my friends are all gone to SISPEC and I'm left alone in the unit. the new specialist are in already and I'm not so close to them yet. i miss those days of me being with my buddy but lately he seems to be hostile? or rather ignoring me. he knows that i was in needs of financial help as Wilson's business has flop and me and Wilson are now working hard to pay off the debts. when i ask for his help, he actually turn his back against me by not replying. he gave me a cold shoulder that we just met and knew each other. he gave me a kind of feelings like "your problem is your problem and don't share your problem with me" kind of attitude.
i was feeling quite sad after that incident... i wonder how many real friends of mine are there that really are considered true friends... but for sure i do have a good true friend, his nick is Garfield... has been friends since i was 15 and in a blink of time, we have been friends for 9 long years! though we do quarrel at times because of disagreement, we still know what is the other party thinking as well. he is the only one that is with me during my very bad times...
hai....... payment of bills after bills... so sick of it. i have long to have a debt free life but i was wrong. i just got deeper into debts... i wish i can clear TCC bank loan asap because i am just left with 500 before i can pay other bill with a problem lesser. i have tried to find some part time jobs but i have not been lucky lately. i don't know why... i seems so frustrated with those reminder bills. i wish that i can get a loan from someone that is kind enough to lend me a big some of money to clear all my outstanding debts and slowly pay him/her back monthly. i need a rough total of about SGD$2000 for everything that has an outstanding. i wish that this dream will come true...
well, of course not from loan sharks or banks but friends who don't mind lending it to me and allow me to pay back monthly. i will really be grateful to that person if there is one person that really exist in my friend list.
i have never like borrowing from friends because they will give me all kind of face expression and will remember that they have once helped me and demand help when they needed one. unless i am really in a dead end with nowhere to go. hope things will turn out better soon or later. it seems like i only have a friend in this world...
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