this line has actually push me to perform to my peak! i have never felt so energetic before! i was so eager to go to tekong! i was filled with tons of excitement! but i know that shit will come later but still, i didn't care much! when mission 1 commence, full of excitement, i did my best! when mission one was over, i was so happy that there were no obstacles hindering my way through during the execution phase! yeah!

total of 4 mission, in mission 2, i had heat cramp! all my fingers were cramp hard by the head. i felt like shit! head spinning like merry-go-round! i was down! had a few hours of nap before i could continue. as soon as i join back, a lot of people have shown concern to me. offering me their water to drink! but i wonder if they have any water for themselves.

as the second last mission hits on everyone, everyone cant wait to move on but during that time, i can sense that everyone's morale is getting very low. everyone cant wait to finish it as it seems a long night! as soon as mission 3 is over, everyone's morale is starting to pick up! suddenly everyone's energy came back from nowhere! all full of energy and prepared to fight for the last mission! i was appointed as a platoon medic! had a stretcher on my back. we crossed a river with our stinky body inside the river, picking up all the loose weeds from the river. and we stink more eventually. in my mind, i thought that i will get abrasion on my inner thigh as the clothes rub against my skin. there will be bound to having difficulties in walking but i was wrong. the weather starts to turn bad, it started to rain. some hate it but i like it as it prevents us from drinking water and save our water and at the same time cool us down. normally, after crossing the river, everyone's morale is very very low because we are all wet, from our head to toe, everyone hates it when their underwear is wet but this time, i can feel that everyone don't give a shit as we all just wanna get through it over and can't wait to finish it. my stretcher was happily collecting water for me to add in more loads.

everyone was so glad that the last mission is over! on the way back to the parade square in tekong, everyone seems to be taking their own sweet time as we don't seems to give a shit to any instructions. haha! so in the end we all got a lecture. we quickly change into new sets of uniforms and had our debrief. as we wait for our ferry back to Singapore, everyone waited impatiently. in the ferry, everyone slept well though it is only for like half and hour ride on the ferry. as our feet touches Singapore, the buses was already waiting for us! we took our time to board the bus and headed home to PLC. we all slept for an hour in the bus. it was a comfortable sleep.

as we reach camp. everyone did their part by cleaning up the outfield stuff. and we booked out at 7pm. though its late, everyone still book out, eager to go home. as the saying goes, HOME SWEET HOME!

Embarking into a new journey

as my course continue, the amount of time for me to sleep is getting lesser and lesser. the amount of water that i am suppose to drink also cut down tremendously. I'm lacking water in my body and thus, I'm sick now. just the 3rd day alone, i have gotten throat infection and flu. though its not killing me, it is irritating me a lot.


i wonder how long must i sleep to cover back the hours i missed sleeping. my eyes were like popping out and often getting tired easier now in the morning especially. every now and than will keep yawning and yawning a lot.

hope everything is going the right way now for me and hope no one will hinder me my clearing my debts as of now. yesterday i nearly had a quarrel with one of my friend over MLM stuff. where got such good things as find 2 friends to join under me and earn 9k every month? to me its a con because the top people get everything and they will be asking you to bring in more people and their pocket will grow fatter! i don't know if he is new to MLM or what but i hope he wont get cheated.

my prayers to God;

Dear almighty God, full of grace, i really hope my path will be
cleared
from obstacles as of now so that i can clear my debts in time and in
peace!
and i also hope that the weather will be better these
days, the weather can make one fall sick easily and i am
falling
sick already! please please don't make me fall sick. i know you know
that i have
a tough body but that does not means that i have no weak point. please
spare me and everyone a thought. thank you. with my humble heart i pray to
you,
Amen.

i hope after this prayers, everything will be fine and i will be able to lead my normal life again.
btw, i have friends selling customised polo t shirt designs and men's T-shirt. do quote my name and i hope you will have a cheaper price.

Leadership camp

i was away for course on 2 weeks and i have learn a lot of new things throughout the course. a very fruitful one but it's sad that we have to go on out own ways as the course ended. now i have embark into another level of training, which i think it will be over very fast. i HOPE it will be fast! it will be a 4 week not enough sleep course! damn!

hope i don't have to spend much on "unnecessary" items as i am now very tight on my budget. I'm so tight with my budget till i have to ask help from friends... its just not me... i felt uneasy borrowing from others and now i also have fear lending to others. i wonder when can i finish clearing my debts and have sufficient money to save up?

should i work in restaurants to gain experience?
or should i stay a little longer in the army?

hmmmmm......

should i or should i not? choosing friends carefully

wilson has agreed to pay me back SGD7000 and SGD1000 every month but he failed. he cut his line shortly after he agreed to pay me that amount. being so proud, he actually hurt my pocket, trust and friendship with him because of the way he treat me. i have endured him a lot but today, i have to let it out. he's really a jerk that only knows how to smoke, play game and NOT FIND A JOB! as he say i want to find a job that will suit me.

why didnt i saw that clearly before i agree to help him? i regretted a lot by helping this jerk! played my money real bad and made me into unnecessory debts. now i have to souce out the money by myself and clear them myself. some kinda friend he is!

but the more important thing is,

should i get back from him by knocking at his door?
should i pity him or not?
should i give him a longer time to pay back?
should i forgive and forget????????

please leave your comments as i am really stuck in a spot.

The stone hurts, but i see my friends giving me first aid!

*BANG* the stone drop hard on me every month, and this month was the worst! as i was on course now and i still need to buy some stupid stuff. so sad...

i got to know some new friends over there and i was really happy to know them. i hope that even after the course has ended, we will still be able to find time for some outing and hope that all will be able to come. we had lots of fun during the 2 weeks and i have also learn a lot of things even though some of the lessons are really boring and dry.

before the course starts, my unit always like to find trouble with other units at the guard room but after this course, i will do my best to stop this rubbish as of now.

the bills came flooding my mailbox and all were like going to overdue and yet i still cant think of a solution. i was real stress... thanks wilson, you busted me!

A stone was lifted off my mind

lately i was so stressed up. can say quite bad this time round. 20 more days to next pay day, and i have always been looking for this day to come nearer because of the liabilities. kinda sick to repeat those sickening sad things that how these liabilities got into me. sigh~

just as when it was my darkest hour, (or was it just the beginning?) i manage to find someone to help me that is willing to give me a loan of 260. i was glad to hear. as some of you people already know that my line was disconnected, it was because of due to some reasons which i am just too sad to explain. (but i don't know why did i kept looping back to the sad topic!)

well, anyway, on that night was ranger's friend, Wenlin's birthday. there was a little people but a lot of food! it wasn't the usual me that i could stop eating so soon. my appetite has change! i ate far just too little food and i was bloated! at that point of time, i have not had any gassy drinks yet and i was like so full in my tummy! but all i could remember was that i ate 30 odds otah! that sounds kinda scary but i don't know why i just kept eating them as ranger bought 130 otah for a less than 30 people chalet!!! yup, a birthday celebration less than 30 person! sometimes its good to have your closest friends with you celebrating your birthday but the bad thing is, you better know if your friend can eat a small hump of food or food as high as Fuji mountain! haha there was too many wasted food. kinda sad to throw them away as it is such a waste!

i did not sleep that night, even though i stink. after the BBQ, all of us went for a short fish at the sea with ranger's new date!!! could you believe that he has a new date? I'm really happy for him that he got a new date! hope he will cherish her if they were together. after the fishing session, we all headed back to the chalet and some of us started to watch movies. Rules of Engagement, Final Fantasy 1 & 2 and Hollow man 2 (but halfway because gotta check out!) i have not watch movies for that long and i felt great after that and the best thing, I'm not sleepy or tired!

after we checked out, ranger send the remaining people home. he car seems to be overloaded by itemssss. hahaha... i was really a fun night! i got to destress myself a lot and i am feeling a lot better now! thanks for his invitation over to the chalet or not I'll be rotting and vexing over these matters and will go crazy soon enough! hope every week, someone will ask me out to ECP or changi beach to view the quiet sea. it somehow makes me felt easy and at ease. i felt peace at the very moment when i sat down on the rocks, watching the waves hitting against the rock gently. all my worries was forgotten by the peaceful silent night. i was really an enjoyable day!

The barks of dogs

Today my sister was so eager to get out of the house to go to Pasir Ris Pet farm to adopt a dog but just that she could not take back the dog because the owner said that she has to go through some training, communication and playtime with the dog.

We walk through the pet farm. It was big, more like half a soccer field that size and there were full of cats and dogs. So many kind of different breed, my sister still insist of wanting to get multist (was it spelt like that?) when i wanted something else but just too bad that the dog was not for adoption as it is house at the farm just for recovery.

We started touring in the dog section first. I saw quite a number of dogs that I like but I knew that I have no time for them. Some were so big and huggable and i somehow have an urge to open the cage, go in and give them a hug.

After touring in the dog section, we headed to see cats. They were so sleepy! I even saw a few garfield cats as well. They were real FAT! I even saw a poor cat with 3 legs. Its such a poor thing for the cat that it lost a front limb.

It was really a meaningful experience for me as I have never been to a farm before! I should try to find time to communicate more with dogs!

Friday the 13

As i always thought that Friday the 13th is always a very bad day but i was wrong. Everyday seems to be Friday the 13th to me. Everyday is just another stress day for me, the ending worry germs seems to have extend their stay in me and i felt so terrible everyday. Everyday, i am only looking forward to my payday to clear my debts...

can someone help me answer my questions:

why my life is so unlucky that i kept getting cheated?
why and how did i get myself into financial problems?
why am i living in a world of debts?
will i be debt free this life?
when will i break even?
why and how come i always bump into cunning and selfish people?
why is my life like this?
which wrong step did i took?
will my life be better in another 6 months time?
was it wrong to be a good man?
when will i be rich?
will i be rich in this life?
when will this hardship be over?
will someone help me to get over this hard period?
when will money drop from sky?
will luck be with me?


my 2007 wish now:

good luck will stands by me till the rest of my life!
meet people that will give me a helping hand when i am in need!
turn my back against the people that have cheated and done harm in my life!
money will drop from sky!
break even all debts before August 2007!
collect back all my borrowed money!
may bad luck fall on those who cheated and harm me!
get rich, fit, slim and sexy!

seems like that's all what i want for now... don't worry, I'm not greedy as every year i have different wish... (which is which? wishes came true or its just facts???)

(Akon - Lonely) & (Nitty - Nasty Girl)

my friends are all gone to SISPEC and I'm left alone in the unit. the new specialist are in already and I'm not so close to them yet. i miss those days of me being with my buddy but lately he seems to be hostile? or rather ignoring me. he knows that i was in needs of financial help as Wilson's business has flop and me and Wilson are now working hard to pay off the debts. when i ask for his help, he actually turn his back against me by not replying. he gave me a cold shoulder that we just met and knew each other. he gave me a kind of feelings like "your problem is your problem and don't share your problem with me" kind of attitude.

i was feeling quite sad after that incident... i wonder how many real friends of mine are there that really are considered true friends... but for sure i do have a good true friend, his nick is Garfield... has been friends since i was 15 and in a blink of time, we have been friends for 9 long years! though we do quarrel at times because of disagreement, we still know what is the other party thinking as well. he is the only one that is with me during my very bad times...

hai....... payment of bills after bills... so sick of it. i have long to have a debt free life but i was wrong. i just got deeper into debts... i wish i can clear TCC bank loan asap because i am just left with 500 before i can pay other bill with a problem lesser. i have tried to find some part time jobs but i have not been lucky lately. i don't know why... i seems so frustrated with those reminder bills. i wish that i can get a loan from someone that is kind enough to lend me a big some of money to clear all my outstanding debts and slowly pay him/her back monthly. i need a rough total of about SGD$2000 for everything that has an outstanding. i wish that this dream will come true...

well, of course not from loan sharks or banks but friends who don't mind lending it to me and allow me to pay back monthly. i will really be grateful to that person if there is one person that really exist in my friend list.

i have never like borrowing from friends because they will give me all kind of face expression and will remember that they have once helped me and demand help when they needed one. unless i am really in a dead end with nowhere to go. hope things will turn out better soon or later. it seems like i only have a friend in this world...

lazy, tired, forgetful, full of excuses and most of all regretful

As i have promised to continue my blog on the first day of chinese new year, till now i have been lazy enough to write my blog. i feel so lazy, felt uneasy to describe myself over the blog. i got this strange feeling... it somehow hold me back from coming back to this site to update my sua_ku's blog...

but at times i do want to tell others my feeling but i just can't find the right person... the person that will give me the ultimate solution to my problems that i am facing now. now, i'm still strong enough to take this crisis but i am not sure how long can i hold on to it. i hope that there will be a solution for me fast, and its real fast. i can see that my bills are piling up and my monthly pay is not enough for me now. in fact, i am still shortage... hopefully things will change after i got the money that govt is giving away to the citizen.

i really wish that the day of my debts will come soon because i will than have money to start saving for my future. i really regret for not saving at all when i was at a younger age. i'm turning 24 this year and i have no saving.

shame on myself!

Is this so lifeless?

Here I was in camp again opening my armskote. I seem to be mentally tired and I really need to unwind myself badly. Anything that does not concern work is unwinding, be it sleeping or playing games but I just don’t know why I just can’t stop working in front of the computer. Am I such workaholic?

Armskote and Admin

As planned, today I have to open armskote and I was late for flag rising. After flag rising, I had a buffet breakfast in the cookhouse. Though food wasn’t really that nice, at least I get to fill my tummy to full because on other days, we were only allowed one serving and the auntie will say “later not enough; cannot take already.”

Today is the second day that Zaini was sent to detention. As I can see from the men that I once lead, the mood of everyone is uncommon; the past cheerful and noisy men were quiet today. The man book out after lunch today and I still have to stay in camp to open armskote to allow the guards to send in their weapons. After closing my armskote, I tried to finish my unfinished matters, typing out the blog that I have not been doing. I even planned what’s for tomorrow’s PT in camp.

COS and Armskote

This morning was my turn to open Armskote and let the guards draw arms. I have to open the armskote 4 times a day, so irritating and boring at the same time. I took over COS from Terrance. This is his last duty before he ORD. I took over as early as 0700 hrs because Zaini, my 84 section man was charge with possession of live ammunition. The trail started since 0900 hrs and ended around 1900 hrs or later. I was not at the scene, I couldn’t get a very clear picture of what exactly is happening but all I know was, Zaini was panic and has forgotten most of the things that he is suppose to say.

There were tears rolling down from Zaini’s family and even some of my men teared as well because it was really a sad case. I won’t know if I can hold my tears if I am there with them, all I can say are the crying atmosphere was presence. Everyone carries a sad and moody face for the rest of the day.

Meantime while the trail was happening, I have been doing housekeeping for paper works and I notice that things were very messy. I had a hard time clearing up these stuffs and shredding away restricted documents.

During dinner time, I was asked to gather some man by my RSM to clean the canteen because the Army RSM is coming to our tear down camp for breakfast tomorrow! I was thinking why must he come and have breakfast here? This place is so tear down and had to maintain cleanliness. I manage to gather a few man and we swept the canteen together. On our way back, the Battalion Orderly Sergeant, my BMT buddy, told me that the Army RSM is not coming tomorrow but on the 12^th instead. Upon hearing that, we could see the ‘huh’ expression coming from our face. Well, my RSM saw the date wrongly. What to do, what’s done is done but what I can say is that he is grateful for the help offered.

Early bird are always rewarded with good things

Today is the start of Protection Of Installation. As early as 0300 hrs, my vehicle to rifle range camp has already reported. We left at around 0320 hrs or so. The expressway was so quiet! Not much cars traveling on the road. We were too early as planned but we wasted a lot of time waiting for the duty personnel to wake up ad send us into the ammo dump to collect the bloody rounds. the road was dark pitch because all the lamp post were spoilt!

After i collected the rounds, i headed to CIA (Changi International Airport). No matter how slow the driver drive, i still reach early... there and than i saw the most horrifying thing! The sentry looking after the police station was actually taking a nap! I wanted to be nasty and ask my escort, saravanan, to ask him if he had a sweet dream just now, that was just NATO, (No Action, Talk Only).

Soon, the troop lift bus arrived and they started to march in to the sleepy, no govt police station at Changi Airport. Their first duties starts at 0800 hours... After i send in the ammo, i headed back to camp and had lunch with ranger and again, i do my favourite pastime, SLEEP!

Prepare to slack

Monday blues, a boring day, that’s all I can say. No mood to work because Joshua and I knew that it’s the end of month and in another 6 days time, 3 of our friends are going to ORD and leaving the 2 of us with the Duty Sergeant everyday. We have been trying to push all duties to the 3 of our friends because we wanted to make use of them before 2 of us regret. (That’s how evil I am) HAHAHA!!!

ITE gathering

It has been a very long time since I have last met my ITE friends out for dinner and chat. I met up with 2 at Safra Tampines before meeting the rest. We were supposed to have dinner at Safra Tampines ‘Sakura’ but they were under renovation so we have to change our plans. We headed to Tampines mall to have a buffet instead. After dining and catching up, I realized that they were not leading the life they wanted to have. It's really sad to see what my friend fail to achieve their dreams...

IPPT and FFI

I came back after ORD dinner for a night just to take part in IPPT the next day but heaven was not by my side. It started to rain before the warm up and everything was delayed. Half the mood of taking part in IPPT has already faded away. But I still hope that the rain will stop soon but it got worst after that. At 1000 hrs, the conducting officer cancelled the run. I head back to bunk and sleep. I was supposed to go to Singapore Safety Driving Centre with Fahmy to book for a basic theory test but I was too lazy and decided to book it on Monday night instead. I fast asleep and woke up at 1500 hrs.

I was bored that time and I called Ranger and chat with him over SMS and we agree to meet up and have movie and dinner together at vivo city. I went to Yishun area, near where he stays and had a light dinner before meeting him for a heavy dinner.

He came down buying dinner for his mum. We soon left after I finish the carrot cake that I ordered just now and followed him up his house. After delivering food to his mum, we headed to Vivo city, wanting to watch “Mahjong Kong Fu” but Vivo was not showing, “Apocalypto” was selling fast and left with first row seats. We decided to watch something else. We watch “Gridiron gang” in the end, a show with the lead actor ‘The Rock’ and his American football team. A very touching true story that every happen in the world. After that we went to Change village to have a light supper before he send me home.

ORD Dinner @ Hilltop Restaurant

Today is not just another wedding dinner or get-together dinner but an ORD dinner. It was my first time attending an ORD dinner and I was quite excited about it. I met up with Fahmy at Tampines bus interchange and have a light lunch and we headed to Yishun to meet up with Ranger as he is driving us there. We were ahead of schedule when we reach Yishun. Ranger made his way to fetch us.

We were way too early and I brought Ranger along to the estate I use to stay in the past. After that he parks his car in west mall and we had high tea at food court. After that we left west mall to look for the Hilltop Country Club by foot. We soon spotted that place and head back to west mall to collect Ranger’s car and proceed to Hilltop CC.

As soon as we park the car in Hilltop Country Club, we head straight to the ball room. The Country Club was well renovated and I like the designs of it. It really made me feel like I’m really on top of a hill top but just too sad to say that the buildings are taller than the Country Club. It was windy and the toilet was constructed in such a way that it is open to air outside. I saw Chua at the reception issuing the door gift, a cash card and an Ez-link card. We walk around the Country Club to kill some time. Soon it was time to be seated and the ball room still looks very empty, for a few minutes, and men of my Battalion starts to flock in slowly.

We were entertained by some “Bapok” which we all really love it. It was really a fun night as they made the volunteers do something that is really shameful; they really made our ORD Dinner night a real great one!

ORD parade and off

Today is the day where everyone is waiting for. Early in the morning I open the armskote, and I also have another appointment as usher. I have not gone for any briefing and have no idea what am I suppose to do. Later around 0700 hrs, I receive a call from Signal PS that the In-charge is looking for the entire usher from all the company and wanted us to meet him at the mess. I and Ranger were appointed to be the usher. We went to the mess and had a fast game of pool before we met up with the In-charge. We were told to stop any parents who tried to cross the line just to take pictures.

As the parade starts, mistakes starts to pop out, they were nervous, maybe… Or was it not their day? After the parade, they can fall out and head home with their loved ones. Life is more like a storybook. A storybook that does not tell the future but the past, the happiness, the sadness and the good and bad memories.

After the parade, I and Ranger stayed in camp to rot. Ranger has said ok to Fahmy that he will go dink at colour zone on that day itself so that’s why we stayed in camp till late evening. Meantime during the afternoon, there is a shoot at the 25 meter range and I was arrowed to be the safety specialist for the NCC cadets, they were only like 15 or 16 years old. Stress level was high for me because it was their first time and worst still; their individual field craft is as bad as a newbie. Don’t knowing how to aim well for some, weapon jam and some tumble. I have to rectify for them. They were funny students and did not give much problem. Later in the night I went to drink with Ranger and Fahmy. I even ask Shaq along. After colour zone, I went home for a night rest.

Rehearsal on ORD parade

The whole day, the parade square was filled with soldiers marching up and down, left and right. For me, I got nothing much to do, so I just lie around until afternoon, than I was told to have a timed run by one of the officer to see how he can help me in 2.4km run. That was my biggest problem. It was quite hard for me to finish the last 800 meters because I took around 10 minutes of my time; my officer gave up also because he knew I am in pain. I had a bit of breathing difficulty and he can see that I did not give up. He did not press me on to continue to run.

At night I went to Jalan Kayu with Ranger and Fahmy again to have some prata to fill ourselves. Soon after we head back to camp and have a good night rest for tomorrow’s parade.

COS Part 2

After 2359 hrs, I did the most shameless thing in my life, I actually ask Ranger to sneak out of camp with me and head to Jalan Kayu and tabao prata! I can’t believe my own action. But it was really fun. After I had my prata, I went to sleep in the air condition office till 0545 hrs to wake up just to raise flag.

After my flag rising, I had my breakfast and as usual, first parade and area cleaning but after these, the man have foot drill lesson for their upcoming ORD parade. Marching in the sun was never fun because it sucks. After dinner, I met up with Wilson for another business discussion on manicure and pedicure. We have a working engine and we now have to start the engine and it is a very difficult process because the engine parts and function and skill are very foreign to the two of us. We had a hard time trying to understand the engine so that we, the spare parts, can help to run the engine more smoothly.

Hope that this engine will help me gain a good positive business experience.

COS again, clear extra

This is my number 7th extra duty that I have done and I am still having 7 more to go. Still a lot, but I’m still doing good. Till now I am still wondering why I couldn’t sleep well last night, is it because of some flies that flew from the drainage and stared sucking my blood? I can feel that there is only 1 of them and just one of this blood sucking machine have made mi unable to sleep for the first time. I was really sleepy that time and this fly just kept sucking blood from my feet! I scratch my leg from 0300 hrs till 0600 hrs. I know the time because I kept looking at the time. I have never felt so irritated before. As the sun starts to rise, I drag my heavy body to the toilet to wash my blankets, pillow case and clothes that are all dirty and waiting for me to wash.

Everything was done before lunch and as I always said, weekend duties were the best duty that I will love to do because no one will ever come and disturb me. Lunch wasn’t really that delicious as long as I think of the carrot cake. Ranger said that he will come back to camp to company me but didn’t tell me what time he will be back. I am so bored in the big building, as though I’m a security guard, guarding this building and even security guards works in pair but I’m alone. Nobody to chat with.

I have a number of things to do by tomorrow. As my bloody camp pass has expired last month, I got to make one new one ASAP before I got into anything with security issues. As I have nothing much to do during a weekend duty, I have finally sat down and think of what I really want to achieve in the year 2007 and why.

Revolution of 2007
1. Stop smoking
To save more money for better use.
To improve my health.
My mum doesn’t like it.

2. Save money and cut down on unnecessary entertainment
Once I have cut down smoking, most of the money issues will be settled.
Spend lesser on fast food.
Getting old enough to be a father, its time I settle down, so I will need money for my wedding.

3. Slim down and get fitter to look more better
To keep away all kind of funny sickness like flu.
To have the idea body I have always dream of.
I don’t really look good with my tummy popping out and also with a double chin which make things worst.

4. Start to study for basic theory again
I can’t wait to pass my basic theory; I just have no idea why I can’t pass.
I want to have a class 3 driving license before I leave the army so that I can use it soon.

5. Debt free life
I want to make money work for me and not work for money.
To keep my mind free from stress, need not stress about money issues but just need to stress how am I going to spend the money that I have just earn.

6. Learn how to manage things better, anything will do
I wasn’t really good in managing things in a short time but good for a long run; I want to learn how to manage things fast, effective, error free and second to none.

7. Learn something new this year
Acquiring a new skill is what I always wanted to do but I will prefer to learn cooking and plumbing first. Either way will do.

8. Find time to start cutting and cooking food
I must start practicing before I get myself enrolled into shatec.

9. Get a new computer
My computer has been with me since I was in secondary 3, really time to change one.

10. Get back what I lost
Whatever I have lost, be it love or money I want them all back and I’m still thinking how to.

These will be the goal of 2007 that I wish to fulfill. There are more than 10 in fact but this are the top ten that I will want to achieve first as these are the most difficult things to achieve! Till than, I'll tell ya what happen to sua_ku at night tomorrow.

Sleeper’s day 2

I woke up early this morning because of the war that has been going thru my tummy, I can feel that they are fighting hard and there are a lot of casualties that needs me to bring them out. I went to the toilet and sat on the bowl to let the casualties out. Feeling relief, I washed up and look at the time. Close to 0900 hrs and Wilson is still in bed. I just send him a short SMS and he popped out of his bed; he came out with the very blur look and look at the time. He knew he is going to be late. He dialed for a cab and quickly gets changed up. We left his house together and he headed for his taxi and I headed for the bus stop, board the bus and waited to be at Tampines.

I bought carrot cakes for myself and my sister who has been begging me to buy breakfast for her. Business for the seller selling carrot cakes seems to be very good every time. There will be a small queue waiting to place order. He packs and his wife cook. I realize something about this uncle selling carrot cake, he sounds polite and friendly towards his customers who patronize his store, even those who didn’t buy anything from him, he did not give a black face or so, he just smiled. I have to admit that the carrot cake was tasty buy just that the portion was quite small. I somehow was addicted to eat carrot cakes from him. I still remembered that I was waiting for mine when he suddenly ask the people behind me not to queue because he felt embarrass about it and even ask his customers to sit down and wait instead of standing. Where on earth can we still find such good and friendly seller? Talking about his carrot cakes can make me drool even after lunch, if you are interested, tell me and I’ll be glad to bring you to eat but you have to bear with the small little queue.

I rush my way home, couldn’t wait to taste the hot, a little spicy carrot cake. As soon as I reach home, I couldn’t hold anymore. As I open the packet, the nice aroma filled the kitchen. I slowly finish the carrot cake, after that I fall on my comfortable bed and into my lala land again.

I woke up at 2000 hrs, couldn’t believe that I actually slept so long in the day. Feeling hungry, I headed to the kitchen and look into the wok for any food. There are rice, eggs with dark Soya sauce, soup and half a fish. I ate nearly everything till I’m filled, rot for a while and headed back to camp for a night rest.

Life run at Bishan

I was sleeping very soundly until I receive a lot of calls asking stupid questions, irritating me to the core. Still having hang over, I was told to open the armskote to let guard duty send in their weapons. Before I made my way down, I headed to the toilet to vomit out whatever it is coming out from my stomach. This is the first time I open armskote so late and in such bad state. Some of the man could even smell the alcohol coming out from me. They started drawing arms at around 0830 hrs and finally ended at around 0900 hrs and I was doing the remaining paperwork. When I’m done with the paper work, I thought I could rest for a little longer but hell no, CSM said that they are good enough and can send arms. I had to ask Ferhan, my new armskote man, to help me supervise the returning of arms and also chaining and locking up of the rifles.

Once everything was done, I locked up the armskote and headed back to bunk to catch some sleep, I slept through lunch. Woke up around 1400 hrs because of Terrance’s call, telling me that it’s time to come down the vehicle is on its way now. Still feeling hang over, I quickly made my way down to close the armskote. I waited for quite some time before the Duty Officer turns up. After closing the armskote, I quickly made my way up to pack my stuff. Stomach still grumbling because of hunger, I endured the hunger and quickly made my way down to the vehicle.

There was a 100% check for incoming and outgoing personnel or vehicle. We had our bags checked no matter how hard my officer tried to push it away because we were running late. It took quite a while before everything ended and we are now on our way to Bishan Park for a run. The journey was short, the weather was bad, the logistic forgot to bring ice and the water was not drinkable. We can just complain to ourselves and suck thumb. Soon we had our warm ups and started the run. I was with Fahmy and we were the walking party. We walked a total of 3km before the run was cancelled because of bad weather. We soon headed to our company’s assembly area and had a short debrief and soon after, we were dismiss and made our own respective way home. I met up with Ah Wee, Fahmy and Yuan jie for dinner. Ranger was heading back to camp because his car is parked in camp.

The 4 of us headed to a nearby beer garden to have dinner. The food was good but was quite expensive, maybe it’s because of the portion that they cook was not worth it and that’s why it cost around $5 for a plate of mee goreng. It was really tasty but I had my fill, if not I would have ordered more because it is so tasty. Ah wee than send us to Seng Kang to let us catch a bus back, but instead we took a cab as we were too tired. So tired, I don’t feel like going out, after a hot shower, I was about to rest when Wilson ask me over because something bad has happen to his circle of life. I don’t wish to talk much about this issue as it really is a sad thing. I accompanied him for a drink, see him up to his house and played mahjong with him. He seems better after telling me the pain that he felt. I stayed overnight at his place.

Happy hour at mess and round 2 at colour zone with 2 CSM

Nothing fun has happened in the day but quite a number of anger with my man. They went breakfast without me; I was so irritated with that matter because I can get scolding for that. Nothing much to do the whole day, I didn’t exercise and roam around like a dead man, having no idea what to do, I just waited for 1800 hrs patiently just to drink and get drunk because of someone that I like.

The party started as usual, had a small talk and had food and beer after that. There were 2 ladies invited to help us host the event but end up is we are the one entertaining ourselves. we had BINGO for that night, everyone was issued with a sip of paper with different numbers in it and there are 3 prices to be won, and I was lucky enough to win the 1st price, $40 Book voucher, 2nd price, Food voucher but no idea how much and 3rd price is a bottle of 1L DFS Vodka Absolute! After the games, it was free and easy and all started to leave the mess and go back to their own bunks to rot.

Happy hour is supposed to be happy where everyone will drink till drop. This happy hour wasn't really as happy as when my 1st year friends of army are still around. everyone know each other and we were closer, Ranger told me that this happy hour has a lie drawn between regular spec and NSF spec, and it was quite a clear cut about that as when I just give a glance to everywhere, its all like that. NSF will stick to NSF and didn't really communicate with the regular much. I miss those times of happy hour with my old friends a lot.

I sat down with Raja and Sean, my outgoing and incoming CSM respectively, Danson, Ranger, Terrance and Victor and started drinking and chatting away again. I have never misbehaved myself when I am drunk or rather feel tipsy. In fact, I have never got so drunk before, I told everyone that I wanted to get drunk tonight but I failed. Ranger's face was as red as a red apple; everyone was quite worried about him. Some even tease him; even shake his head to make him feel more terrible. Being evil, I just sit there and laugh at him. Feeling terrible, he made his own way back to bunk.

The rest of us, including Jacques, headed down to colour zone to freak Fahmy and Ah Wee out of their wits. When we open the door of the pub, the 2 store man of mind was shock to see all of us but later start drinking with us; we were also surprise to see the 2 girls from our unit to be there too. I told Fahmy that I wanted to get drunk tonight and all he said was ok. I tried to drink as many as I could but I just don’t feel high enough and in fact I am getting more awake instead. Soon I got bored and sat there and stone, I walked over to Weiling and played “wu gui wu gui tiao” to entertain myself. All I know is she kept losing and I just kept laughing at her. We left nearly at 3am, all waiting to head home. Jacques refuses to pick up any passenger because of the last vomiting case, so we all took a cab back to camp to rest for tomorrow.

Good things always come to an end, same goes to my off

It’s the start of a working day and I can see that a lot of us are very reluctant to work because of the “nua” germs that have infected all workers badly. Normally, we are having the Monday’s blue but we are all having a Wednesday’s blue. Very funny but it’s really true! My land rover that is going to ammo dump will be coming at 0800 hrs by right but administration has surfaced problems, I have waited for quite a long time before the stupid slow tortoise appeared right in front of me, driving at a speed of 50 km/h. I can die with this speed, and it takes about 1 hour or so to reach the ammo dump. I wanted to catch some sleep so I ask Ranger to sit in front and I could catch some sleep behind.

Wanting to sleep, I just can’t get to sleep because of the cooling wind that is blowing hard at my face, it just make me more awake instead of being sleepy. Goodness!! Things have not turn out the way I wanted and I was a walking zombie again when I reached the ammo dump, having fear that the ammo dump staff can smell the alcohol coming out from my body. To and fro took about 2 hours or so and this 2 hour is really a long 2 hour because it is so temping to sleep. Soon I reach camp and after setting up the most stupid thing called ammo point, it seems that I am confined to that small place till the whole exercise ended.

The scotching heat has been shining on me and I kept trying to avoid it because I will be dehydrated if I stayed under the sun for too long. I soon manage to hide away from the sun and because it is so cooling and windy, I start to feel sleepy and slowly I fall flat on the table and soon fast asleep. I felt that I have slept quite long and that very sleep was a very sweet sleep. I return ammo and when I came back, it is around 1700 hrs or 1800 hrs already. Still having briefing for tomorrow’s training at 1745 hrs, it ended quite late and I’m just too lazy to head out, I went back to bunk, lie on my bed and sleep again.

I now realize that I really can sleep a lot…

STM Day

What the heck have I done on this very day? Not much memory of what I have done on this day but all I remembered was I receive a call from my OPS SGT saying that I will be the ammunition in-charge for tomorrow’s training! I was really shock to hear that because my CSM did not inform me and yet it was my OPS SGT who informed me. I clarified with my CSM and prepare the necessary items over the phone, especially papers, I even ask ranger to tag along with me. I was at colour zone once again. Fahmy drag me there again and also at the same time, to look for someone. Don’t really wish to think much on it, let alone asking me to type it out. It just made me feel quite sad, that’s all. It is nearly 6am when I reach camp. Again I sleep like a dead log.

Sleeper’s days

Once I reach home after my duty, I realize that I didn’t sweat at all as I was in air con bus all the way. Once I hit my bed, I fall asleep till late again as usual. Waking up around 1900 hrs or so, I start to have my dinner and thereafter stone for a while.

Not long later, Ranger called up and asked me out for coffee. I agreed and changed and wait for his call. Dressed in long sleeve shirt, jeans and shoe, fearing the cold wind, I stood at the “NO PARKING” car park zone for him to pick me up. He arrived shortly after we hang up. We went to changi village just to have a cup of coffee for me and a glass of ice Milo for him. We brought a bottle of green tea and headed to the beach to let the sea breeze hit against our face. He bought some snacks that he brought from Malaysia and of course I remember to bring my K5 mp3 player as well. We sat down and talk about life and marriage.

We headed home before midnight strikes and fall back to the dwelling place of my bed again.

Security Guard

Doing guard duty in camp was never fun. Get to encounter a lot of angry things and times of pissed off only. This 24 hour is the longest day of my life. I couldn’t wait to hand over the duty to the RP after I ordered the man to do area cleaning.

Forgotten

It was a day that I have forgotten what I have done... dead tired even after long hours of sleep. All I remember was I met up with Wilson and his friend, sat down at McDonald and talk till 1900hrs or so and headed to ghoby ghaut to sign my insurance. After that I return back to camp because I will be on duty the next day. I bought a big bottle of green tea back to share with Ranger. I showed him some poker tricks video and he looked very amazed after viewing it.

After the video, the office was back to its quietness, I began to do the most stupidest and shameless things that I only did in Kbox! As I sign, my hands started to follow the actions of the lyrics. By doing that, I didn’t realize that Ranger was recording it! He showed me after I was done. Instead of asking him to delete, I did the most stupid thing again, I ask him to re-record again because I think it was not as good as what I have thought. Thick skin enough, I performed in front of his camera phone again.

Now Ranger was a threat to me. He threatens me jokingly asking if he should post this up to friendster or youtube. I was shock to hear that. Feeling afraid now, I only have to adhere to what he wants me to perform. What a shame… We soon ended the acting and all and fall asleep on the bed in office.

TGIF

It’s Friday again and it’s my off day! Time really flies… and I slept like there is no tomorrow, having no respect to the sun. I should be out with the sun but instead I’m with the moon. Haha! Seems like I have stop dating the sun and started dating the moon instead. Angelia asks Fahmy out for a stroll anywhere and he said Tampines, he called me shortly asking me to tag along. It was around 2 plus that time and I was about to go to east point shopping centre with my mum and sis to buy daily needs stuff.

It was since a very long time since we done shopping together because of the schedule that we have differently. This day for us to go shopping together has finally come. We shop and bought a lot of stuff, total bill was $350, mainly instant noodles and can foods. We have to take a cab back home as there were too many things. As I was shopping, Fahmy kept calling and rush me because he was shy with that little girl alone. I only manage to meet them at around 6 plus near 7. They watch a movie “Mahjong kongfu” I wonder how the show like is. Soon we met up and 3 of us sat down at McDonald for some snacks and drinks. Just as Fahmy kept asking me to go for a drink, Shaq called me up for a drink. Something tells me that he is feeling troubled because every time when he ask me out for a drink, is when he feels sad or troubled and will pour out all his sorrows to me to listen and awaits for my advices or comments.

I met him in the train’s last cabin as it is our hotspot. We will always meet at that corner no matter what because we know that it is not crowded at the end. He started telling me about his working life and plans for his future. The 4 of us soon reach boat quay and again headed to colour zone, thank goodness that the temperature is not as cold as the weather outside. As the small little girl got to work, 2 of us just drink and chat our way as Fahmy played pool, having quite a number of free games before he join us. Fahmy left around 2330 hrs to catch the last train back to Pasir Ris, leaving me and Shaq. We chat as usual and we soon left because we are getting sleepier. We headed back home and have a good sleep.

A short short day

I was in bed for a very long time. I didn’t even know that I slept for so long. After I woke up, I was still feeling stoned and very hungry. I have never drunk for so many days; this is my first time drinking so much. Fahmy send me an SMS asking me out for a movie, I agreed and we watch “The last dance.” It was very nice and I like the movie. Even though it is shot in Singapore, it seems that we can’t find the place and it seems like it doesn’t exist at all.

We sat down at the interchange’s big McDonald and talk and headed home after that. It was midnight by than and again, I felt tired and fall asleep on my bed again.

The day I felt like zombie

Even though we had a few hours of sleep, it is still very tiring for all the drinkers of last night. Victor has been saying the same sentence since he touches his comfortable bed. Talking to himself until dawn and finally falls asleep quietly in his bed at around 0645 hrs.

Everyone came down to office to let the government (my CSM) see our face so that he will not disturb us for the rest of the days. It was a busy day for me. I have to open my armory to let soldiers draw weapons and receive weapons, do up the parade state and settle admin stuff. After I finish everything, it is about 0930 hrs and I headed back to my bunk to sleep. As I was about to sleep, calls just keep coming in. As if like I am in a customer hotline service, all calling to ask stupid things. Things like where’s this thing, where’s that thing, what’s my this and that. Quite irritating at first. I than manage to have a peaceful sleep after 1100 hrs. I woke up at around 6 plus or so, I remember clearly is because when I wake up, I can’t see the state flag anymore so I know it’s after 1800hrs.

Shaq (my old time buddy) called me and ask me for a drink at a pub at Geylang as it was Wen Xing’s (a friend I know when I was 15, working as a crew in KFC) birthday. I than decide to go. I was very lost when I reach Geylang because I hardly come here. I tried to look for a landmark so that Shaq can meet me easily. It has been a long time that I have seen him and we talk for a very long time to catch up. Wen Xing and his other 2 friends soon came and we headed to the pub for a drink. We chat, played dices and pool till we were all tired and headed home. Shaq and me had a late night supper and headed home after that. Both exhausted and sleepy, nearly fall asleep in the cab still manage to reach home, have a hot shower and fall flat on bed, waiting for the sun’s arrival.

A long drinking night

After a hard day work, there is always a reward for a drink. Even though it’s coming from our pocket, we don’t mind because at the end of the day, we are getting day offs and besides that, few more hours to pay day! Ah Wee & Fahmy (both my wonderful store man), Terrance & Victor (both my good clubbing NSF friend), Jacques (my PC) and myself went for a drink in colour zone. We ha d a fun time there drinking, singing and talking. Working has not been so good because we hardly get to drink with my colleagues after work.

We drank, sang and play pool. It was really enjoyable. All getting tipsy and high, laughing at each other and bottoms up all the way. Walking more zigzag than a double zigzag yellow line. We sang till closing and headed to a coffee shop to fill our stomach from hunger. Victor was so high that he made his way back to an ATM by himself and manages to find his way back. We can see that he is totally high and can fall anytime when he lost a bit of his balance.

We headed to UOB Plaza’s car park to hitch a ride back to camp with Jacques’s dad’s car. Jacques was still wide awake and he still can do things at a normal state. Just that everyone was worried about the drunken victor, worried that he pukes hard in the car; I was sitting beside him at that point of time. I have to provide him with a plastic bag in case he pukes. The journey was smooth and he was still doing alright, no road block or traffic jam. The car was silent, less Victor’s drunken voice complaining that he is ok and it’s his first time getting drunk like that. The lonely dark road leading to our camp have a total of 4 humps and the humps are quite high, after we cross the 4th hump, Victor was quiet. I was thinking that he might be tired after talking so much and have decided to take a rest by keeping his mouth shut for a few minutes. It was our company doing guard duty that very night and we had access back to our bunk.

Suddenly Victor wanted to vomit and tried hard to open the door but fail because of the auto lock system. Few seconds later, he let out the smelliest smell of vomit that I have ever smelt before IN THE CAR. He even puke on my hand but I can forgive him because I know he didn’t do it on purpose, I can see that he really can’t hold the vomit for anymore longer. It makes me felt weak and wanted to puke like him too. Thank goodness that I can still take it. He was dragged out by Terrance to vomit on the bushes; I got down helping Terrance. Jacques got down too, angry and mad because of the vomiting case. Jacques requested me to wait for him at the officer mess to help him wash his dirty car.

Two of us had a hard time trying to get the dirty potion clean. It’s impossible to get rid of the smell; all we can do is to get rid of the stinking vomit. We did our best but the smell stays. Jacques soon parked his car and I headed back to my bunk for a wash up and change to my sleeping attire and fall dead on bed.

An offline blog (Week 2)

It’s already the second week and the attempt of trying to log in to write my blog has still failed and I have been hindered to continue my blog again. The thought of discontinuing has started to appear at the back of my head because of all the unsuccessful loading of the main page.

Monday was the LRI audit, Brian and I was stayed calm because we know we have done our best. We know that no matter how we hard we tried to lie our way through, it will be never ending because they were all experts in these fields. They know the slightest mistakes we can make. We just have to answer them honestly. Brian and I was not trained in armskote, we were only taught on the things that will be done daily, weekly, monthly and quarterly. Everything was inspected, including the paperwork and vouchers. The chief inspectorate told us that we had a very clean armskote compare to the other company’s armskote. We were all glad to hear such words came out from an auditor’s mouth. We were happy and kept smiling. We were so good that he couldn’t find any mistakes to note it down, he tried hard to find for errors and finally he got it. A few rusty rifle buckles, it was really disgusting. That was the only mistake he took down for items.

The audit last for about an hour plus or so, but it seems to be like it’s taking the whole day. Everything was smooth and we broke for lunch. They came at around 1030 hrs and left around 1200 hrs. We were relieved that they only note down 2 or 3 major mistakes.

Very happy, we decided to have a drinking session at boat quay the very next day, because we will get our pay on the 9th of that very night.

An offline blog (Week 1)

It has been days that I tried to log in to blogger.com to continue the story of me but it seems that I really had a hard time just by signing in! I and I gave up, so while my memory is still fresh, I will vomit out all the lifetime learning that sua_ku has learnt during these days…

I was doing duty on the 2nd day of New Year! Peaceful is the only word to describe my duty. Sleeping and playing game is the only thing I did. And when night falls, the man of Charlie Company started to return, bit by bit. Like a group of people running a marathon, crossing the finishing line bit by bit.

On the 3rd day, my so called disciplinary master known as my CSM told me and Brian, my Armskote assistance, the LRI (Logistic Readiness Inspection) will be next week. The two of us, plus Ferhan, my new assistance work till late everyday just to meet the deadline. We did painting, cleaning, labeling items and re-arranging stuff in armskote. We worked through lunch and dinner, racing against time. It was soon Friday and we finally manage to complete most of the important stuff. We are only down with a few more paper to go before Monday.

Myself, Fahmy and Ah wee (both store man) went to boat quay for a drink to vomit out all complains that we had over the job that we were assign to and were suppose to do. We return back to camp on a Saturday morning just to complete it. Work starts at 9am and all dead hungry, we thought that canteen was open but to our surprise, it was not. We work with empty stomach. Typing was never the same because I can’t afford to have any mistakes in it. Still feeling the alcohol grinding in my stomach and the tipsiness that is spinning in my head. Mostly were all numbers and it’s really confusing and stressful for me… We finally manage to finish it. It was really chaotic and messy as there are so many numbers. And the first 3 numbers are all the same. It really made my eyes go wild.

Finally, we finished the work that we are supposed to do. If I remember correctly, I headed to cine leisure’s Kbox with ghostie with his friend and her friend’s friend. 4 people in total. It was suppose to be a vent out anger session or rather happy moments but I don’t know why I kept singing songs that is sentimental that will make Wilson think of his past times with his girl. I just don’t know why. Maybe it’s because I only know how to sing these songs and it’s my best in these songs. We ended at around 2 or 3 plus and we all headed home.

I hardly work and party hard like that. It was never me to do this kind of stuff, partying and drinking, making myself tipsy and enjoying myself with my friends. Sleeping very late for few nights have made me difficulties sleeping early at nights and thirsty for hard liquor. Having no idea why… Is my mind telling me that I need to enjoy because I have been working hard on my brain for so long? Or has my brain’s wire snap? Or am I just simply to stress? And if I am too stress, what am I stress about? Could it be my career? Or love life? Or financial freedom life? Sometimes, I wish I can have all 3 problems solved and need not worry about my daily necessary needs, and start to worry for more important things…

Party time always starts late

I woke up from my dreadful sleep around 2000 hrs, the time where most party goers are preparing to get dressed up for the final day of 2006. Saying hello to 2007 and goodbye to 2006 and. Charles, Desmond, both my secondary school mate, with Ann and his boyfriend, Wenjie was there to welcome me at Jab1 KTV pub. I nearly lost my way because it’s been a long time since I last went to boat quay. The place looks very relaxing, simple and comfortable to sit back and relax to have a drink or so. Soon, Charles’s friends came and join us.

The last time I saw the time on my mobile was like 2315 hrs. All of us were playing five ten, the very popular finger drinking game. Though we sip our drinks, we know that we had drunk a lot, getting tipsy extremely fast. The kick slowly came… Does time flies so fast or I am just enjoying the time chatting and playing away until we totally forgotten about the time? At 2345 hrs, the KJ started to play techno and trance, we then knew that midnight is drawing near. There was a countdown by a waitress, and than things just went wild. Almost all their staff to carry a bottle of party sprays to spray at every customer that was in the pub. It was very havoc but fun!

The music went on for the past ½ an hour or so, it soon bored us out. Ann and Wenjie have to leave as Wenjie is working tomorrow. What to do? Army personnel are like that. We continue to chat and played five ten. Waitresses join in the fight as I was fighting with Desmond. It seems like we took turns to lose! Soon he gave up because he has been drinking and I have been sipping the drink. We fought with the waitresses as well. They were really good.

The more we drank, the tipsier we get. Charles and Desmond both couldn’t take the kick anymore and soon stop drinking, leaving me alone to fight with the fierce monsters. I couldn’t take it and soon stop. And thank goodness they left as well.

We partied till closing and Charles myself and Charles friend had problem finding Desmond, 3 big man looking for a guy that always sneak away while we are not paying attention on him. We couldn’t find him and we gave up. We headed home instead. As we all live in different part of Singapore, we should split but we had a hard time finding a cab! It’s either on call or busy or change shift or just refuse to take us! It’s really irritating that a taxi driver refuse to send you home when there is no passenger on board and worst still, he changed shift at this location and just nice you stayed at that location, they also refuse to stop. Let them earn money also so don’t want? Why will they still want to roam the streets when they refuse to take passengers?

The road was jam packed with drunkards. It was like a you’re in a movie, seeing all these drunk people reminds me of the movies “Dawn of the Dead.” Everywhere is like that! Kind of scary, we soon manage to grab a cab, 3 of us hope in and ask the taxi driver to send us to 3 different location. Total cab fare was around $45. But the journey was horrible because I couldn’t lean back properly and I can’t sleep because of the street lights. Soon I got home and the time was nearly 0500 hrs. As soon as I open the door, my mum was getting ready to go work. Why is life like that for my mum? New Year also has to work. Sigh! I was so dead tired, I had a quick shower and fall flat on my bed, thinking that I will have a very sound sleep but I couldn’t sleep. Having no idea, I just flip in my blanket, trying hard to get some sleep.