a long break that everybody wants!

after the 24km route march, it also marks the end of the BMT phase! burning my army open house weekend, BMT field camp weekend. 2 weekend burn straight in a row, my buddy said that i have worn out and i really need a break! by than, my mind is already very confused with work. everything seems to be going the wrong way. i just couldn't find out the answer why until my buddy told me that i need a freaking long break! i got myself 7 days of off and i am already very glad that at least i escape from work for a while and have a good break.

time really fly faster than working hours... just a blink and 2 weeks of off and leave is coming to an end.. kinda sad as i cannot continue working on Monday and Tuesday and stay at home the rest of the days... hai~ i now want this kinda life... and now i am wanting to have my life like that... I'm gonna give myself a chance that by 30, i should be waking up at 9, having brunch with friends around 11. have high tea at 3 plus or 4, exercise by the beach at evening time, dinner by the beach. more like you go for a resort in sentosa or tioman. i wish for this life now and i wanna make it happen. by 30 yrs old, which is 6 years from now, i want this dream to be fulfilled.

during this 2 week break, my buddy brought me along doing his delivery as he is working as a delivery boy. better than staying at home, it is more fun to be out, especially a friend that have already treat you like his blood brother. i am the eldest and never had an elder brother or sister so every time when i need opinion, he is the first one that i will talk to and ask him how he feels about it. i never talk to my mum is because she always wants me to make the safest decision. as we all know now, there isn't a decision that will be safe and everything involves risk. i just wonder why can't my mum let me do what i want to do.

anyway, i got to meet this young lady, name Selin, during the first week of break. i get to know her through wholivesnearyou. she was a busy person studying in SIM and at the same time in Sunshine Empire. somehow, i like to look into her eyes, i just don't know why. an unexplained feeling is what i felt when i looked into her eyes. i just enjoy looking at her, no matter how busy i was, how tired i felt or how sick i am, just a simple eye contact or a smile from her will max my energy bar. but the problem now is that she wants to be remained single and make money work for her.

i cant explain why i like her. could it be that i'm out of love for too long any any girls that came to my line is likable? i hope this is not the reason why i'm liking her. or is there a reason that you must have to like a person? can someone answer me ?

24km route march at ECP

2 long distance march within 2 week, really a pain in the ass... feeling very tired and restless, we still have to gear up and walk the distance... as the point of contact, i have many things to look into... things like stores and participants... the march is a boring one, a turn off, i would say. also there seems to have some communication problems with the company lines...

first, the most horrible thing that went wrong was that everyone was late for the assembly. all because everyone's watch is showing different time, and because of the "i wait for you and you wait for me" practice, or rather known as "monkey see monkey do" action, that's why everyone was late. after some morale talk by CO, we than board the bus and head to ECP.

when we reach ECP, after all the briefing and talking, we started the march in 2 waves because the buses was indented in 2 waves... don't know whose idea was that but it shows a sign of no integrity. so C, SP and HQ just started marching off as first waves... we were told not to sing along the way. so we all kept quiet starts to joke among one another. i join and joke around with the medics that were marching beside me.

its was a long march... because it was boring but we tried our best to joke around and make the walk an interesting one. at the U-turn point, i was told to take off my pack and remove my helmet because as a safety, I'm supposed to walk with my webbing and jockey cap and not full battle order. though it was light for me, it wasn't easy for my back. when we hit the end point and did our warm down, the feeling was good... because we get to rest. for me, i had to stretch my back as it really irritates a lot, especially the lower back muscles group that have suffered strains before... sometimes i just can't understand why must we push on when it hurts. it just increases the chances of injuries... i sometime have to wonder how and what is an officer is thinking! they just wanted you to complete it and not fall out and that's it. they want you to complete the march just one time where you don't have to re-walk again. i wonder if they have ever think of how that person struggling felt. i wonder if they will put themselves into their shoes... pushing on is good but pushing too much is not good, especially physically...

after warm down, we saw the second wave troopers coming in. we just don't understand why are they singing! that was a real embarrassment to me because it shows that the unit is screwed up. we were told not to sing but why is the other group singing? what kind of communication skills are we showing? every soldier now shouts "READY" every time they seat at ease or acknowledge. every READY they shouts turns out to be rubbish every day and every min. full of craps is all i can say!

everyone was resting when suddenly the rain just drop down hard from the sky! everyone ran for shouters in ECP. 500 soldiers all around ECP with their rifle seeking shelter. some have to seek shelter in the under pass! well, this is unpredictable! what worse was that the walk ended early! everyone have to wait for the freaking bus! why can't they just sticky to the timing given? even though there are bound to have changes, why didn't they change the bus timing as well? i'm starting to hate the top management people already because they think that they wanna change and it will be changed immediately!

ending up, HQ took tonner back home. it was a long sleep on the tonner. the rest gotta wait for the buses to come. my poor friend shariff got to wait till everyone is gone before he goes back. he is taking the big boss's cars back to camp. oh man... sometimes i really wonder what are these people doing...

BMT field camp, sorry, its a scout camp instead!

before I could recover and rest well for the next event, I have plan how to rest well during my stay at Tekong but it all suddenly change. my CSM have ask me to perform guard duty, main reason, he got not enough specialist so need me to help out, with all thanks to the CPL Dave Teo, security have step up a lot, sometimes I don't know to thank him or to curse him because as we all know, army so wayang, everything go through motion, but sad for him that he is charged with 3 charges. anyway, guard duty on a Saturday is boring and it nearly drive me crazy. why drive me crazy is because the guards under me really piss me off big time and I just felt like giving every one of them a good punch to wake up their freak idea on what they have been doing. sigh, I hope that something "good" will happen so that they will wake up.

so after this shitty guard duty, I have yet to pack my stuff so I rush a lot. I thought I can get out of camp like 9am but I was wrong. :( get to step out at 9.45am and by the time I reach interchange its around 10am already and I hadn't had time to find 3 original VCD for HQ movie screening. initially for what I heard was its for the recruits. the best thing, I heard all is gonna have BBQ for BMT field camp. this field camp is totally full of bullshit. everything is done with no standards, even the SME's cant do a shit about it because our big boss wants it that way. WTH!!! WTF is he just trying to do??? he just think that they are some private soldiers already huh... sigh! thank goodness he wanted me to move on the army and now I'm waiting to be posted out if not I'll be the first one to kill myself because they are now not fit to even be a private soldiers.
SHAME ON THEM! not surprise that they wont get best unit for this year.

so I tried my best to find the VCD but the rental shop is still closed, so I called back john, telling him that I cant get the VCD because the shop is still closed and I am going to miss the 12pm ferry to Tekong. I asked him if it is really urgent because i know that Bernard will be making a hell lot of noise if I don't come on time and etc. btw I don't like him. so john asked me to stay and wait for the shop to open and the next ferry is at 1700hrs, which is 5pm. so I said ok and head back home for rest and step out of house at 3 just to rent the VCD.

as soon as I got the VCD, I headed to the ferry terminal, the queue was short but the wait was long. half and hour more to the departure of ferry, the weather is hot too and it made the whole waiting area like oven! UH!!!!!!!!! as the clock slowly ticks, I see many of the people I know came.

when I reach Tekong, I was honestly a little lost because I don't know where is HQ at so I just blindly walk with the crowd. haha... even just by following crowd, it leads me to where my HQ is! so I just put my packs down and I see most of them sleeping and I wonder what have they done the night before but from what I estimate, they have done nothing much, just taking afternoon nap. I have to idol for very long before the happy hour starts and I just have freaking no idea why am I here so early. when dinner came, which is happy hour, well, I can say this is the best happy hour and yet the worst field camp that that i have ever attended. the recruits got to have a taste of happy hour too. 1 even had BBQ, like no govt and no law man! I wonder if anyone bought pork over that night so that he can get freak out.

so after the happy hour is movie marathon, watch hitch and mr deeds, it was real funny but we were like watching it on the wrong place. haha... all the recruits from tekong can see us watching movie! sound so funny lor.... so the next day i am suppose to go for recce with the conducting officer for the 24km route march which is at ECP. sian... I go tekong not even 24 hours.

So next day came and I showed that kinda hack care attitude again, haha, because I really cant be bothered with this so called BMT field camp. left with the recce group at about 12 to ECP to look for a good 24km distance to walk. the journey was long and boring and I took a short nap without anyone noticing it.

after the recce, well, we took a break, we landed up at ECP Mac and had lunch there. hahaha... that was the best meal that i ever had because I don't get a chance to wear army uniform and eat over there in office hours... after that we headed back to camp to rest and prepare all the paper work that needs to be done.

16km route march

16km route march was so shitty and a piece of hell for me last night. it was supposed to be some chicken feet thing for me but as i long as i walk, the pain from my bladder came. i have no freaking idea why is it hurting, this is my very first time that i felt pain in my bladder area and i was kinda worried that the pain will end my father's day. the pain started from the 4th km till 8th km, the pain was still bearable.

there was a rest point at the 8th km mark and we rested like 15 minutes. i thought that after some rest, i still can walk even though blisters starts coming out from my feet as i have not walk that distance for so long, but i still can walk, just that the pain is what i cant take it.

when its time for us to talk again, i thought that it's gonna be fine and i start walking. less than 100m from where i left, the pain came again and thus causing me to slow down a lot. i was way behind the main troops but i tried hard to catch up. but still i failed.

at the 12km rest point, the pain was unbearable, i drop everything behind my back and pop a cigarette and started smoking. as i smoke, i rested. i left my pack behind and just continue to walk to the end line with 2 of my staff sergeant. they were walking by my side encouraging me and talking crap with me to boost morale.

as i am reaching the finishing line, i started to slow down again and this time it's even more slower! i took my time to finish the walk and i felt very hot, as if there is some energy passing through my body is about to explode and shatter me into pieces.

it took me a while before i did my warm down, had my night snack and return back to my bunk for shower and sleep. have not fall asleep so fast for a very long time already.

===== next day =====

when my alarm clock rang at 7am, i had problem waking up, it took me 20 minutes to open my eyes and sit up right. i felt feverish and weak and both knees are weak. sigh... i wonder if this will happen again. i hope it wont happen anymore....

this feeling sucks to the core!

Army Open House 2007

it's been a 3 weeks since i last update my blog again. starting from 20th august, i have been specially requested (not being arrowed because my previous boss ask if i am OK to help him out with it.) to help out in the army open house as an ammunition in charge. i agreed without hesitating as he have help me a lot and though there are many rehearsal dates that have made my day boring, i didn't made any complaints because i agreed to help him out.

it was really tiring for practically everyone of us because all of us were so tired with these rehearsal. from dusk till dawn, non stop changing of plans to make the show better. there i made new friends from other units and we had a lot of chatting and fun to kill time during the wait.

me and my partner were supposed to take turns to walk around the open house to look look see see but end up, i walk around for a day and my partner didn't get to. i felt so sorry and don't know to feel guilty or not as i ask my partner to go walk walk, he only walk a little and didn't get much chance to collect badges, whereas i have 5 of them.

i read up 2 books to till time there, "laugh and get rich in any business" and "Murphy's law" these 2 books killed a lot of my boring time. have yet to finish the books as i need time to digest the precious information into my brain.

for all the rehearsal dates, we have been doing the same thing and we starts to get excited on the first day of Army Open House. we can't explain why also... maybe we are counting down in our heart because we are so that tired and restless.

i still remembered that i took a light strike vehicle to cook house for lunch. the was best ride that i ever had because i have never took a light strike before and it felt so cool to be on that vehicle. i wish i can get to see the light strike vehicle driver again as we seems to be able to click. hmmmm.....

on the last day of Army Open House, our meals was KFC for lunch and Mac for dinner instead of SFI cook house. well, its though fattening, but i sure enjoy it because i need lots of energy to carry those heavy ammunition. everyday carry like that, my hands gets tired and my belly starts growing. sigh, need to lose lots of weight man!!! we all parted on our last day, remembering all the good times that we have spent in the training shed; talking cock, singing song, eating and having fun together.

these has be a good experience for me and i will always remember them by name and face. no matter where i am, what i do, distance apart from us, we will always keep in contact.