New again!

Caleb invited me to his church to see him perform. i thought that it will be just a normal singing performance but somehow, the performance made me felt something that i have lost 7 years ago, that was attending church! the feeling for me was wonderful but i'm not sure how will the others feel.

i felt an urge to go back to God, that was how i felt in the middle of the performance. what i can said was that the love of God was more powerful than any other love that could be found on earth as it is in heaven.

as the performance ended, i took some actions, i sms faith to ask her to bring me to church. she simply replied me that she has stop going because of personal reason. :( but she will ask her sister to bring me to church. :)

the next day, we met at expo mrt station. there are so many people! they even have usher along the road side. there were so many people making their way to church! and as i walk into the entrance of the church, i felt like i was walking into a concert hall! but in fact it was a concert hall and it doesn't look like church.

tears were so uncontrollable for me that it just kept flowing down during worship time. i have always though that i am able to control my emotions but i was very wrong this time. it just flowing down. i couldn't control it at all. no idea why... before the service ended, i respond to the call, i saw pastor aries, he was my cell group leader 7 years ago when i was in church. by than he was addressed brother aries, now pastor aries. he was very shock to see me and could see that he felt very happy for me. we exchange contacts when the service ended.

attending church was that fun and good. can't wait to attend church service every sat now. :)

Attached to a new place doing the same old thing

i was attached out to mandai hill camp since Monday... camp was far inside mandai area... its near the zoo some more... lagi sian... deep into woodlands area... i was going back to where i came from last time... i was attached to SAF Shooting Contingent... my boss told me that i will be attached to become safety specialist, end up i was being the ammo in charge... sian half already by than... doing everything all over again... just that i have no idea what is their practice like.

second day was starting to get boring already... and i wonder how to past my time for another 1 month... just 2 days and it is already killing me. sigh... i had problems with the times over there as it is very slow... i'm not use to having my time past so slowly...

i have tried bringing books to the live firing area to read and i got disturbed very easily by the things around me., especially the monkeys... they will come and touch your stuff because they are just looking for food. my soya bean was taken away by those irritating monkeys. they were really disgusting!! they actually suck the soya bean up from the floor that is so dirty. oh goodness... cant take it man... and they seems to enjoy it so much!! goodness...

i was feeling "walao, why am i so careless? i lost my breakfast to a monkey!" thank goodness that its just a pack of soya bean... i wonder what i will do if it is my breakfast!

transport is killing me hard! i predict that my this month transport fees will be around $70 to $100. hai~ heart pain ah...

A thing to look forward to now...

today i was suppose to meet caleb (a guy i knew during common phase of my platoon sergeant course) for breakfast but it never happen... why?? because early in the morning it was raining and i was wondering why am i so lazy this morning and wonder why am i still in bed... the alarm rang from 0630 hrs all the way till 0700 hrs and i just couldnt wake up. i only manage to wake up at 0715 hrs. 5 more minutes to call in and i just sprang out of my bed, change into my number 4 and i was down in less than 5 mins... i even slowly walk to toilet to release myself first, and that took up another minute.

down at first parade, we, or rather most of us, have to attend the so call IPSC thing... just kept wondering if it is good for me to attend it or not. the good thing is, its a so called refreshment to me and also an update. the bad thing, waste time... so i sat there and listen...

i met caleb during lunch time as a make up for what i have missed in the morning. we can sit in the cook house from 1230 hrs to 1315 hrs just talking and joking. we seems to have endless topic... after lunch, i have to go back for IPSC part 2... where i was taught on how to use hand cuffs... majiam i never use before... but there were some things about hand cuffs i have never heard before... sorry, cant say here... too bad... ask a police officer to cuff you and i will tell you what are the special thing that i am talking about.

so after lesson, i just idol around again, walk here and there... doing nothing and photocopy papers and basically that's my job. around 1500 hrs, my beloved john break the news... i am on duty on the 15th morning till 16th morning 0800 hrs but i have to leave camp at 0300 hrs in the early morning on the 16th just to go to pasir laba ammo dump to collect ammo.. i wonder why so early... hate to rush and wait and wait to rush...

so somehow no need to go for field camp but also got a lot of shit to clear... so the sad... have to help them in this ad that... hai~

so dinner time i met caleb again. this time we chatted from 1800 hrs to 2200 hrs... cannot imagine that we can really chat that long...

anyway we chatted regarding a trip to batam... now its the thing that i am looking forward to...

Energy + Motion = Emotion

lately i seems to be able to control my emotions over the unhappy side. i don't seems to get angry or sad so easily as before... was it the lessons i have learn from the past or books that i have been reading on?

i just still cant control my happy emotions yet. still learning and practicing how to control it. so in any cases, when i'm angry or sad or fustrated or whatever bad moods i have, i just have to calm myself down because i can't think when these bad moods are running around my mind. i am not going to let my emotions push me around anymore... i'm making way for my pride, confidence and professionalism take full control of my mind, to make things happen.

serlin have declared that we stayed as friends because she wanted to focus on her studies and business. it was quite a sad thing for me to see as we sms, i even tested water and she really showed me how much she wanted to stay single. so i just have 2 options, "KIV" or "New one."

lately i attended my friend's ROM, she was a year older than me and we knew each other like since i was 15 or 16, together with my buddy, we were all working neighbours. days like christmas or chinese new year, we will often come out for gathering and catch-up. time really fly fast as she is now officially married. next year end will be their customary wedding dinners. hope it will stick to their plans... when they were announced "man and wife", deep in me, i wonder when will my turn come...

now only leaving me, shaq and desmond. i had a $50 bet with shaq that desmond will be next as i am still single, shaq is single but unavailable and desmond is attached. hope he will be the next one... and also, i have to think where should i have my ROM and customary dinner be held! i want it grand! =)

i have been reading rich dad poor dad lately and yes, i understand that doing business is not an easy thing but nonetheless, i'm still giving it a shot. i don't wanna waste my life working, just like a hamster running in the cage. now i officially say, i have a new hobby of READING!!!

sometimes i just wonder why people hate reading when you're reading something that will help you, regardless of helping you grow rich or look better or whatever that is good. reading no good meh? "its actually what you read" is what i will say to a person that hates reading. those who hate reading should give a try... can ask me what books to read... =)