C.H.I.N.A.

CHINA = Chinese Held In North Asia ????

"you know ah, the china people all very cunning one leh, be very careful hor?"
"china people are so dirty!"
"these china kia just like to talk so loud even when they are so close to one another."

these are the common few things that we will be complaining about china people, sometimes i do complain about them too but what to do? they sometimes really behave like what singaporeans complain about them...

and i'll be away from 19th Dec and 27th Dec to china to see relatives and also to relax myself. =)

i'm missing Christmas this year!!! But thank Got i am back for the last 2008 Dec service.

Ivan is sending me off tomorrow and he's coming at 0930hrs to pick me up. i cant wait for tomorrow... finally a very own vacation! and a break from my SAF... woooOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shall come back with more updates !!!

to my brothers and sisters in Christ, please help to manage the cell group well. i'm letting go of my "title" because i am going to groom you guys up! i'm not gonna spoon feed you guys anymore... so get ready to face the challenges ahead! =)

Advance Merry Christmas to all my beloved readers and friends.

Love you guys!! 2009 will be a better one than 2008!!!

Experience VS Passion

What is it like to work outside? What are bosses actually looking for? certificate OR experience OR passion OR what?

i've quitted working in indulgz bistro after getting familiarized with the working hour... the working hour is so unfriendly to me. i got no time for church, family and friends! and that have not include my BGR yet! so i have decided to give F&B a miss as my second career. i'm like more used to office hours job... definately i can't take night job because it totally defeat the purpose because i still cant meet my friends, spend time with church friends and family! i'm giving all these good things a miss. Bottomline:

NO family = NO career!

what's the point when i have the best but no one to share with? i will rather be working with low appointment, at least i can share my joy with my family and friends! =)

You can never finish earning the world's money.

life is something like this:

you are at a valley and you needs to get across to the other side, the only way is to cross through using the broken down bridge that is before you. how will you cross the bridge? if you trip, you'll fall! and when you fall, it will take a lot of time and effort to pick yourself up again to go into another step, or even worse, stablise yourself and gain back your balance. would you:

just walk blindly?
look and go?
look, feel if it is strong to hold you, then go?

i have chose the 3rd option.
look for a job
get some experience how it is like
good or bad?
good = continue, no good = give that a miss.

so my next step will be working in a
1) bookstore, since i like reading and i am good in my logistic skill and housekeeping, or
2) sembawang music store retail assistance.

and i will be persueing a diploma in logistics. and i don't know what's next in line...

God, i know and i know, that you are working something in my life. Please unfold the blessings that you have for me, show me signs and wonders that how long it will take to unfold the blessings. as i build Your house, i know You, God, will build my life well too, and i alo know that, it will either be 30 times, 60 times or even 100 times better then what i have built yours, and you will bless me for whatever i do, that is righteous to you. =)

when things don't go your way...

things should be going well for me but instead, it was the other way round. it seems like i am on the wrong side of the road, facing the on-coming traffic... nothing went well! don't understand why is this happening too...am i facing stress??

Family, Church, Finances, Career, Time management, Health and Discipline. it has all turned bad. nothing good is coming out of me. I get tired easily, i lost my patience, i messed up my time, i lost my discipline, i felt that i am in a poverty situation now.

i don't know what is going through me, but sure i am restless in me.

i somehow realized that i cant keep up the pace of the kitchen and i also come to a conclusion that, interest really cannot be taken as a rice bowl. people have been saying it to me but i have put it on a deaf ear and i still say i can do it. time has proven, i can't.

i don't know what is happening... but i pray that the U turn point is near... i'm going through something that i have never experience before...

maybe because the worry of money... =(

Asia Conference

From 19th to 23th November, City Harvest Church conducted a conference that is touching Asia and transforming the world. There were 10 solid sessions with many powerful and effective electives that is there for us to choose and learn from.

If i have a choice, i will attend all the electives but everyone can only sign up to a maximum of 6 electives. out of the 6 electives, 1 was canceled because during the lunch session with Christin Pringle, the session was about miscarriage. Though i couldn't hear the message clearly due to the echoing of the speakers, i somehow manage to capture what she was trying to tell us. its about woman that had miscarriage before and that's all i know.

it took up a little longer than usual, and some woman were weeping for some reasons that i cannot hear why they stood up. so pastor kong decided to cancelled the 5th elective and commence the 6th elective at 3pm instead of 3.45pm.

so out of the 5 elective i have attended, i'm gonna put them into good use of it and letting all of them manifest to it's 100% in my life. the electives i went to are:
+ Helping someone break an addiction (Director CityCare, Victor Lim Fei)
+ Cell Group Leadership (Pastor Derek Dunn)
+ Dynamics of a contemporary worship band (Pastor Sidney Mohede)
+ Men's Ministry (Greg French, Realman founder)
http://www.ccc.org.au/default.asp?page=CGrealmen
+ Building a healthy self image (Pastor Tan Ye Peng)

i was tremendously blessed emotionally, the Holy fire burns bigger and brighter for now and i am going to get the fire burning non-stop and burn bigger.

Asia conference is surely indeed a very life changing experience for me and i just can't stop saying that i was so blessed by the message because i was empowered to perform more things for Jesus Christ! i'm so excited!!!

Asia Conference 2010, i'm waiting for you...

Blessings from me to you and to everyone

On 7th NOV 2008, my logistic officer told me that i will be getting an award, so in my mind was thinking this "you sure not, or you just suan siao me and wanna award me with how many days of off?" but i was very wrong. he told me that i will be receiving the "BEST SUGGESTER AWARD for WY 08/09" and i was so shock to hear it. in my mind i was thinking "what have i done to deserve such awards???" initially i though that i only got plague only, and i was happy about it because i can add it into my resume. hehe

so the ceremony was about safety and pride day. and i wasn't aware of it at all... i just blindly go and collect my price...

i made my way to the MPH as i have to be there by 1300hrs and i sat there and waited... and it happen that my 12th mono HQ CSM was there and he disturb me because he was shock to see my name there. i was surprised to hear that i will also be receiving a $75 worth of food vouchers. and in that state of time, i thank God for this blessing. at least i hungry got voucher to use and get filled. hahaha

than my turn to go up to the stage and collect the price... it was my first time collecting such prices... and i wish to have that photo... and i really wants it badly because it is the only time i got something from army... anyway, when i open up the vouchers, it was $75 KFC vouchers meal! i was shock to see that! and there were so many $5 vouchers inside!!! in my mind i was thinking how should i use this vouchers... i even think of giving these vouchers to the orphans in the orphanage but it was just a thought. i kept it, but i used it wisely...

on Monday, Benjamin Chan met me because he requested me to accompany him to sell his guitar away for building funds, so i followed him and he was very sad because he bought his guitar for $200 odds and is fetching a price of $70. thank God that he didn't sell it to the shop because it will be wasted. so he being so sad, i treated him the KFC meal... he rejected time and again because he kept telling me that "KFC is only for people with depressions!" so i insisted him to eat KFC and will even treat him, and it took him a long time to say "OK" to dine at KFC with me.

Shortly after that i told him why i insisted to treat him eat KFC, so i took out the vouchers and showed it to him. he flipped! and he never saw so many vouchers in his life, and he nearly fall off his chair when he heard how much i got. he even took photographs about it and was so happy. so we said grace and dine together happily at KFC.

that same night, i tried to help him sell off his guitar in my "who lives near you" account. and i was shock to hear that he manage to sold off his guitar! it was like less than 6 hours and he manage to sell it off, and to a price that he wish for!

deep in my heart i know that "God is doing something great in our life as we sacrifice for Him and surely He will not short change us!" i don't know how many readers out there will believe this real thing that happened. things do not happen by chance or by coincidence, but it was all nicely arranged by God to test us and mold us. He allow us to go through trails because we will become stronger in mind. =)

and now he seems so eager to dine KFC with me... hahaha

look him up in my friends list as he shows the whole world my stunt and retard face... and with all the $75 vouchers @ Benjamin Chan!

14 days later

so fast and 14 days have passed. i sometimes wonder if it is because i am going to ORD and so time fly super fast. or not was it the things i did that doesn't allow me to take a rest?

this 14 days i have done so many things! i started a part time job at bugis as a trainee chef. woot! i get to learn how to prepare dishes. hope this coming fri and sat will not be so jam pack as i still got so many things not learned yet. hee... i'm working in a restaurant in bugis, SMS me if you wanna know where i am at.

good things happening to me non-stop, things like:
my USMS ideas are awarded, though amount very small, still i got money from army!
data entry job confirm more jobs for me way before their event ended.
part time chef got more working opportunity

with a Almighty God I serve and worship, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!!!

I'm glad that i found this God that i worship because He open doors for me. though small, yet i'm grateful with the little things he has done to me and for me.

many more doors i believe it will open and be opened for me... (i sounded a little like Ali ba ba)

suddenly i have an urge for a merge... i didn't know why is this happening... don't ask me why but it just came... and i'm looking for a date still... hahaha

red wine, appreciation in progress... =) woot!

and my computer break down! and i am so bored at home. waiting TV and can't do anything productive. sad... how i wish i can find the right tools to repair my computer ASAP.

1 week of hard work and, goodness...

I have been working hard like mad dog... working non stop, at work and home. every time when i hit my room, i hit the computer. it was like a need to it, like i need to use the computer and it became a habit. i think God was real angry with me, why? because i didn't spend much time with Him or rather anytime with Him AT ALL!!! i kept saying "Oh God, i'm tired, i promise i will pray tomorrow" but to my horror, the tomorrow never came. until Sunday after service, i head home. as usual, i switch on my computer but i couldn't use my computer because an important was missing!

i was like "God why this happen at this time? i have not backup my stuff!!!" than i was prompted that i broke all the promises that i made, you need to spend time reading the Word and praying and doing the things that you have visualised! down in my heart, i was sinful. i repented on the spot. to me, i felt that the Lord tested my determination. my choice was to fix my computer myself? or seek Him first? definately i seek Him first.

Finally today, i read his Word, prayed for my brother, Derek, as he sits for his 'O' level exam today at 1430hrs today. later on in the late evening, i finally pick up my running gears and change to it and went for a 4.8km run by myself. i wasnt really me to do such things but because i signed up the StandChart Run in dec, i got to train real hard! 42.159km!!!

i drafted out a to do list, now it was stuck in my computer because it crashed. now i got to force myself to remember what is my to do list, so that it will be drilled down into my head and be remembered off hand. i also have a list of things to read... books that i have bought have yet to be touched.

Patrick Aaron Seng!!! you have been PROCRASTINATING over a long time!!! Give up procrastinating and get a life, FREAK!!!

MAKE THINGS HAPPEN! That's what the specialist core have taught you! Disgrace to the core! Why do you have problem overcoming it? Because you are just darn lazy!

You need to kick this HABIT of yours to be a stronger and better person. Kick the procrastinating habit before you got kick in your butt.

8 days of activity...

Waoh! these 8 days of activities were sure fun, but at times boring. =(

Day 1,
Friday, the day of extraction of my tooth.

Day 2,
Saturday cell group meeting. the Word was good! didn't sang out with all my heart. kinda sad to say that. didn't do anything much on sat. =)

Day 3,
Sunday service at Jurong West. I sang my heart out to the Lord despite the little stiffness i had at my jaw area. as i sing out with my heart, i actually feel my gums vibrating. oooo... and when during worship, i spoke to the Lord that it will be good that i can open up my mouth to sing praises to you and healing will take place as i sing praises to you and worship you. miraculously, my the grace of God, i was receiving the healing power straight from Heaven! Waoh and amazingly! Sad to say, i got a minor cut in my tongue, so i can't take spicy food because the sweetest chili is killing me. it was like rubbing salt on wound.

Day 4 to 8,
Monday i went back to camp to endorse my medical cert. slept till like 10 before i dilly dally and wash up and head back to camp. mouth was still a little hurtful, can feel the "lobang" in it. I waited till dinner time because i don't wanna spend a cent eating out. hahaha. So Tuesday i was at home all the way till Friday, never go out for very long, except for a few nights where i went over to listen to some interesting presentation, and got myself some complimentary gift. hmmm... blessings after blessings! wonderful! Praise the Lord!

I have been leeching out sermons from festival of praise day 1 sermon. through the audio, i have been hearing and hearing and extracting the word and painting up the whole sermon word by word because personally i think that hearing is not enough, we need to constantly see it so that it will be driven down into our hearts. i finally complete it on Friday, was so excited about it. 95% of what Pastor Mark Conner was in the notes. through the extracting out of the words, i somehow have remembered the 4 points deeply into my heart. i pray that these 4 points will always be with me wherever i go and to teach those who needs them as well. =)

On and off, i have been looking for part time job, and i was thinking about my full marathon as well. have not trained since the day i said i wanted to train. so I'm thinking of getting a part time flyer distributor, running around in blocks, putting them door to door or from letterbox to letterbox, as to train my stamina from climbing non-stop, need to sweat a lot out just to keep fit! =) sometimes i think I'm overdoing it but i have been procrastinating for too long. =(

MC has ended just like that. so the sad...

So as my week goes on, Sat attended cell group meeting again. message was really great! God is indeed my provider! He really provides me with all my needs when i pass the test that He tests on me. Praise the Lord! Even though God did not provide my needs, i am still going to believe Him. As Christians, we must have the faith of what the Hebrew’s children have!

It is stated somewhere from the Bible, but i don't know where; that they were facing the fiery furnace and they said this;

“God is ABLE to deliver us from the fire, He WILL deliver us from the fire, but even if not, we’re still going to trust Him.”

That’s what i call great faith!

So after cell group, had Bible study with Joseph and Pei fen was teaching the word of God to us about the spiritual gift. after that, was suppose to meet Jason Chong, Alan, Diana and Valerie to celebrate Ben's 18Th birthday but was cancelled because he gotta stay home. =( so i went dinner with Joseph and have a little chat as we had our dinner, following that, i headed home.

Sunday service. God i can't wait! i feel something impactful for me. i don't know what was it, but I'm waiting with a heart of expecting the unexpected. =)

8 day unofficial off... because of wisdom tooth...

so does that means to say that people who extract wisdom tooth during NS days is to get off? or because extraction is free? hmmmm....

24th Sept, i had my blood test done at national health board (NHB). guess what? i didn't bring my form. and so i got to make my way to national dental center (NDC) to get a new form. back at health board's lab room, the fear of needles came because my medic did a bad injection of needles on me and i was a little afraid. had 3 in a row withdrawal of blood for blood test by them but it was a horror to me, because they kept missing the veins and my head was on fire by the second needle. navigation's took place as the needle went it. vomit blood!

today, 3rd October, my appointment to remove my wisdom tooth at 0915hrs. was very calm. was asked to change and wait for like 2 hrs? the wait was painful because i want it out soon. =(

so when the doctor inject a needle in me, i look at my hands as she applies the anaesthetic on me. when she pierce, thankfully it was a bull's eye and i didn't feel any pain. shortly i was ask to go into the operating room. the temperature was cold, 20.7 deg Celsius! and i am feeling my pores are crying out loud, cold!!!so they let me smell this oxygen, that smells more like wasabi, and they injected this dunno what drug into me, i was put to sleep.

before the operation starts off, i was being briefed on the things that will be happening. thank God that I'm not awake and know what has happened. because it is just too scary to see.

they injected this drug in my vein, i felt burning sensation on my hard. suddenly i just knock out like that, evey when i tried to stay awake! so when i was in deep sleep, they insert a breathing tube into my right nostril, all the way down to my windpipe. and i was told to expect some dry blood in my nose! the operation was very smooth, they manage to pluck out 2 teeth perfectly and the other one so sad to see it being smashed up while trying to extract it. it was very disgusting! dare not to see it. but i will be washing it soon. because i wanna keep. hahaha

when i woke up, i couldn't talk when i first awake. my throat was really dry and i was served with a glass of grapes juice. it was like so refreshing when i sip in like 5ml? i couldn't feel my lips back than, when my lips came in contact with the plastic cup i touched. my tongue was still not back in good conditions yet. so when the water touches my tongue, it was tasteless. but i used it to wet my throat, it was so dried up. a clear cough and I'm speaking with confidence again! haha!!

Xiang was there to pick me up. was really glad that he came to see me home. worst still i didn't had enough in my bank, and he paid the payable amount for me. i was really thankful by his actions. I'm wondering what lunch is appropriate to treat him as a form of appreciation.

took a cab home, and he came up to my house. saw my dog but my dog couldn't recognise him and kept barking at him, till he smelled his hands. he saw the rabbit that ranger ask me to safe keep for him for dunno how long. well, at least at home now got 2 whitie, very nice to play around but it seems like the rabbit is afraid of the dog. we'll see how things goes about.

anyway, my dog cried because he couldnt play ith rabbit. haha!

phase 3 and onwards!

phase 1 and 2 is finally over. i'm in the midst of phase 3 now. phase 4 seems to be broken hopes! SADDNESS!!! phase 5 will come in time. i just got to wait. hehee.....

the day of audit have finally ended, my boss is really happy with me. immediately after the audit, my boss gathered everyone in the department, thank us and congratulate us! and he said that we deserve 2 good 2 days OFF. it was way before the results were out. days later, the unofficial result was out. it was 97.11%! it hit a new record for my unit. at least i created history!! hehe!!! i made it!! Praise the Lord!

shortly after the audit, i really had a short good rest in my bunk. i slept like dead log! it was really refreshing that i do not need to wake up, rushing down to work again, fearing this and that is not completed on time and all. that feeling was so hard to describe it out, the feeling of freedom from a burden!

i'm left with the the checking of documents and settling of the old debts that my upper study have left me. and i'm done with all things! i'm left with less than 40 working days. really need to start clearing up my room, starts to bring things home soon! man i cant wait to get all the things done over with it!

i'm so in need of a part time job now, but i just can't find one... i can't be rotting at home when clearing leave. its not just me to sit and do nothing! man... the fear of losing income in tremendously great! so is the pressure... how scary. a very big pay cut, a big worried that i face. i don't know what is my life going to be like from Jan to Mar... i see that the bills' interest are all killing me alive.

since friday, i was greatly troubled over my area of finances... a rough estimation of 9.6k of debts to clear, and that excludes my SHATEC school fees. really really stressed over it. thank God for a pool of friends that were around me, cheering me up, despite i kept saying i'm not troubled but worried. i was thinking, isnt it the same meaning? Bible verses starts to flood me. things like "Why so down cast O my soul?" and "Seek and you shall find, Ask and you shall receive." things related to all these subjects starts to make me remember them. i soon manage to overcome the distraction in my life. though its a big issue, i still manage to cheer up. thanks to those who have been by my side during my down casted time...

i realised that i hardly get sad or angry nowadays after i have Jesus in my life. Thank you Jesus! my temper was never at peace till i found You! you calm my hot boiling temper! you cool the hot water in me so that the anger will not stirs up again. Thank you Lord!

for the rest of my life, i'm following You.
not because i have to, but because i want to.
not because it's a must, but it's a choice.
not because i follow the crowd, but i follow the commandments.
not because it's just another religion, but it's a relationship with God, the Abba Father.

Father in Heaven,

See our needs, our good and righteous desire in our heart.
Fill us when we're thirst for it,
Flare the fire up that is in us.
Weapons against us never wins,
Open doors for us!
when one is closed for us, another will be open unto us.
We believe in You Father, for the blessings ahead of us!
In Jesus name we pray, Amen!

Freedom is nearing

Phase 1 has passed. it was a big "phew" thing to me! i was so under pressure till the documents were hand in at the end of first week. now the battle of phase 2, Sunday got to return back to camp to prepare all the places are done up properly. suddenly i feel that time is clicking so slow when you want it fast and so fast when you want it slow.

i can't wait for phase 3 to end too. i hope that phase 2 and 3 will end together in this coming week. maybe very unlikely i can complete phase 3 this coming week because there are too many documents to vet through, but still i hope that it will be done this week. looking through numbers... of goodness... will my maths improve after that? maybe since my maths is always on average. haha! but looking through these number is sure painful! hopefully i don't have to deal too much with these numbers ever again.

like many always say "Patience is a virtue", for now i can do nothing but wait. taming my patience is really a big challenge. how should i do it? slow and steady, and enjoy the challenge and get myself maxed out? or is there another better way of taming patience? is it within my control or out of my control? why is waiting so painful? why is my freedom coming so slowly?

Happiness is how we create!

Finally, the day of submitting the documents is here and over! i felt so light all of a sudden, i felt like i weigh as light as a feather! i couldn't express the joy i had by words... it was really a day that i have been looking forward to badly. the relief that i saw! this is just phase 1 of joy!

phase 2, the groundwork. it is going to be taxing for me as i have to run around the places to ensure that things are done up properly, and by Friday all must be done! i have nothing to fear because i have done my best, but i believe that God will do the rest for me! Amen!

phase 3, after my audit, i will be rushing off all other admin work that i have not yet done. i will be missing for a few days, or maybe weeks just to destress. will "nua" in bunk for a while.

phase 4, more working time with cafe. i can't wait to step into kitchen!! i can't wait to create new dish!! i can't wait for more pocket money too! got to save up for my SHATEC!

phase 5, ORD on 31st December and get engaged into SHATEC!!! and i also can't wait to have a date by than. =(

i have plan this route, i pray that God will help me through these time. counting down to 10th sept, last day of audit!

Its war time again!

Lately i have been so busy preparing for audit. the monthly maintenance is sure a tough thing for me to monitor as certain things requires very close monitoring. but some things that my colleagues are not working and end up i have to do all these shit. audit now is a game of how ready are you for war. are you doing your daily job and all?

WHATEVER to whatever he says! i hate going out with you as of now! man!!! you're a turn off! i can't understand why you always behave this way. thinking that you're always right and not being humble enough despite being soft to you. are you taking advantage of friends? if that's the case, i will choose to end this friendship, to end your pain and angry every time when you ask me out.
can't take anymore of your bullshit! sickening feeling i feel down my spine!

from the last time i blog till today, things were doing great! God have indeed blessed me with so many things! i'll glad and happy but i am ashame that i did not pray much. i have to stand firm and pray as often as i can!

sigh~! i can't wait to get a date! i can't wait to get her into my arms! she's hanging in mid-air in my heart, somethings troubled over her because of the situation that i am in. depressed and confused!

Working with Blessings

I was so blessed for the past one month. But I'm so sorry that i couldn't spend time posting up my blogs... Before that i was taking things slowly... but somehow, the days were clicking so fast that i didn't even notice that it has past so many days! i seems to be at "la la land" and i didn't realise it.

i have been idoling and working on my safety project again. Thank God that this time i know what to look out for and know what to do. it was touch the other round but this time it is gonna be easy!!!

I had my sensitive wisdom tooth extracted. Thank God that it didn't hurt much, but the after effect was terrible! i couldn't eat properly for few days. every food that is entering into my mouth needs to be sucked in. i gotta eat wet food, dry food is very hard for me to swallow because i didn't chew my food. =(

I had my most important day on 20th July 2008. I was water baptised on that Sunday morning at City Harvest Church baptism pool! that was the most happiest moment in my life. Myself with 3 other sister took part in this baptism. After we finish the baptism, there was a small celebration. there was candle for us, to be the Light of the world! there was salt for us to eat, to be the Salt of the world! there was apple for us to eat, because we are apple of the eye in the sight of the Lord! i have not post them into friendster yet. i can't find time. =(

Ranger has shifted house to pasir ris!!! yeah!!! can ask him out during weekend. hahaha

What a month! so fun!!!

Fellowship times are precious

for the past few days, my work seems to be so light!!! it seems like i have nothing much to do now. i am now so free that i have to think of what else have i not done yet... and i can't find anything to do... all the outstanding things left for me requires waiting from other parties... i suddenly felt so bless that i can "eat snake" openly at work! HAHAHA!!!

i can't believe that i went to the art house to appreciate art! it was a "WAOH" thing for me as i never been there before... it was an eye opener for me that very night... though it was a little weird that the pictures seem to have no meaning, but the longer i stared at it, the meaning starts popping out slowly... it does not happens in a split seconds... i happens in a few minutes time...i think those spot lights were too bright that it hurt my eyes so much that i didn't look long at those pics... it was an interesting trip as i got to learn how to fold a paper box that i have always wanted to learn! so fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the next day, Saturday, was fellowship at Tampines Mall seoul garden! i was suppose to go for swim but i failed to!!! i couldn't wake up on time and continued to sleep... luckily Alan called me and his call woke me up, if not i would still be sleeping still... jumped off my bed and sprang off to the bath room to washed up... met them at TM mac and i thought that i was late... but thank God that i was on time...

we went to seoul garden and ate... i thought that i cannot eat a lot because i have not been eating much lately. but to my surprise, i ate like nobody business... i just kept eating and eating and it was a non-stop action. but before i started eating, i was complaining that the meat are all so oily and i thinking of doing something stupid. dipping them into the soup before i ate them but think of it again, i might as well don't eat here... so i ate like i have a bottomless stomach! so much so that i felt full after a very long time, which was like near to 2 hours... i than felt full!

i always have to visit the gents every time after seoul garden... but this time round i was shock that i didn't. hahaha.... at 1515hrs, we all rushed off to expo hall 1 for mass bible study class. we thought that we will be late but to our surprise, we were on time... the lesson were suppose to start punctually on time at 1530hrs but we reach there at 1535hrs... God was indeed timely! after bible study, we had a short pre-service prayer meeting and it was followed with a good word!

what a good week! i want every week to be like that!!!! :P

it just gets better...

i can't believe the craziest thing in the world... every hiccup that came upon my life was taken away AFTER my prayers... Woah! can't believe it... i just felt better and better unknowingly. Peace was with me! financial prosperity wasn't that much because i don't know how to ask for it. of all things i know how to ask but not in terms of financial... i was funny... i can pray well for everything but not in financial.

this whole week, i can feel that my work load have been lifted up so badly that i find myself lost during working hours... suddenly a lost of direction because i have finish most and in fact all my job. i couldn't believe it. i think my official working hours are like 4 hrs plus only because i act fast in work.

saturday matthew, my first platoon commander, treated us dinner at NYDC bugis. he's back from oversea only for 2 weeks and its my honor to have diner with him and we had a great time catching up. he's left with 1 1/2 year more to graduation. hope he will do well in his scholarship. he rear a golden retriever which i love most among dogs. i can't wait to have one myself! was surprise to know that there's a lack of chefs and cooks over there... the pay was like 30 euro per hour of work! but there is a problem, the people there are racist! hmmm.... i believe by fasting and prayers, things will work out well in the name of the Lord!

i was bumped with an business opportunity again today and the speaker found my needs... the speaker offered me this plan and i am now in the midst of thinking if i should give a try or not. very confused now... every time i get confused, i will sleep. reason behind it is because your mind is overloaded and you need to calm your mind and let it rest before you can take anymore information. stress is not part of our life at all... but we humans created it! crazy us!

crazily more in love with the creator of the universe for He can provide every thing that i am in need and shortage of. He provides me all things in my difficult times... i trust in Him! my Lord and Saviour!

RE: The upside down week

Dear God,

i thank You for the powerful wisdom and strength that You have blessed me with. i am now able to withstand more stress and workload. i am indeed a stronger person now. thank You Lord. i thank You again for the clear vision that You have painted in my mind. i am able to see the end result of the things that i am doing now. thank You Lord. i thank You for the gift of righteous heart that You have planted into me. i can now say out loud that I WALK ON RIGHTEOUS PATH! thank You Lord!!

But Lord, for the past 7 days, things is not going my way. i can feel the difference. it caught my eye that people are doing the wrong things all over and they show me faces, grumble and even throw temper at me when i correct them. what's wrong with these people? have i done wrong by teaching the right thing? why was it so hard for them to walk the right path? was the wrong path easier to walk? but when i walk the easier path, others will be hit by the mistakes that i made... i have been trying to make a difference in my workplace but people are detesting me because of my righteous way of work. You said in your words that "THE RIGHTEOUS STANDS FIRMLY AND WHEN HE WALKS, HE WILL NOT TUMBLE." what should i do so that they will understand that the things they do were wrong? when then they will learn? God, shed light on me and lead me well! tell me what to do so that i can bring them to light and not hide from darkness...

i have been thinking of excusing myself for not taking part in all the exercise now. should i or should i not? they took me for granted and i really sometime feel like throwing them back everything they have asked me to do. by doing this, am i being selfish?

Lord, i pray that you will enlighten me tonight and give me visions and appear in my dreams... what should i do? i am lost!

a troubled righteous kid
Patrick

Granny's death anniversary...

today is my granny's death anniversary... all of the uncles and most of my aunts and cousins were here... was glad to see them...

so i got to talk to my gu gu's son, which is my cousin on shatec... got a few good pointers from him. indeed that being a chef is really not an easy job, but it was my passion. so i won't complain much but i will face my fear and overcome it. i will overcome my hear of heat and cuts in no time. yeah!

i have to overcome the temptation of eating food with chilli, as it numbs my taste buds, and spices up the food. i have to get use of not eating chilli!!! it is a torture to me... but i benefit for the long run... i must learn to taste good food!!! endure the temptation of no chilli!!! wahh!!!!!!!!!!!

we had lunch together at dunno which restaurants as a whole family... a total of 15 pax sat down, ate and chat. we were all planning to go to "shao tou" in china, to visit my oversea ancestors!! waoh!!! never been to china before and i was excited to hear that we will be going. the trip was planned and we are all looking forward to it... though i will miss Christmas celebration in church, but i will not miss new year's celebration for sure this year! this Christmas will never be the same as before... so is new year's eve!!!

i simply cant wait for the day to come!!!

anyway, i have decided to extend my ORD date to december because i will be jobless while waiting for school to start. so might as well get more pocket money from army before i leave... hahaha

the official start of my job

after the trip to Taiwan, i have officially took over the job of transport. suddenly i felt that i was so jam up with so many things to do. i have another round of safety management system audit preparation, transport indenting and checking of paper works. these have been hard on me. that was just work. i still have personal things to do like reading the Bible!! have been lagging too much that i have to spend time catching up the chapters that i have missed. i believe that i can catch up!

from the time i had my last entry, i start to realise that i have been using a lot of my mobile phone to do callings instead of using office phones.... i have to get use to using office phones... i have to get used on not to depend on my mobile phone so much... my mobile phone bill will shoot like rocket to the sky... that's what i fear... despite that i still have my own personal usage. that seems like adding oil to fire !!!

even at the midst of all these busy time, i get to see myself able to handle more stress level in my daily life... i can imagine how busy Jesus was when He was in His ministry. the stress that people looked for him for this and that. for me, it was just a part of his busyness... he was way more busy than me. no horse run!!! i lose to him, that's why he is called God! i wanna be busy with what He is doing, and not doing what others are busy with...

June 1st to 21st is a one hour daily prayer chain... i wish i can have time to pray for that long everyday. my daily job pins me up so badly that sometimes my job ends around 8 plus 9... by than i was so shaq out already... my new officers says that i am at war everyday... so busy with transports and paperwork.

i believe that i will have more time when i seek Him and do His things first!

clicks....

Vesak day... what shitty day to eat vegetarian! rubbish excuses to eat vegetarian. yes i admit that vegetarian is tasty, but why this date? stupid reason to be eating vegetarian on this day.

it was Desmond's house warming and i was getting ready, also getting my stuff ready to book in at night but in return i forgot my charger... so instead headed home and book in tomorrow.

centre entertainment's QB house... i gave a hard time to the hair dresser because she did not cut the i had my hair cut today... feeling very fresh now because i now look fresh... finally... cut it at jurongappropriate hair style that i need. Shaq fetch me to Desmond's place after my haircut...

KFC and pizzas were waiting for us already as we were on our way to his place... we had long hours chats and playing of the new XBOX 360... graphics were very good is what i would say... it was really quality time spending with friends, catching up and having fun... after that we headed for dinner at IMM "KOPITIAM" it was a great disappointment! i had pig's organ soup... in it was like 2 to 3 slice per items and with many many salted vegetables... taste was alright, still edible... but overall, it was shitty !!! and it cost me $4 for it... goodness... inflation was so bad now... but was inflation the cause of this? i think no... because the stall care taker was from china, and they seems to be eating those customers who came late... piece of shit them... charge so ex and gave way too little... i wonder if GEMS is true at "KOPITIAM"

so after eating, we just continue to chat our way... all the way till we spilt back to our own home... while shaq my dearest buddy send me to bedok... and i took a bus home...

home suppose to be sweet, but to me, not sweet afterall... seems more like home bitter home... or home sour home... where have all the sweetness gone to ? :(

what the world!!!

"what is wrong with my mother and sister???" this question have been burning in my mind for a very very long time! they are doing funny things at all times... and the most irritating thing is, the so called "funny things" they always do, never fail to piss me off...

the friends of their own parents are behaving like this as well... why is this so? why have they been behaving so strangely? my mum have been going to temple and i think she has lost her mind! she just keep going to temple and pray after work. she will leave house at 5pm and return at around 10pm or 11pm and head to bed shortly. it might sound normal to everyone but it wasn't to me...

house chores have been abandon. leaving most of the chores to my sister, asking her to do the washing. she can even go to the extend of boiling water and forget that she is boiling water and just step out of the house just to go temple and pray, and even ask me to return back to the house to check if she off it.

ya i may sound very obedient to listen to her, but just cant stand her sillyness and lameness of going to temple and OVER-PRAY !!!!!!!!!! this have been getting on my nerves for very long... i even have shirt that needs to be washed, and for 2 weeks, the shirt have not been into water for washing. every month i have been giving enough to sustain all her stupid "donation", transport fees to temple and all.

i felt like leaving home... stay alone or with strangers also can... i was made too in-dependent! i don't even have a proper room for myself. my room is more like a store room or guest room for my sister and my mother... and it sound very stupid and crazy! my mum is sharing a queen size bed with my sister all the while, until i bought a cooler and put in my room, the next day, my mum was sleeping in my room! i was so irritated with her actions...

the urge of shifting out have been getting more and more wanting. everything i do seems wrong, she just keep nagging and nagging non-stop over the same topic for days/weeks and even up to months... explaining to my mum is like a waste of time. she thinks that being in the army sounds so cool and relax. she can even bark at me on sunday night what time i need to go back camp if not, I WILL BE PUNISHED!!!!! i have told her a thousand and one time that i must be back before 12 and she just cant get it into her head. is my chinese so poor that she can't understand? every sunday she will say the same thing, I WILL BE PUNISHED IF I AM LATE!!! WTF !!!!

why can't i really have an own room? even at times when i lock my room, they will take the keys and open up my fucking door! this is something that i cannot stand... telling her thousand and one time seems useless... must tell her one million time, nag back at her and let her taste her own medicine... my mum love to keep junks and they all keep in my room... WTF !!!

thanks for reading my complains... i don't wish to spoil the remaining of my night...

dating...

yesterday i met up with Vignes for coffee at town area... we was my secondary school mate... i thought that we have lost touch but somehow, we manage to get back together again. we met up and catch up from around 1900 till like 2030. i was thinking why did time fly so fast? or was it that we chatted a lot? we headed back home in our own way... was glad that he is on path with his desire... his dream... now its my turn, or rather, my turn is coming soon.

after meeting him, i met up with ranger... with our busy schedule, we hardly had time to meet because each have our own matters to look into... i met him after i left town and we were suppose to cut hair but the shops were all close by than when i reach yishun! sad... so instead, we ate late night supper at the nearby coffee shop and he sent me back to camp. on the way, he arrange to meet up the next day...

what were we? brothers?? friends?? love birds?? or gay buddy?? we were so close that we didn't hide secrets with one another... every time when he was troubled with something, he will share his burden with me... i have always been his light, giving him solutions or advices...

today we met up, for a feast instead of a dinner... we went to chomp chomp and we ate like nobody business! we had sugar cane juice, hokkien mee, satay bee hoon, orh jian, mutton soup, BBQ chicken wings, chilli sotongs and sting ray! in the midst of all these eating, ranger receive a lot of calls, i can see that he is quite irritated with it. i can see from his expression that he was troubled by something... which i will not disclose it here...

he played a song that i have long forgotten... Brian McKnight! 6,8,12 and back at one... i miss those songs. and also bryan adams album... and as i am typing this blog, i am listening to his songs from youtube. I R R E S I S T I B L E !!!!!!!!!!!

monday not blue!

i was on a 24 hrs duty on Sunday, mother's day... i missed having dinner with my mum, so i make up by having it with her on Monday dinner instead. i have not got a Monday off. the feeling was so different! i miss the days of not going to work. i wished that this Monday will not pass by so fast. i made this very Monday a good one...

after duty, i went to register for my basic theory again! i hope this time i will pass it once and for all... very sick of myself whenever i fail, and the most irritating thing is that you don't even know where were you wrong at. so hopefully i can pass through the grace of God's eye...

after that i went home, hunt for my swimming trunks and hit Tampines SAFRA for a good time swim! it was a wonderful swim and at the same time a wonderful sun-tan... i swam for about 2 hrs and less... and maybe around 40 laps... my back was aching though i swim at a very slow pace... the weather was thankfully good, with the sun not so hot and not hiding away... :)

after swim, i head back home, with a bit of mild sun burn here and there... i relax by playing starcraft brood war. i have not been playing games for so long! it was wonderful that no one called me for work! it was like sunday but not sunday!

after gaming, myself and my mum head to bugis to meet my sister for a family dinner. also a make up for mother's day dinner. we ate at a vegetarian restaurant... food was good! i love it, event though it was vegetarian... after dinner, we head back home... and i continued gaming again...

what a day! i wish i can have this kind of weekday every week, before i starts school with the cooking school (which i have yet to decide which to go). i hope everyday will be the same! :)

back to you

i was finally back to Singapore and immediately i felt a big difference... the big bad weather! i starts to perspire easily when i step out of Changi airport... i felt my skin back being sticky. it was like slimmer (the ghost busters green slimy thing) have just fall on me! very uneasy and quite sad to adapt back to Singapore's weather... because Taiwan is so cooling in the night! so cooling that you don't even need fan or air conditioner!

meantime while coming back to Singapore is good also because i miss home! i miss my dog, i miss my bed, i miss mee pok, i miss my buddy and friends and i miss church! but when the plane starts flying off back to Singapore, i starts to miss the "shao bing" in Taiwan! but thank God that i know how to do it. i can't wait to do it myself and try it out! i even miss the local products like grilled sotongs and the famous Taiwan sausages!

when i hit back home... my dog just can't stop licking at me because i was away from home for so long... i think he miss my smell and care... he sat with me the whole day on my lap not moving much, just wanting me to stroke at him... as usual, he will lick my hands, neck and cheeks...

a week before i flew to Taiwan, i actually starts picking up smoking again... at that time, i was stressed out with some issues and i don't wish to share it with anyone at first, i just wanted something to accompany me and that thing can't talk. and that so called best things are cigarettes... i started smoking again before i flew to Taiwan. started from light to average and when i was at Taiwan, i became heavy smoking. until a point where i suddenly get sick of smoking and was coughing badly. i just couldn't cough out the disgusting phlegm that is stuck in my throat.

so i eventually said to myself that i must stop! i don't want to continue smoking when i am back in Singapore... from reds, charcoal filter, i smoke menthol lights and my throat starts to get better. and from getting better, i manage to cough out the phlegm that is stuck in my throat. it was sticky and greenish! and that means i am very heaty! so slowly, even after i smoke menthol, i still gets a bad feeling of it because it makes me wanna puke this time! so slowly from 10 to 5 to 2 to none... i broke the promises to myself, now i have to start all over again. 7th May 2008 0400hrs was my last stick of cigarettes. i have to stay strong in this promise again!

few times as smokers smoke pass me, the urge of smoking was there but i manage to get control of it and manage to focus on doing something else that is more healthy to my body. few times i were tempted but i know that if i keep saying tomorrow is a better day, i will never be able to stop smoking. so thank God that i did not pick up that urge or not i am a goner! Praise the Lord!

many have not known that i have picked up smoking again and have let it go again. my buddy doubt me, its fine with me because at the end of the day, i know what i am doing, good or bad. well, its better to confess than to keep it as a secret. many will think that it was excuses, but how many have actually thought of what am i thinking of before they offer solutions to my problems? i think that no one have thought of what was my brain thinking before they said "excuses". quite sad to hear that but it was true... now, i'm on my way to stop smoking and building the promises again! i pray to God that this wish will not be broken again! and i pray that i will receive the strength to stay strong in it.

i wish to settle down with a life partner soon but i have yet to find one... not even a close one... i pray that He will send one right one for me and if i am blind by so many things, i pray that He will open my eyes so that i can see who she is. is love lacking in my life? i think its a yes to it. or can someone say no for me? i'm quite confused with who i should date and where i should find dates... i wonder if i will be engaged by the age of 28... does my life sound screwed? i hope not...

in another 6 month or so, i will be resigning from the forces... the burden of jobless was heavy, the burden of school fees was heavy, as well as the daily and living expenses... i believe that God will provide me a way... i most prob will be going to study in F&B line first, to get more networks of the outside world, though it will be like shit. i have to endure on, as this IS my passion. no one have forced me into F&B line. not like army, i will still have to serve it anyway, so at that point of time, money first, career second... now career and money are fighting to be the number 1 place in my life. at times i am very confused about this... money problems are slowing trying to surface up, i am trying to keep my cool and be able to manage it.

Retirement plans, Relationships and Residential. all seems to be linked into one... and it seems to be tied down to one thing, money. i have to built my business up before i hit 28. i want to hit my first $10k per month before i hit 30. i believe that my business will prosper in many ways and i will receive hundredfolds of profits! i hope for multiple income by 32, at least 3 source of income just from me alone... i hope this dream will come alive in me... thank you Lord!

AFTERTOUCHED

finally everything have come to an end, and it was time to relax! myself have a lot of food way before the tour started. i had "shao bing" which is like "fold over" from MacDonald but it consist of chicken or pork inside. it comes with large onion and some unknown sauce... it was so delicious! especially when it is hot. and 1 of this "shao bing" is equivalent to 1 of my meal. and i felt bloated in just 1 of those!!! and it cost only like NT60, which is like SGD$3. yum yum! the more i think about it, the more hungry i wants it!

so as the tour started, we went to "Jian Fu Shan Fancy world" simple, it was a theme park with roller coaster and all... so fun!!! i remember the floorless roller coaster that goes round and round till i got tired of shouting.... at night, we went to "Raohe night market" majority of the shops were selling woman's clothes and not much of the guys clothes... so there wasn't much to shop around...

the next day, we went to "Xiao Ren Guo" which means mini world. but it was raining that day, though we still went in, we didn't go around and explore but we hid under shelter... after that we were suppose to go to Leofoo Safari park but because of bad weather, we went to Taipei's largest mall. in the mall itself, there was a gigantic "Muo Tian Lun" built in the shopping mall. and it was also Taiwan's biggest shopping mall ever built! at night, we went to "Shilin night market to roam, though it was still raining, the rain was quite small, in fact, it stopped very soon as we reach there...

and on the last day, we went to "Ximen" another place for shopping! nothing much to shop but we saw a number of good things... hahaha... and we flew off back to SG on the 6the May 2210 flight. i missed home so much....

after 2 weeks.....

Taiwan was sure like a living hot oven at the same time a cold freezer! at night, temperature outside building can be as cold as 18 degree and as hot as 34 degree. unknowingly, i have got a lot my body sun tan! my face, limbs and even my body. the sun was so hot that it burns through the clothes that i wore!

few days ago, news of typhoon will hit Taiwan and it might affect the training. i prayed to God that even if the typhoon hits Taiwan, it will not affect our training. our rest and recreation might also be affected! Praise the Lord! the typhoon hit China instead! but i wonder if China citizen will be affected badly.

the food here, i am a little sick of it. i starts to miss SG food!! i might have a feast of local delights when i arrive SG. i miss my bed, i miss my dog!

i took some very nice shots that i cant wait to post it in friendster! right now i have to wait for everything to end before i can collect pictures from all my friends! everyone took different pics.

i have been sleeping late around 12 lately because i end work around 11plus and have very little rest at night. i still pray even though i am tired at night. lot of healing came to me... especially to my lip crack! it was irritating but i believe that it will be healed. and so it was. i was blessed!!!

today evening i will be going out for the grand finale exercise. it is the last exercise that i will be going through. though it will be a long 10 days, but i am going to make myself enjoyable and show my true colours that i have. as in terms of skills and leadership. it is time that i explode all these things that i have kept it. but i wonder if my friends will freak out or hate me because i sound a vlittle aggressive when i am "on the ball".

as these 2 weeks, i notice that there are condemnation and out cast of personnel taking place. in the midst of my busy and precious time preparing stuff, i am that only one dining with them... listen to their problems and understand their problems and offering solutions to their problems. all of them soon stick to me as i have took care of them. seems like they have respected me more because of my personality instead of my rank.

in the past 2 weeks, we had small exercise... i get to chat with Taiwan soldiers... they were friendly but there is a problem! i cant communicate well with them because i have problems explaining to them in chinese... who can help me pull up[ my socks in chinese ??

i got to know a soldier who is going to be a teacher in taiwan after he leave the force. i took a picture with him... hopefully we can keep in contact and be overseas friends...

i hope things will be good... cant wait for RnR now... i'm going crazy soon... sigh!

the life at Taiwan

i touched down in Taiwan on the bright sunny Sunday morning as early as 7am. it was quite a culture shock for me as it i never expect the camp to be so tear down... it was more like a kampong style but slightly better.

there were a lot of hygiene problems here as we don't have proper place to do our laundry. the water here is not portable... it was good and bad... there were limited hot water for shower. we all have to drink from mineral water. life is good here, relax and the wind is so cooling to me but very hot in the day... recently i just got a small lips crack. it was due to the strong wind and the humid level was low...

the food here was good. never get to eat some food in Singapore... it was superb!!!!! i manage to take some photographs... will be uploading it into my friendster account at www.friendster.com/patrickseng

in Singapore, only at P. Tekong i can than see real stars, and they were limited. over here in Taiwan, the whole sky is full of stars! i even saw shooting star 3 TIMES !! i was really a good sight to see.

i like the milk tea here... it was really good. fresh and well blend! the chicken chop was as well good, but only from the "ninja van" as they were fresh but unhygienic!

that's all for what i can say now... do drop me a message to my hp via websms to contact me and i will sms to your phone... it cost 60cents per sms!!! at the meantime, take care and wait for my next blog!!!

The finding...

The audit results were out... it was better than last work year... 96.38% for this work year... a 0.1% improvement in overall and my boss was very happy about it. he let us chose how many days of off we wanted... that's what many love to hear... in an organization, it is good to hear that but hard to achieve that kind of request... we dare not ask for more... we just ask for 3 days of off... finally i can take off!!!

i had never felt so good last week... i was on a week off... for the weekends that were burned in Taiwan... haha! i felt that i have AWOL.. quite funny though.... the feeling was very weird...

after this week's off, this Sunday i am flying to Taiwan... i wonder if i will be missed by anyone... haha! but i will surely miss Singapore's food... have tonnes of green packet waiting for me... yucks!

i was helping out with my friend in his delivery line.... though it was tiring, it was a learning place for me as well... i have never been to a warehouse before... and i know that the boss were powerful people... their factory was burned down due to "short circuit" after the findings... the whole warehouse was burn to ash... if i were them, my morale will drop tremendously, won't even wanna start the business again... it was everything gone... but the boss manage to pick himself up so fast and within 2 years, their warehouse was back to it's original shape and size!

if my buddy respect this kind of boss, what can i do? i will do the same, respect them as well. what more can i ask of? i wanna learn from them how did they pick themselves up so fast... or was it the nature of the business and that was a demand in Singapore...

D Day is drawing near yet...

Audit date was drawing near and i thought that it was time that i can slow down my pace. as lately, Mas Selamat Kastari have escape from detention, it has brought troubles to of us. i thought that he will be caught within a few days and things will be back to normal. but i was wrong...

thanks to our beloved MAS SELAMAT KASTARI, i was given no rest! he have been hiding somewhere in the woods and everyone in the uniform group i hunting for him. we have to prepare the planning of all checkpoints and prevent him from escaping. why was it that an army can't find a man? was it because he is too good for us? or was it because he is being stubborn and refuse to show up? if he stands in front of me right now, i will blind him, mute him and chop off his fingers. why? blind him so that he cannot see where to target next, mute him so he cannot talk to his younger generation of terrorist and chop off his fingers so he cannot write.

though i sound so inhuman but what to do? he provides threads to us instead of peace. if ever i know that a terrorist stands in front of me. i think i will throw rotten pig meat at him first and than force him to pork. not to condemn any religion or whatsoever, he is being too holy that pissed everyone off. who thinks that killing is not a sin? (those who agree just, keep breathing) see?? everyone agrees that killing is a sin, and why is he still so interested in killing?

if he wants to be a government? does he thinks that it is so easy to be a government? being a terrorist only makes the government hates you more and hunt you down more faster, that's all! he just bring shame to the nation and worst, the woman that bore him out to this world.

why can't there be peace? even watching a soccer match ALSO got people fight. LAME !!!! STUPID !!! IMMATURE !!! are all the words that i can say to these people.

hai~ that's all i have to say for now... tired of thinking of him. may serpents, scorpions, red ants, centipede and wild boar all bit him, let him be paralyse for days and night and let an anaconda swallow him up. may this kind of thread of the world disappear for ever and never again there will be terrorist!!! Peace to this cursed world!

Chinese New Year celebration

i wasn't really in the mood to prepare for chinese new year as i was still mentally tired... not enough rest yet still... but still have to fake the mood out... hai~ didn't really help out much at home with the spring cleaning as i was hardly at home... i tried my best to clear as much as i can before i return back to camp... dump so much rubbish away...

on CNY eve, had a mini celebration at camp before i meet ivan and headed home. i notice that as i grew older, i seems to lost the interest in celebrating it.

today was CNY and i was quite reluctant to go as my family gathering will be on sunday. i felt like staying at home and have a good time sleeping and surfing the net. have been badly bombarded with a lot of facebook request. so many until i gave up. i was suppose to go to 9 temple with my mum and after that to my grandma's house. upon hearing that, i

i was force to wake up and go over to my grandma house instead of going to the 9 temples. reason, my grandpa's knee was hurting, so we didn't walk at all... thank God! so we headed down to jurong west via cab. it has been a few years already since i last saw my grandma. she still looks the same...

we went for vegetarian restaurant to have lunch there, after that they wanted to walk the newly constructed temple at tanjong pagar that area... went there walk walk see see look look... nothing much... boring trip... after the walk walk see see look look, so after that headed home and ended my day...

The phase at work

it is about 3 weeks since i have not written in my blog. my schedule was so jam pack that i can hardly breathe at all. don't even have time to have good rest to complete my work and reading my bible. now i am off track my bible reading... all thanks to you, the evil one~! may all the shame and shit be put upon you!!

everyday was so directly dry, do up my safety notice board and safety checklist for the unit to follow on. was very tiring over doing my checklist especially. have to meet all standards to prevent others from finding faults in us. this was the life that i have been going thru for the past 3 weeks or so. boring weeks indeed!

i nearly fall sick lately as i have been going to ammo dump to help other draw ammunition. i wonder how many will pity me as nobody will remember the backstage workers! i wonder how many camp mates will give me words of encouragements when i am down. i wonder who will give me a helping hand when i need those hands, who will lend those ears when i need one, who will provide an answer when i need one...

though i have no doubts on God but at times i don't understand why is my life so hard. was it because that i hardly pray, so that my life is harder?

Preparation for Audit check....

at the beginning of this week, i was asked if i want to be part of the safety management system force. my job will be preparing all the works and distributes to the others and make sure they follow and also to make sure that things are all in place. as i was experience in doing this last work year, i decided to give a helping hand.

i have tried to recall as many things as i can. i remembered that the last safety management audit gave me no day no night. it was just keep working and working and working. it was a hell long week. that was my memory and it was my past. now i am grateful that i do not have to work until like last time, no day no night as i have a more specific task. last work year my task was everything down the long checklist. it was a challenge!

my task this time was just to make sure that the safety board is completed with the required information pinned up and make sure the others did follow the standard as the safety team has set. i am quite unsure on where to get the information as last time i get informations from them and pinned it up. now i have to give them informations and let them pin up. did you see the difference? it was really indeed a pain in the ass... a lot of searching high and low and asking here and there was done. it was tiring BUT i like it because it has tested me mentally.

friday doesn't seems to be like a working day as i was roaming around like a lost soul... hid in edmund's cubical and played game instead of working. haha...

sunday church

Sunday came and i met lai meng at Tampines MRT station. was glad that he did not put me aeroplane... we went for breakfast at east point mall and Alan was suppose to join us but he overslept. so we meet him in church instead. on our way there, lai meng was open to anything i asked him. i respect people who owns an open mind!

service started at 0930 instead of 10 and if i knew earlier, i will have came earlier. lai meng got a shock and so did i. i was wondering how come they started so early... he was totally lost in church... he didn't know what to do...

the first weekend in 2008 i spend it in church, i am glad that i did that... pastor talks about focusing on my goal. a great topic for a new year for me. i have not really know what focus really means in life until they gave lots of examples. an example of HP computer. i didn't know that HP computers were that bad after they start to lose focus in their printing industry and wanted to compete with other companies.

with this example, i now have know the importance of focusing in life... HP will always be a good example of mine and to learn from them the mistake the CEO made. if you want to know more, find out yourself about HP past. hahaha

lai meng headed to enous as he have to go to his grandma house for lunch, so myself and Alan went for lunch at pastamania TM. we chatted and he bring me around for shopping some good watches... haha i cant wait to get a good watch that worth a few hundreds.

after window shopping, i met up with Tina and Sherrill at Bugis for discussion of Alan's 21st birthday. wanted a good one for him as he hit 21... mine was very horrible celebration, or in fact i didn't even celebrate at all... no money at that time even though i have a good plan. well to me, birthday is the day that marks the day that you are born and another year older... that's all and nothing special about it. we had a lot of walking that day and i didn't know that there are so many new things in the city... man someone please be kind and bring me out to town for some shopping please....

after the discussion, i met up with ranger and his friends for a movie, national treasure. it was indeed a good movie as it was about adventure.. that's all... hahaha and after the movie, we had a light dinner and we headed back our separate ways home, for me camp, Confined At Military Prison... =(

MCF dine and bible study

MCF stands for Military Christian Fellowship and not Makan Come First! on Monday itself, my brigade commander's secretary called me and ask if i can make it for a dinner this sat and i was quite shock to hear it. she says it is some Christian fellowship dinner and our brigade commander is going... well it seems like it is a chance to get to know him more, as i have never had the chance to talk to him like that in an informal dinner. COA was there General Winston Choo was there as well and a lot of other head of this and that were there as well. thinking back, it was indeed proven that you are not alone when you are with God!

we had a great dinner, and of course a great message before dinner.Rev John Sim, no idea from which church, preach about His words. this is the first time i had such dinner and i believe that a lot of soldiers are unaware of this annual affair. wasn't quite use to the way of their praise and worship, maybe its because of the place is limited so not much musical instruments were brought there. there were praise and worship as well and also a performance.... really a great night that i had at Temasek club.

when myself and Alan reach Temasek club, Alan told me that Temasek club is like a chevron for the officers core... i was shock to hear that. we walk around and it seems like there isn't much facilities and i wonder if the officers come to these places because i saw the swimming pool drainage like stuck... hahaha... and that place is quite torn down... they have a very interesting logo, that looks like sunshine empire logo as well! haha

today i had my very first bible study with wei qiang and wei xiang (the 2 wei ker) from serene the teacher! didn't knew much about bible study and was surprise to hear that there are a number of books that we have to complete. Interesting! and now i am looking forward to having bible studies every Saturday after cell group meeting! Praise the Lord!

Lai Meng, (one of my store man) is coming to church with me tomorrow. so excited to see him come to church with me... and i pray that he will respond to the alter call and believes in Jesus Christ and accept Him to be his Lord and Savior and will spread the good news to his family! Amen! Believing is having Faith in God!