The last time I had my duty was last month and doing duty as a slave was never stressful, and i mean it, never stressful. Though I will be busy, but occasionally ONLY! Somehow the bad thing about doing duty is, you sleep the latest and you wake up the earliest. Nothing much can be done when doing duty, you can't leave camp, you can't do this, you can't do that, bounded by so many rules...
I have always tried to make my duty a simple and easy ones. I'll finish all the errands that I am suppose to do and prepare the stuff for the night errands, but today is different. I'm leaving all the stuff untouch and I'll do it tomorrow morning instead because I'm too lazy to do it. I'm still in a holiday mode though...
Supposing to wake up as early as 0730 and take over at 0800, i woke up at 1030 hrs instead. I just love weekend duties, nobody will disturb me! I stone in my bed till lunch time and went for lunch. The mama cat in the cook house had given birth to 5 small kittens, they were of pure black, black with white patches, some look like grey? I don't know but he just look like that with a bit of stripes here and there. This mama cat was a very poor mama cat. Having no idea who is the papa cat, the pregnant mama cat have to take car of her 5 little kitty. So poor thing. I had nothing to feed them except the chicken rib meat that was given to me, tearing up the meat, feeding them slowly. You can see from the mama cat's eye was kinda watery. I don't know if cats eyes are watery or not but when it "meow" it moan in a very sad kinda voice. It's trying to tell me "please give me more food, I'm still hungry!" I gave all the meat given to them, they were still hungry and I couldn't do anything. I headed back to office to play game after a light lunch.
Westwood Red Alert was a very old game, and yet it has never bored me before. I played from lunch till dinner, can you believe that i actually lose track of the time? Yes I did! I went up to change to y number 4, go for my simple dinner and after that follow on by a simple flag lowering. It started raining again today at around 1735 hrs. My mood was gone half because the sun was not even up for more than 24 hours in total. Thank goodness that it only rain for a few hours. The rain subside and stop.
What kind of duties and which duty makes me bored? Weekday COS or weekend guard duty. Why? Because I have never ending errands as a COS as you can understand the phase "Only Slave". For guard duty, I am responsible of this and that, which makes me busy and feel exhausted easily! I hate performing guard duty! I even have to answer for anything that went wrong which is not done by me. So many responsibilities in hand. But the biggest responsibility that I have in my mind when I am doing guard duty is, the camp.
Security issues was never fun to mess with. Have to follow standing orders, this orders and that orders. So sick of orders! Thank goodness that i am not doing guard duty today if not I really have no mood doing it. I might be sleeping all the way till my end of duty. Haha!!
Sunday, December 31, 2006
Saturday, December 30, 2006
A troubled friend
Wilson SMS me early in the morning, telling me he was really sad. I ask him to share his problems to me, he started pouring out all his complains to me. As promised, I lend him my ears. I felt very helpless after listening, I was unable to help him out. At the same time I think was thinking as well, what will I do if I was in his shoes? His problems were challenging enough for me as the probability of me facing these problems were high, extremely high.
I went over to his place, cracking my head and trying to help him out by thinking of a good solution out. We still couldn't think of anything in the end. I can see from his facial expression that he felt the burden was getting heavier and heavier. Too heavy that he needs to take off and rest but the situation does not allow him to do so. We headed down to his employer's place to have his uniform return. He changed a job. Hopefully he will get his next interview over soon and have a strong foundation in his new company and fight all the way up.
On the way back while in the train station, he kept telling me this "I miss her a lot!" Its good to dote on a girl but sometimes too much is bad. I don't know what will really happen if too much is given. Is this an example just in front of me? Is this message trying to tell me not to be too good to my love one? Or is there another reason behind it? I have no idea but all I can do is just know what am I doing in the future.
I wanted to ask him for a walk at the beach, letting the breeze gently hit against him, letting him pour out all his anger. Motive, to make him relax himself before he gets mentally unstable. but we didn't go. It was too far and i also feared that it might rain. We head to his place instead. We watch TV till 8pm and he headed back to his parents house to have dinner and stay a night over there. He complains to me that he never like being alone... I've done my best by accompanying him for a few days, I hope he won't feel shit after all.
We send me to the nearest bus stop, he kept thinking that I am heading back to Tampines when I'm heading back to camp. He seems to be very forgetful nowadays, maybe its because of the stress. Sometimes I wonder if he knows what is he doing.
Back to my second home, had my dinner rather late today. I hardly eat so late, I was so hungry that i had 2 packets of instant noodles. Not surprisingly! I can eat more than that! Haha!!! Suddenly my phone just rang. It's Jonathan and he said that he can return the money he own me by tomorrow. I was very happy to hear that but i won't know if he will busted me or not. I love friends who keep their promises, and i treasure them!
Weather was very cool last night, so cooling that I actually have to cuddle myself up like a new born baby. Not long after, I couldn't take the coldness and i woke up to cover myself with my green blanket. Before i slept, i was thinking how is my friend Wilson doing now.
I went over to his place, cracking my head and trying to help him out by thinking of a good solution out. We still couldn't think of anything in the end. I can see from his facial expression that he felt the burden was getting heavier and heavier. Too heavy that he needs to take off and rest but the situation does not allow him to do so. We headed down to his employer's place to have his uniform return. He changed a job. Hopefully he will get his next interview over soon and have a strong foundation in his new company and fight all the way up.
On the way back while in the train station, he kept telling me this "I miss her a lot!" Its good to dote on a girl but sometimes too much is bad. I don't know what will really happen if too much is given. Is this an example just in front of me? Is this message trying to tell me not to be too good to my love one? Or is there another reason behind it? I have no idea but all I can do is just know what am I doing in the future.
I wanted to ask him for a walk at the beach, letting the breeze gently hit against him, letting him pour out all his anger. Motive, to make him relax himself before he gets mentally unstable. but we didn't go. It was too far and i also feared that it might rain. We head to his place instead. We watch TV till 8pm and he headed back to his parents house to have dinner and stay a night over there. He complains to me that he never like being alone... I've done my best by accompanying him for a few days, I hope he won't feel shit after all.
We send me to the nearest bus stop, he kept thinking that I am heading back to Tampines when I'm heading back to camp. He seems to be very forgetful nowadays, maybe its because of the stress. Sometimes I wonder if he knows what is he doing.
Back to my second home, had my dinner rather late today. I hardly eat so late, I was so hungry that i had 2 packets of instant noodles. Not surprisingly! I can eat more than that! Haha!!! Suddenly my phone just rang. It's Jonathan and he said that he can return the money he own me by tomorrow. I was very happy to hear that but i won't know if he will busted me or not. I love friends who keep their promises, and i treasure them!
Weather was very cool last night, so cooling that I actually have to cuddle myself up like a new born baby. Not long after, I couldn't take the coldness and i woke up to cover myself with my green blanket. Before i slept, i was thinking how is my friend Wilson doing now.
Thursday, December 28, 2006
A warm raining day
It has been a long time ever since I had a very long sleep. It felt like I just resurrect from the dead… Felt that my lungs are tight as though it has never had air running inside for a long time. I slept on my left shoulder the whole night and I could feel that it is so powerless when I woke up in the morning. I massage my own arm to regulate the blood flow.
As I was still sleeping in the day, I heard my phone rang a lot of time. It was real irritating… I wanted to slam my phone down to the ground hard because it has been disturbing my sleep, but I dare not because I don’t know when I will be getting my next phone… Having no idea, I just lowered the ringing tone and went back to sleep. Soon, my battery died after ringing for so long. It left me quietly to sleep.
I woke up around morning and started playing Audition using his account. Suddenly there was one SMS message in my phone. it was from Wilson! He’s back home. His trip was cancelled because the captain decided to call it off because of the earthquake that happen in Taiwan recently. I was glad that he was back and I did not question him about his cancelled trip any further.
I went over to his house and see him. It was evening already by than. We spent another few hours talking crap as usual. As we chat, we watch TV program from Starhub digital set, TV program 12, which is discovery channel. Both broke at this time, we had maggi for dinner instead of having packet food bought from kopitiam. I headed back to camp at 2300 hrs as I have to assist in SOC and hopefully this time I won’t get busted again.
The home or house that I have always been talking about was actually my camp. It has got almost everything that I need and it’s a good stay in there. I had a mini fridge, fan, washing machine, computer (even though it’s slow), television, Xbox, mini radio and what else? There is nothing more that I can think of, a good place to stay at. Talk about food, I got a cupboard of instant noodles, sausage, water boiler, cups, bowl and eating utensils, different washing detergents for my bowl and clothes. Basically I have all the basic needs I have. What more can I ask for in a camp?
But so what having everything that I have in camp? I had home sick occasionally because I miss my mum. No blanket is warmer than anything when my mum pulls a blanket over me when I was asleep. All I can say is, I miss those days when I was a child being showered heavily with motherly love! I wish that sooner or later, there will be a girl who will do that to me too, a mother, a lover, a partner or a very close friend. How I wish that it will happen soon…
As I was still sleeping in the day, I heard my phone rang a lot of time. It was real irritating… I wanted to slam my phone down to the ground hard because it has been disturbing my sleep, but I dare not because I don’t know when I will be getting my next phone… Having no idea, I just lowered the ringing tone and went back to sleep. Soon, my battery died after ringing for so long. It left me quietly to sleep.
I woke up around morning and started playing Audition using his account. Suddenly there was one SMS message in my phone. it was from Wilson! He’s back home. His trip was cancelled because the captain decided to call it off because of the earthquake that happen in Taiwan recently. I was glad that he was back and I did not question him about his cancelled trip any further.
I went over to his house and see him. It was evening already by than. We spent another few hours talking crap as usual. As we chat, we watch TV program from Starhub digital set, TV program 12, which is discovery channel. Both broke at this time, we had maggi for dinner instead of having packet food bought from kopitiam. I headed back to camp at 2300 hrs as I have to assist in SOC and hopefully this time I won’t get busted again.
The home or house that I have always been talking about was actually my camp. It has got almost everything that I need and it’s a good stay in there. I had a mini fridge, fan, washing machine, computer (even though it’s slow), television, Xbox, mini radio and what else? There is nothing more that I can think of, a good place to stay at. Talk about food, I got a cupboard of instant noodles, sausage, water boiler, cups, bowl and eating utensils, different washing detergents for my bowl and clothes. Basically I have all the basic needs I have. What more can I ask for in a camp?
But so what having everything that I have in camp? I had home sick occasionally because I miss my mum. No blanket is warmer than anything when my mum pulls a blanket over me when I was asleep. All I can say is, I miss those days when I was a child being showered heavily with motherly love! I wish that sooner or later, there will be a girl who will do that to me too, a mother, a lover, a partner or a very close friend. How I wish that it will happen soon…
The longest day
Today seems to be a very bad day for me. Things don’t appear the way that it should that I have planned… Supposing to open my armskote for SOC participants today, I took the first bus service number 72 from Tampines all the way to Yio Chu Kang. The ride was horrible as the air con was so at a low speed.
Feeling very stuffy in the upper deck of the bus and it is the first time I ever experience bus sick! I felt dizziness and nearly puke after alighting at the bus terminal because of lack of oxygen in my body and worst still, the air wasn’t fresh! It was full of carbon monoxide, suffocating me badly… As I look at my mobile phone, the time was 0645hrs and I am running late. I have to open my armskote by 0645 hrs but shit always happens. I was late. I walked back to camp as fast as I can, panting, sweating and stinking…
When I reach camp, I saw this notice pin up on notice board, “SOC participants draw arms from X Coy @ 0610 hrs” I nearly blew my top. No calls, no SMS, no news or any information is informed to me or my assistance that we don’t have to open armskote today. Kind enough, the orderly told me that we are conducting IPPT for the Battalion and he asked me to stay to help, I agreed and so I stayed to assist the conducting of IPPT. As the time is still early, I went up to my bunk to wash my clothes and have a short 15 min nap…
At 0730 hrs, I changed into admin attire and started to assist the conduct of IPPT. Surprisingly I did not see the orderly who ask me to stay because he told me that he has to stay as well. Ending up I was busted… After IPPT, I continued to lie on my bed and enjoy the cold wind that is coming out from the fan. The feeling was good as I have always like cold air blowing gently on my body. I left camp at around 1100 hrs heading to a friend’s place to place mahjong…
We started playing since 1300 hrs and the game ended at 1600 hrs or so… it’s been a long time I had a mahjong session… I headed back home, had a hot shower and wanted to relax myself by watching TV programs but it seems that there is nothing interesting in TV. Wonder what is mediacrops is doing also. So bored, I headed to my bed and fall flat on it. Shortly after that, I fall dead on my bed and fast asleep as the weather is too good to sleep with. It was raining again! The clock seems to tick slower than usual. I wonder if it is just for today or till 31st Dec…
Feeling very stuffy in the upper deck of the bus and it is the first time I ever experience bus sick! I felt dizziness and nearly puke after alighting at the bus terminal because of lack of oxygen in my body and worst still, the air wasn’t fresh! It was full of carbon monoxide, suffocating me badly… As I look at my mobile phone, the time was 0645hrs and I am running late. I have to open my armskote by 0645 hrs but shit always happens. I was late. I walked back to camp as fast as I can, panting, sweating and stinking…
When I reach camp, I saw this notice pin up on notice board, “SOC participants draw arms from X Coy @ 0610 hrs” I nearly blew my top. No calls, no SMS, no news or any information is informed to me or my assistance that we don’t have to open armskote today. Kind enough, the orderly told me that we are conducting IPPT for the Battalion and he asked me to stay to help, I agreed and so I stayed to assist the conducting of IPPT. As the time is still early, I went up to my bunk to wash my clothes and have a short 15 min nap…
At 0730 hrs, I changed into admin attire and started to assist the conduct of IPPT. Surprisingly I did not see the orderly who ask me to stay because he told me that he has to stay as well. Ending up I was busted… After IPPT, I continued to lie on my bed and enjoy the cold wind that is coming out from the fan. The feeling was good as I have always like cold air blowing gently on my body. I left camp at around 1100 hrs heading to a friend’s place to place mahjong…
We started playing since 1300 hrs and the game ended at 1600 hrs or so… it’s been a long time I had a mahjong session… I headed back home, had a hot shower and wanted to relax myself by watching TV programs but it seems that there is nothing interesting in TV. Wonder what is mediacrops is doing also. So bored, I headed to my bed and fall flat on it. Shortly after that, I fall dead on my bed and fast asleep as the weather is too good to sleep with. It was raining again! The clock seems to tick slower than usual. I wonder if it is just for today or till 31st Dec…
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
The last day
It has been raining very heavy ever since the day after Christmas, weather is so cold that it is so good to sleep at but I’m still online editing my blog layout. Wilson had helped me out in all those HTML code that I am never familiar with. Thank you so much for the help if not I would not have such a nice blog layout. He helped me out on the clock, countdown timer, and counter.
Just as I was listening to the song B J Thomas – Raindrops Keep Falling On My Head.mp3, with no worries in mind, my dear friend Wilson, broke the peaceful night that I was having AT THE WRONG TIME. He told me over msn that he is leaving for India this morning on a wrecked vessel. My eyes widen and everything comes to a still… If he was leaving on a vessel it’s still ok with me but it’s a wrecked vessel, a vessel that all kind of shit can happen.
Though he always makes a lot of fuss on me, make a hell lot of scolding on me, I didn’t take it to heart because I remember a quote he told me before “If you (which is me) can handle me (ghostie), you can handle all the bosses in the world.” Initially I thought that he was bullshitting but when I take a step back and observe, which is really true. He has gone true much more shit than me. Though I’m still in the army and after I ORD, I’m so new to the society because I have never work in a cooperate world before.
He changed my life a lot. Currently a small little rhino with a little horn now that use to be a shy tortoise, he taught me how to fight back the right way at the right time. I have been learning a lot of things from him every time we meet up. He is like a lecturer to me, a lecturer of life.
We have a lot of things in common; we love sentimental song, oldies and funny video clips. We can just sit down in front of his computer and sing till dawn, watch funny movies that will makes us laugh till tears. Now he is gone for a 3 week journey to India, I’ll be left alone in Singapore; I will miss this friend of mine that I have, having no clues if he will make it back safe and sound. Brother, I’ll be waiting for your return! We chatted till dawn and he goes off to work and I fall on my bed and sleep.
Life still has to goes on…
Woke up at lunch time… had my brunch and stoned and thought that I will rot and decompose away but it just doesn’t happen. Haha… Today is not just another ordinary day I had, it’s a day where my buddy had left on a wrecked vessel and his return journey will be left unknown.
Just as I was listening to the song B J Thomas – Raindrops Keep Falling On My Head.mp3, with no worries in mind, my dear friend Wilson, broke the peaceful night that I was having AT THE WRONG TIME. He told me over msn that he is leaving for India this morning on a wrecked vessel. My eyes widen and everything comes to a still… If he was leaving on a vessel it’s still ok with me but it’s a wrecked vessel, a vessel that all kind of shit can happen.
Though he always makes a lot of fuss on me, make a hell lot of scolding on me, I didn’t take it to heart because I remember a quote he told me before “If you (which is me) can handle me (ghostie), you can handle all the bosses in the world.” Initially I thought that he was bullshitting but when I take a step back and observe, which is really true. He has gone true much more shit than me. Though I’m still in the army and after I ORD, I’m so new to the society because I have never work in a cooperate world before.
He changed my life a lot. Currently a small little rhino with a little horn now that use to be a shy tortoise, he taught me how to fight back the right way at the right time. I have been learning a lot of things from him every time we meet up. He is like a lecturer to me, a lecturer of life.
We have a lot of things in common; we love sentimental song, oldies and funny video clips. We can just sit down in front of his computer and sing till dawn, watch funny movies that will makes us laugh till tears. Now he is gone for a 3 week journey to India, I’ll be left alone in Singapore; I will miss this friend of mine that I have, having no clues if he will make it back safe and sound. Brother, I’ll be waiting for your return! We chatted till dawn and he goes off to work and I fall on my bed and sleep.
Life still has to goes on…
Woke up at lunch time… had my brunch and stoned and thought that I will rot and decompose away but it just doesn’t happen. Haha… Today is not just another ordinary day I had, it’s a day where my buddy had left on a wrecked vessel and his return journey will be left unknown.
Monday, December 25, 2006
Christmas Day
Even though I’m a Christian, a Christian who doesn’t go church, attend cell group pray like I use to, enjoy being a sinner, breaking the 10 commandments that God have laid down and what else? I don’t know but at least I know what I am doing and I didn’t break all 10, at least I’m still uphold half the commandments, or in fact ¾ of it.
To me, Christmas is like another ordinary day for me. Stone at home, waiting to rot and die. I woke up around lunch time. Still tired but couldn’t sleep, flipping here and there in my bed, I told myself that something is terrible wrong in my life. Something is missing but I just couldn’t answer myself what is missing in my life. Was it the love of my life? Where is she? I couldn’t see or find her. I don’t know if I will be alone again this Valentine’s Day again but all I know is, I just wish that I can be with a girl I love through this Valentine’s Day, but this dream of mine doesn’t seems to happen after all.
I ask
It can’t stand this torment of pain. I will give way soon. Being alone at home is the worst thing that can ever happen to me. I’m always home alone… So lonely… I tried finding activities but at times, I was bond by situations, situations that will turn me off. Financial!
While I was having lunch,
Christmas Eve night at Devil’s bar
I decided to go and have fun with
I receive a present from my sister. It’s lying on my bed, I was too tired to open it, so I left it on the floor, had a hot shower and fall flat on my bed and sleep like a dead log.
My First Time
I can't imagine that I’m doing this when I use to criticize others being stupid and waste of time that blog, and now I’m blogging! I can’t believe what I am doing… It’s my very first time doing a blog. Some say that blogging is just like writing a journal and I have never done one before. I don’t know but maybe it is really a place for one to pen down and express themselves on papers other than physical emotion.
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