A stone was lifted off my mind

lately i was so stressed up. can say quite bad this time round. 20 more days to next pay day, and i have always been looking for this day to come nearer because of the liabilities. kinda sick to repeat those sickening sad things that how these liabilities got into me. sigh~

just as when it was my darkest hour, (or was it just the beginning?) i manage to find someone to help me that is willing to give me a loan of 260. i was glad to hear. as some of you people already know that my line was disconnected, it was because of due to some reasons which i am just too sad to explain. (but i don't know why did i kept looping back to the sad topic!)

well, anyway, on that night was ranger's friend, Wenlin's birthday. there was a little people but a lot of food! it wasn't the usual me that i could stop eating so soon. my appetite has change! i ate far just too little food and i was bloated! at that point of time, i have not had any gassy drinks yet and i was like so full in my tummy! but all i could remember was that i ate 30 odds otah! that sounds kinda scary but i don't know why i just kept eating them as ranger bought 130 otah for a less than 30 people chalet!!! yup, a birthday celebration less than 30 person! sometimes its good to have your closest friends with you celebrating your birthday but the bad thing is, you better know if your friend can eat a small hump of food or food as high as Fuji mountain! haha there was too many wasted food. kinda sad to throw them away as it is such a waste!

i did not sleep that night, even though i stink. after the BBQ, all of us went for a short fish at the sea with ranger's new date!!! could you believe that he has a new date? I'm really happy for him that he got a new date! hope he will cherish her if they were together. after the fishing session, we all headed back to the chalet and some of us started to watch movies. Rules of Engagement, Final Fantasy 1 & 2 and Hollow man 2 (but halfway because gotta check out!) i have not watch movies for that long and i felt great after that and the best thing, I'm not sleepy or tired!

after we checked out, ranger send the remaining people home. he car seems to be overloaded by itemssss. hahaha... i was really a fun night! i got to destress myself a lot and i am feeling a lot better now! thanks for his invitation over to the chalet or not I'll be rotting and vexing over these matters and will go crazy soon enough! hope every week, someone will ask me out to ECP or changi beach to view the quiet sea. it somehow makes me felt easy and at ease. i felt peace at the very moment when i sat down on the rocks, watching the waves hitting against the rock gently. all my worries was forgotten by the peaceful silent night. i was really an enjoyable day!